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Me: Tomorrow is Vesak day.
Mom: Vesak day here is Saturday
Me: Huh? Why is it so strange?
Mom: Maybe Indonesia is further than Singapore...
Bro: Yea, that's why Buddha takes longer to reach Indonesia...
Me: Maybe he takes Lion Air and the flight is delayed...

No matter when Vesak Day is, I wish all a happy and blessed Vesak Day... Buddha blesses us all...

Sabbe satta bhavantu sukitattha...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

My mouse in the office keeps double-clicking although I just do single click...

Maybe this is a sign...

Even my mouse tries to shoo me...

:)

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Magically people from old times are swirling around now... Maybe this is a sign...

A sign...

A sign for better...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I was swimming for the past two years... In the ocean without boundaries...

It was started by my curiosity and it led me here. And it will be ended by my rationality and future end-in-mind.

Making a decision is indeed not easy. Stepping out of the comfort zone is even more difficult.

I know I have gone through hard time, but who knows what is there ahead?

I am ready...

No more contemplation, I am ready for a change, no matter what the price is...

Now it's time to set up a plan, a real plan...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

One of my conversation with bf
Me: Goldfish is getting more and more annoying!
bf: What is it this time?
Me: Anything Goldfish does just annoy me.
bf: I think you are going to bring a knife to the office sometime later.

I bumped into one of my contractor
Me: Hi.
He: Let's plan something to kill Goldfish!
Me: *burst into laugh*

In daily meeting
Contractor: Tomorrow we will start the activity after 3:30pm because there will be an event going on at the school.
Goldfish: But your machine is broken, right?
Contractor: No, we already repaired.
Goldfish: *pull out handphone and start typing*
Suddenly my phone vibrated and there was a message in a chat group
Goldfish: Contractor informs that the machine is already repaired. Please check on site.
After a while, site inspector replied with a photo showing the machine in working condition.
To our surprise, she replied, in caps lock: TEST TO ASCERTAIN THAT IT CAN WORK NOW.
I almost burst into tears. Goldfish is so funny.

So I have proof that Goldfish is indeed annoying.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

KFC has this product everytime Avengers movies are screened.

This time is Iron Man.

So there is this tagline: The Hero Sized Burger for Hero Sized Appetite.
And I think, "Tony Stark would not eat that, hell!"

At another time, I asked bf, "Why do they call it Double Down?"
And he said, almost instantaneously, "After you it double chicken, you will feel down."

Okay, that made some senses. I guess lots of people are feeling down now. :P



U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

The last time I can remember seeping a happiness is like zillion years away. I do not hold anymore happy feeling in doing what I do. Monday to Friday, I am just waiting for the week to pass and day by day, time passes so slowly.

I have only one thing that keep me here and that thing seems getting further from me.

I am alone after all. And I am a child, anyway.

I am not ready to grow up.

There is I in happiness but I alone can't get that happiness. I need U to pursue it.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

When I was tapping my card to open a door in HQ
Contractor: Huh? You have a card?
Me: -______________- I am a staff!

I don't suit here, do I?

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I was relaying this story to my best friend.

Once upon a time, in a meeting room, I was talking to one of my contractors. Someone was not very happy to see me talking to people, and that someone interrupted our small chat.

Someone: Tomorrow is your last day, huh?
Contractor: Noo, Saturday.

And a very surprising follow up I have ever heard came out of that someone's mouth, "Last Saturday, huh?"

So I told my friend, I don't know what was that inside that someone's head. Maybe the brain is not there, the brain is located inside the panties. The panties are washed very frequently so the brain is damaged.

What a smart girl my friend is. This is her response: Someone is a goldfish which every two seconds lose the memory and looks very blurred.

I laughed so hard. Alone. To my computer.

What a day.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~