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I was relaying this story to my best friend.

Once upon a time, in a meeting room, I was talking to one of my contractors. Someone was not very happy to see me talking to people, and that someone interrupted our small chat.

Someone: Tomorrow is your last day, huh?
Contractor: Noo, Saturday.

And a very surprising follow up I have ever heard came out of that someone's mouth, "Last Saturday, huh?"

So I told my friend, I don't know what was that inside that someone's head. Maybe the brain is not there, the brain is located inside the panties. The panties are washed very frequently so the brain is damaged.

What a smart girl my friend is. This is her response: Someone is a goldfish which every two seconds lose the memory and looks very blurred.

I laughed so hard. Alone. To my computer.

What a day.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

People come, people go. When there is a hello, there will be a goodbye.

One and a half year is not long, yet it is not short enough to disregard everything that has happened. I have been here for one and a half year with each and every one of my team members, either my LTA team or the contractor.

I am a client, but I never put myself as an opponent or boss of my contractor. I make them my friends within my working life. I have been very close with a few of them and I feel comfortable around them.

And sadly to say, two of them are going to move out and move on.

I am sad but I wish them all the best!!!!

Me: I am sad!
Him: Why sad?
Me: Why do you need to go?
Him: I will come back...
Me: 3 years later, the project has been finished...
Him: Next project, if you can't be PM, maybe a DPM, we will meet again... I am Construction Manager, you are DPM... Next project...

Amen~~~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Being together with someone for so long indeed makes us complacent and taking things for granted. We end up transforming the love and passion into daily routine and some sort of obligation. The feeling we have is still the same, but what we pursue to express the love is different. We assume the other party already understand the feeling and no more proof shall be shown. We are human, we are indeed human. We tend to jump to the conclusion ourselves.

Today will never be too late to say I love you to your loved one and show him/her that you care. Today will never be too late.

And tomorrow, tell yourself again, today will never be too late.

Yes, never. Today will never be too late.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Mom: Kalo emang ga hepi sama kerjaan yang sekarang, cari kerjaan baru la, pindah... Daripada kamu stress...
Me: Nantilah, mau tahanin dulu...
Mom: Tapi kalaupun udah pindah ke tempat baru belum tentu bisa dapet lebih baik dari yang sekarang...
Me: Makanya... Udah la, enakan pulang rumah aja, belajar masak terus ikut audisi MasterChef tahun depan...
Mom: Gaya kamu, masak telor setengah mateng aja belum tentu bisa...
Me: *jleb*

Mom never fails to cheer me up!!!!

Love you!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I have three friends that are closest to me right now. Thanks a lot to smart phones and Whats App that bring us together. There are no days without chatting with them and they are one of the reasons for me to survive. We can talk about anything, from the works, friends, habits, life difficulties, achievement, high school memories, new crush, and any other thing. We usually give advice to each other, show the third-party perspective, and help each other in making decision.

One time, I so hated this person and we got this person a nickname: boss sok besar. The other time, my friend was telling a bit of her interest towards this guy, and this guy suddenly had a code name: Agak-Agak. There were still so many funny names we created. I did not think people will understand what we talked about if they scrolled up the pages and read everything. :D

We can talk about anything, but what we talk about is mostly about work. I am working in a big company with complicated hierarchical system and politics. My two other friends are working in a small enterprise with  stingy boss and crazy working hours. There is one more who just quit from her job and is going to enter a very well-known company in Indonesia. We had different working background, we had different offices, we had different bosses, we had different system and working hours, but we shared the same story: unhappiness about work.

Monday will be the most unhappy day, Friday will be the most cheerful day, Saturday and Sunday will be very quiet because we are all busy with our own thing.

It's a funny relationship that we have. I love them all. Thanks for filling my life, Jesi, Valen, and Wewe! Yeeehaaaa~~~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I've known him since I was 15. I've been his good friend since I was 18. I went out with him since I was 19. And now I am 22.

