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He has passed away, and I realized he's not just a bird... I'm sad...

RIP, my little stray bird... Now you can fly fly fly high besides our Father God... No cat will disturb you anymore, Dear...

This cruel world has set you free... You must be very happy, right?

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Today was just wonderful. I felt a great satisfaction of helping another living being. And I just forgot my sadness and disappointment. I realized that this life was not about me myself only. I shouldn't be selfish, but I hope people don't treat me selfishly as well. Amen.

What has happened to me? I found an injured bird. I, bf, and Ahin brought the bird to a vet and now it is being hospitalized. I hope it gets well soon.

I am really glad I was born as human. At least, I wouldn't get bitten by a cat when I fall down.

Father God, please bless Rio so that it can fly again, fly high, high, and higher.

Thank You.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

The pain is inside out. I don't know which one did trigger the pain, but my body and my heart have been torn apart.

Cramp. Painful. Burned.

And the pain goes directly into my chest.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Friendship is something that you should cherish with all your heart and soul. Friendship is not just a bunch of people hanging out, doing things together, and laughing together. Friendship is about a bunch of people that empathize and sympathize on each other's feelings.

I am so lucky that I have found a real friendship in my life. They are always there when I need them, and they never sack me just because sometimes I can be a little bit annoying. And I am also always there when they need me. Because what we hold together is our friendship.

People come in and go out of our friendship. Each one of us finds boyfriend and breaks up, but our love to each other will never vanish.

Because we know what the real friendship is.

I miss my besties!!!
And I know I can count on them, like they can count on me.



U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Actually I didn't tend to join, but just to support my club's activity.
And now, I feel more excited. LOL.

So, can you help me like the FB page Mr and Ms CEE and then like my photo?

Thanks a lot!!!!!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Sometimes in the future, maybe when I have reached all my targets in engineering field, I would like to make money from what I enjoyed doing. And it's simply organizing an event.

Yeah, I want to set up an event organizer company.

Maybe it's just a dream now, but I hope it's feasible in the future. I know I don't have any background in this field. Organizing some university-level events doesn't ensure that I know everything about event organizing. But, i just simply ENJOY it when I'm doing it.

I'm dreaming of being an event organizer. The client will tell me the event type and objectives and I'll start working out from the scratch: creating a theme, creating a program flow, setting up the decoration, designing the posters, banners, and everything, as well as creating some necessary props. I know I have no skills in doing those things, but I'm sure my brain can imagine it. So later, I will have some capable subordinates to do things for me. Yeay.

I really hope that my dream will come true, since there will be a time when I want to spend more time on my family instead of being clogged up inside the office cubicle. Being an EO, my time will be more flexible. I love the idea.

And I will take care of this dream until it blooms beautiful flowers.
I love dreaming, and I love taking care of my dream.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

What should I do?
I get disappointed more easily. I expect more things to keep me happy and get turned down every time. I start to bug, to scold, to scream, to show black face, to get angry. I am getting super annoying. And I am super frustrated as well.

This fluctuating mood is driving me crazy. Period please come soon so I can be a more positive person.


U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

And I am sad for still being considered as an outsider and never getting the trust. I never want this distance, but you set it yourself.

I hate it. You are so defensive. As if I will swallow your pride.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I am always running all this long and now I think of resting. Is it okay if I rest myself on your chest?Do I dare to lean my head there? Or should I just turn back and continue to run away?I am exhausted, but I am afraid to wake up and find myself back to loneliness.

And now, I feel your chest as cold as an ice block... You are changing... Can you change back, Dear? I am torn apart right now...

This is not a dream, isn't it? You are real, right?

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~