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Pindah alamatttttt...

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U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Seperti angin
Diriku terbang dan melayang
Kulihat-lihat berkeliling
Mereka yang begitu bergelimang

Kulihat harta
Kudengar bahagia

Lalu kulihat diriku
Kumuh

Lalu kulihat cermin
Aku hanya angin

Angin yang bertiup
Angin yang bergerak
Angin yang melambai

Mungkin akan berlabuh di lautan luas
Mungkin akan mendaki ke atas gunung

Mungkin juga akan hilang
Hilang begitu saja dimakan topan

Mungkin aku akan terus berhembus
Mencari-cari sebuah mimpi

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

23 years old and achieve nothing!

That's me.

Looking at my surroundings, I feel so small, so useless. I am just a useless loser.

I am not someone in the company, just a little fish that can be taken away from the water so easily.
I am not starting my own business or doing something significant for my finance.
I am not sure about how to continue my study.
I have no special ability in anything.
I suck in my love life.

Damn.

Before I quit my job, I had a plan but now after I rethought and rethought about it, the plan changed. I am now in the dark.

Who am I? Who am I going to be?

I need a guidance. I need a way to get my dream.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Ketika bicara hanya jadi luka
Tapi diam hanya jadi perih

Ketika dua pasang kaki berderap bersama
Tapi hampa tanpa gelak tawa

Ketika dunia tetap berputar
Tapi hati tersayat

Ketika itu
Aku tahu
Sendiri itu sepi
Berdua itu sunyi

I am not alone but I am lonely


U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I was thinking how people rate the compatibility among them? Do people hang out with the one having the same hobby and interest? Do people leave the one without similarity to them?

How people fall in love? Do they feel attracted to those that are like them? Or are they attracted to those with complete different characteristics?

I don't know how I fell in love. I don't know whether we are compatible.

I know that we are different, completely different. But I always believe that two pieces of jigzaw puzzle should be different in shape to be able to connect. Hence we are the two different pieces.

Are we two different pieces that are supposed to be side by side?
Are we compatible for each other?

Please let me know the answer. I don't have forever to figure out.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

While searching...





This is my friend's version,

Dear Boss,

I QUIT.

Regards,
Your employee

Anddddd, this is my version:

Dear Boss,

I hereby declare that you do not deserve to have me as an employee. Therefore, effective from next week, we are complete strangers.

Sincerely,
Your beloved employee

P.S. You suck!

I have a greaaaat temptation to write some creative things over my letter :D

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I am simply a girl who is looking for her direction.

Looking back, I have spent two years of life looking for something I didn't even know. And now I realize, I drifted further from what I wanted.

I am going to start a new life. Not that I have found what I want, I just finally knew something that I did not want: to be bullied.

I am ready for all the sacrifices and I am looking forward to my new life.

Adios! I will miss most part of my life now, for sure.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Me: Tomorrow is Vesak day.
Mom: Vesak day here is Saturday
Me: Huh? Why is it so strange?
Mom: Maybe Indonesia is further than Singapore...
Bro: Yea, that's why Buddha takes longer to reach Indonesia...
Me: Maybe he takes Lion Air and the flight is delayed...

No matter when Vesak Day is, I wish all a happy and blessed Vesak Day... Buddha blesses us all...

Sabbe satta bhavantu sukitattha...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

My mouse in the office keeps double-clicking although I just do single click...

Maybe this is a sign...

Even my mouse tries to shoo me...

:)

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~