Three years have passed! And it's another time to say, "Happy Anniversary, Baby!"

For all the laughter, all the tears... For all the joy, all the sadness... For all the quarrels, all the embraces... For all the smooth-sailing, all the rocky roads... For all the way these three years, I thank God, I thank the universe, I thank you...

There are so many things ahead of us, that we need to face... I believe we will walk hand in hand until the end of the world...

Do you remember that you said one lifetime would never be enough, and you wanted nine instead?

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Enam puluh tujuh tahun telah berlalu sejak Ir. Soekarno membacakan sajak proklamasi dan mengumandangkan kemerdekaan Negara Kesatuan Republik Indonesia. Enam puluh tujuh tahun telah berlalu dan foto-foto hitam putih telah berubah menjadi gambar-gambar bergerak dan bersuara. Enam puluh tujuh tahun telah berlalu dan wajah yang terpampang di kanan dan kiri Sang Garuda telah berganti lebih dari sepuluh kali. Enam puluh tujuh tahun telah berlalu dan rumah-rumah beratap rendah telah menjelma menjadi struktur-struktur yang menggapai langit.

Enam puluh tujuh tahun telah berlalu.

Banyak yang berubah.

Terlalu banyak.

Kekeluargaan yang dulu dijunjung tinggi sebagai salah satu budaya Indonesia kini telah terkikis egoisme dan individualisme. Tak banyak lagi yang menggenggam kekeluargaan, empati, dan simpati dalam langkah mereka. Semua hanya memikirkan diri sendiri, diri sendiri, dan diri sendiri.

Zamrud khatulistiwa dibangun dari berbagai suku, agama, dan ras. Perjuangan rakyat tak hanya datang dari golongan atau suku tertentu. Bambu runcing dihunus atas satu merah putih, tanpa ada yang membandingkan salib dan bulan sabit atau hitam dan putih. Namun, kini manusia saling hujam dan saling bunuh karena perbedaan agama, karena perbedaan suku. Apakah perbedaan bisa jadi alasan untuk melenyapkan nyawa sesama manusia?

Indonesia yang kaya, Indonesia yang subur, Indonesia yang makmur kini telah hancur babak belur. Hutan dibakar, banjir di mana-mana, gempa bumi meraja-lela.

Sungguh, terlalu banyak yang berubah.

Menyedihkan.

Namun, harapku hanya satu, agar negaraku Indonesia kembali menjadi burung garuda yang perkasa, yang mampu terbang tinggi di angkasa dan bersinar terang.

Garudaku, masih ada waktu untukmu, untuk terbang dan menggapai bintang-bintang.

Dirgahayu Indonesiaku.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I tell her, butterflies have gone through agony before beauty stroke them. From ugly worms to lonely cocoons, they have to overcome all the pain and suffering before transforming into butterflies and flying high. And you are to overcome those pain now, so you can be the real beauty queen. I am sure you can.

And I tell her, birds drop their children from their nests, not because they do not want to raise their babies. They do that with great pain, I am sure, but they do not have any other choices. They just want their babies to learn to fly. So, you are now ready to be dropped from your nest. Tell your mom to do so.

I am sure you can fly high, like a beautiful butterfly, like a cheerful bird in the sky.
I am sure you can shine, like a twinkling star, like a rising sun.
I am sure you can be whatever you want to be.
You are the champion!

I love you, My friend, and I wish you all the best!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Saya memberikan bando kepada Kayra
Kay: Xie xie

Sesaat kemudian
Kay: Ii Fen Fen... *lari ke dalam kamar*
Me: *ngikut* Ya?
Kay: Ii Fen Fen, itu *sambil menunjuk kumpulan bando* itu punya Kaykay, taruh situ...
Me: Nanti kalo Kaykay ke mall, dipake ya... *naruh bandonya di tempat yang ditunjuk Kay*
Kay: Ii Fen Fen... Beli di mana?
Me: Di Xin Jia Po...
Kay: Kok itu doang? Tas nya mana?
Me: Tas apa???
Kay: Tas Barbie Kaykay...
Me: ... *Oemji dia nagih!!!!!*


