Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Welcome, October!

When I look back, I realize that it's really a miracle for me to cope on both work and study for these two months. I regularly woke up early in the morning to flip on my notes before going off for work, my work kept me busy from nine to six, and I got back to my notes after working hours. And of course, I still need to set aside some time for bf on the weekends. So, it's really amazing to see how God has equipped me with so much strength and determination for the whole two months.

And now, the exam is over and I can have more time to sleep and more time to play. Thanks God for the blessing before and during the exam, but I want to ask one more thing from You, please don't let my exam fail. Please, I beg You.

Although I am not too sure about my performance just now, I still feel very thankful. At least I have done my best, now let God do the rest. :):):)

I am closing September with a big satisfaction and welcoming October with a great hope. More interesting things are going to happen: more works in the office, novels to read, diet to go through, and fashion apparels to shop.

To do list:
1. Buy 'Sing You Home'
2. Buy Elle bag that I saw in OG two weeks ago
3. Play more 'Pottermore'
4. Ask Ros to load me with more works as she promised :D
5. Lose at least 2kg before 22 October 2011
6. Sleep well

So, welcome Dear October!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

P.S. I was so happy to meet SJ today!!!!
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Monday, September 26, 2011

Final Days

Tell me what I should do. Two days left before the D-day, and I don't know what to do. The uneasiness popped  up in my mind like mad. I feel so sick to see the books, yet I feel so guilty not to look at them. I want this to end soon. It doesn't mean I hate this situation: this is my choice, so I must bear with it, but the nerves I feel right now is so bad till my heart is going to jump out of its cavity.

I want 28th September 2011 to come faster.

And Dear God, please bless me.

Thank you.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Friday, September 16, 2011

In a Lonely Time on a Lonely Road

In a lonely time on a lonely road, I thought about many things
In a lonely time on a lonely road, I dreamed about many things
In a lonely time on a lonely road, I thanked God about many things

How I can get my life on the right track is still a big question mark. But, let it be. I am here and I am happy with my life. I am thankful with everything I have, even the tedious admin job that I am currently covering.


In a lonely time on a lonely road, I promised to be happy forever

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Thursday, September 15, 2011

Sorry

My mom suddenly crossed my mind: how she would react if she knew I had been treated like this.

Mom, really sorry...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Sunday, September 11, 2011

Black

Most of the time, I'm wondering why my feeling is more sensitive towards my closest circle. I am much more sensitive, yes. When they talk or act a little bit unusual or differently from what I expect, I'll turn so black and angry. I don't know why, but it's just my auto-response.

I keep getting angry if I see there's something wrong. I keep showing my black face.

I am so bad to have such a high expectation, aren't I?

Please give me an answer.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Friday, September 02, 2011

Thanks

The feeling I feel is really pleasing me. I am still a fresh graduate, I am still a little girl, but at least people around me are thinking of some ways to guide and let me grow.

I want some responsibilities, I want some roles, I want some contributions, and I want to feel the satisfaction of my achievements. I just don't want to be a big potato sack that earns money for nothing.

I am still very amazed of how God loves me. He sends me so many good souls to lay my path towards a bright future.

I know it's a bit late, but I really want to use this teacher's day as an excuse to write some words for my 'teachers'.

Of course, my first teacher ever are my parents. They have taught me so many things. Even million thanks are not enough to express my gratitude to them. They have worked so hard to lay my path. I will not have my today if not because of their lessons to me. So, really, thank you.

And then, all my school teachers, from kindergarten till university, were all sent by God to help shaping myself. I wont be a bachelor today if they were not on the way. So, again, thank you.

Another thank you I want to arrow to all my friends, especially Lisa, Valen, Renni, Dya, Jesi, Merryn, Savitri, and Vivien. They have taught me that your real friends will always there for you whenever. Although we are not staying together, although we meet very rarely, although we are not spending time together, we are there inside each other's hearts. So, thanks, Friends.

And not forgetting, all the boys that have filled in my life have taught me to be stronger and stronger. And the biggest thanks is of course for my boyfriend who has taught me how to love and to be loved. Thank you, so much thank you.

Not forgetting my fruitful Industrial Attachment experience, I really thank my seniors in AECOM Singapore: Stephen, Shwu Jiuan, C'hng Yih, John, Chandran, Reddy, and other ex-colleagues that can't be mentioned one by one. I learn a lot from them and I really feel grateful for the chance to be one of them, even only for 22 weeks.

Lastly, thanks for my colleagues now in LTA, especially Rosalind. She's like a big sister to me. She teaches me so many things which I cannot learn from anyone else here. And of course, my PM Mr. Ng, he's so nice until I feel like melting. And all the 923 team, I am really grateful. I will work hard to show my thanks. Also, thanks to my new friends in LTA.

Thanks to all my teachers.
You are all God's messengers!!!
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