Di mobil, hampir tiba di bandara
Me: Ray, ii pulang ke Xin Jia Po dulu ya...
Ray: Iya, ii di sana jangan nakal ya...
Me: ... *What???? Am I the one who is supposed to say that????*


Di mobil, Kay sedang main PSP
Kay: *menyodorkan PSP ke saya* Ii Fen Fen, ini mainya gimana?
Me: *bingung soalnya dr tadi dia main* Sini... Ini gini...
Kay: *mengalihkan perhatiannya ke benda lain*
Me: *akhirnya main PSP sendiri*


Kayra and Ray are so adorable!!!!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

It's a wonderful feeling you have when you know that someone is attempting so hard to be your future. He/she doesn't have to be perfect, but he/she will go round the imperfection and put the best effort to create a perfect world for you.

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend, lucky to have been where I have been~~~

Being with you is like falling in love every split second again and again...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Say hi to 2012.

For this year, basically, my resolution is to be thankful for everything I have and to hold on this principle very tightly: being happy is a choice.

Yeah, being happy is indeed a choice. You can choose to be happy in every situation, even in a bad one. And you'll end up appreciating more. On the other hand, you can also choose to be dissatisfied and keep whining over anything and you'll end up suffering for the whole year. I want to be the first one: to be thankful, to be happy, to keep shining. I am sure by having a beautiful heart, I will be a beautiful person, and I can make the world even more beautiful. :)

You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one... I hope someday you'll join us, and the world will live as one...

For this world, in 2012, I hope there will be less earthquakes, floods, and other natural disasters. I hope there will be less brutality, like those fathers-rape-their-own-daughter or daughters-slap-moms-in-the-face thingy. I hope for more justice to the poor. I hope more good leaders will be born and lead the world to a better state. I hope there will be no more war and conflicts between countries. I hope for less corrupted country leaders. I hope all religions walk hand in hand. I hope there is no bombing, assassination, and murder. I wish for world peace.

And for my own self, I have a few points to highlight.

As a person, I wish I can be better.
-I wish I can always be thankful and grateful and be closer to my God.
- I want to cultivate patience in my life as I realize this is one of my problems so far. I should hold my anger and not throw my tantrum so easily.
- I shall continue to learn and read and gain as many knowledge as possible. Nothing should stop me from learning to be better in every aspect of my life.
- I also hope that I can maintain a good lifestyle: less fried food, less snacks, less carbs, more exercise. My target for this year is to be slimmer and have a good shape. ;)
- I should continue to save money for my future: either study or business start up.
- I wish I can have a firm idea of what I want for my future. I should not continue to walk in the mist and uncertainty for too long.

As a girlfriend, I wish I can be an ideal one.
- I shall not throw my tantrum like a mad dog. I want to reflect before getting angry. I am sure he never wants to hurt me, so I shall not hurt him.
- My target for this year: minimum quarrel, more understanding. I think we have achieved a better level of understanding in these few months, but really, we shall continue to attempt the harmonious living in our love life.
- I also wish he has the same determination as me. Two is better than one!
- I really wish to spend the next new year celebration with him.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

31st December is always a remarkable day for each and every year, including this year. Yes, another year is coming and everybody ought to say good bye to the year on 31st December. Good bye, 2011, you have been teaching me abundantly this year. Thank you, from the deepest of my heart.

2011 is a great year for me. I have been an adult this year, literally. I reached my 21st this year. Although there is no celebration, I am still thankful.

So many thanks I want to say to 2011.

Although I spent my 2011 countdown to be shed in tears, I am thankful that all my family finally could let go and disregard this problem. None of all humans out there shall disturb the happiness of my family. We are united, and we don't care what you are talking about behind our back. As long as God knows we are doing the right time, we are innocent and we are proud of it. Thanks 2011.

This year is also special because I made a big choice between pursuing a master degree and career. And I chose working in LTA instead of studying at Imperial College of London. Until now, I still wonder what would happen if I chose otherwise? Would I be happier? Would my future be brighter? Oh, well, I have chosen, so let it be. I am sure God has crafted a great future for me, no matter what path I choose to walk on. Thanks 2011.

And 2011 also marked my turning point from a tertiary student to working adult. I am so grateful that I managed to get through my four-year study with a glorious end. I successfully managed to achieve the first class honor and became one of the dean's list for my final year. Although I regretted that I was not given any award, I know I have done my best and achieved the best. I just felt so sad that my parents could not see me walking up to the stage and getting my medals or awards or whatever. I spent quite a lot of time to cry and blame whoever people I could blame, but then I realized something. Maybe this is the way God wants to teach me that not all of my desire could come true, I should let go and let other people sip the pride and happiness. As bf told me, "So far you have no difficulties to reach whatever thing you want to achieve, this is the time for you to learn.". Yeah, it's true. I have learned my lesson. Thanks 2011.

Joining this new family called LTA was a big leap in my life. From a student life that required me to study, do my tutorial, attend your classes, and join a few organization only, I entered this totally brand new life, with so many dark side. Although I've been here only a few months, I can see that so many people play politics and try to score some points from their bosses by stealing other people's credit. Some people are just bad bosses that can't appreciate their staff. I am so thankful that I chose my own boss and I know my choice is not wrong. My boss is a superb! He is kind, he is cool, he has a long term vision, he is so knowledgeable, he has the aura that intimidates the contractor, he is fun, he is young-hearted, he likes to chat with his staff, he is a super boss! Thanks 2011.

In LTA, I have learned so many things that I couldn't learn in university. I have learned about the real construction life and I am learning over an over. I have learned that it is not easy to be the youngest yet have someone older as your subordinate. I have learned that all the bosses up there only care about the final result, not the effort you put in to achieve it. I have learned that it is not healthy to be married to your job but yet, I still can't help it. I have learned that sometime you may feel redundant but there is always a way to make your existence remarkable. I have learned so many things throughout this seven months and I am learning still. Thanks 2011.

2011 also marked the loss of my grandmother, and today is her 49 days. That was the first time in my whole life to attend a funeral and become a part of it. I was sad, very sad. I cried over and over, although I knew that was the best way for her: to be separated with her pain and sadness in this world. I knew she was better off there, but still, I couldn't help it. I felt the loss. Although I haven't met her for one year or so, I still felt so attached to her. She took care of me when I was little. She reminded me to have lunch, to shower, to go for classes. I loved her and I still love her. Grandma, how are you there? This year, you can celebrate new year in  heaven. I am sure it is much better that what you can see here. Good bye, Grandma. Sabbe Sancarra Anicca. Thanks 2011.

And of course, I am thankful because I am still in my relationship with bf. We have gone through a lot this year, especially during the transition period. But luckily, we manage to get through it and be more understanding to each other. We are not the perfect couple, but we always try to fill each other's imperfection and create our own perfection. On top of all, we still love each other, that's why we are still here together, hand by hand, heart by heart. This year marked our 2 year of togetherness. I hope we will continue to walk together next year, 10 years from now, or even until death does us apart. Thanks 2011.

Thanks 2011. Thanks a lot. I will never forget you.




U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I don't like:

• - when people accuse me without no ground
• - when people don't do their jobs and still assume they are right
• - when people pretend not to know anything when I have explained everything to them at least 3 times
• - when people don't respect me just because I am new, inexperience, and a girl
• - when I am supposed to do tedious and long-winded paper works
• - when I have told myself over and over that I need to go to the site but the time is just not enough
• - when I see the DAR files on my table keep towering up
• - when I cannot find my stationary on my own table
• - when I realize time is running too fast

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Life is short indeed. Just in glance, without my realization, my granny has left me and her whole family. She was sick for 6 years and now she has been released from her suffering.

I am happy for her, really.

In her age of 86, she became so so so thin until I kept crying when I saw her inside the coffin. But, her face was peaceful and she was really beautiful. She's my granny, no matter what.

I still can remember how she usually told her grandchildren to quickly bathe and go for lessons, how she always asked her grandchildren whether we had eaten our lunch, and how she kept watching telenovela without understanding any single thing inside.

I still can remember how she fell sick six years ago, how she became so forgetful about people around her but still cared about her eldest son, how she became less and less responsive to everybody.

One time, during my first semester break, I went to visit her. I can still remember she told me that she was so sorry not to be able to fly to Singapore and look after me and my cousin. She said she wanted to cook for us, but she couldn't walk anymore. She shed in tears, I remember, and I was so sad that time.

Maybe I was not the one she cared the most, but I bet that I was the only grandchild that talked the most to her during those six years. I kept talking to her although she never responded. I kept talking and asking her things until she gave me answers and response. I taught her to make 'victory' sign with her fingers and took a photo of her. I painted her nails. I combed her white hair. I loved her, and I still love her.

Good bye, Popo. I am sure you are now in a safer, more beautiful, and more peaceful place. You don't have to care about this world anymore, you are happy there.

I love you.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

How I felt like giving up in one second is a story, but how you made me fall in love with you once more is a miracle...

I do hope we can fit into each other like a key and a forelock... I do hope that we can complete each other like coffee and sugar... And I do hope we can attract each other over and over like the earth and the sun... I do hope, yes I do hope that we are meant for each other...

Love is indeed beautiful...

Let's put our hardest effort for our love, our relationship, our life, and our future...






U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I have a niece and she is super cuteeeee~~~

Ngeliat Kay lagi duduk manis, agak bingung
Me: Kaykay lagi ngapainnn?
Kay: Makan jagungggg *padahal lagi ngelotokin kulit pisang*
Me: Pisanggggg, bukan jagung...
Kay: Oooooh, pisangggg...
Me: Kaykay lagi ngapain?
Kay: Makan jagungggg 
*GUBRAK*

Lagi duduk hadap-hadapan sama Kay
Kay: Ii, itu gigi ii kenapaa? *sambil menjulurkan tangan mau pegang gigi saya*
Me: Ii pake kawat gigi... Kaykay mau juga?
Kay: *ngangguk sambil senyum-senyum blushing*


Di restoran, Kay lari-larian sampe jatuh di belakang kursi saya
Me: Kay, sakit ngga?
Kay: *dengan muka tanpa dosa* Ngga *langsung berdiri dan lari lagi*
*speechless*

Kay liat saya siap-siap mau pergi
Kay: Ii mau ke manaa?
Me: Mau pergi makan, Kaykay mau ikut?
Kay: Ngga
Me: Dadaaahhhh
Kay: Dadaaaah, lama-lama yaaa~~~
Me: *dalam hati merasa seperti tidak diinginkan bahkan oleh seorang anak kecil*

Kay lagi liat-liat foto album
Kay: Ii ini di mana?
Me: Di Sinciapo
Kay: Oooh, kalo ini?
Me: Ini di Malaysia...
Kay: Bukan, ini di ciakpo, ini juga di ciakpo, ini juga~~~
Me: *oh, oke whatever*

Di ruang tamu
Me: Somewhereee~~~~ *nyanyi lagu Beyond the Sea*
Kay: iyo ye siiiii *lanjutin nyanyi*
Me: *terkejut anak kecil nyanyi lagu bahasa inggris*
Lalu dia lanjut nyanyi lagi
Kay: Cakweeeeee
Sis: Oiii, bukan cakwe, sayang~~~~
Kay: Hihihi *ketawa malu-malu*
Me: *dot dot dot*

Setelah kacamata saya jatuh ditarik sama Kay
Me: *marahin Kay sampe berbusa-busa*
Kay: *peluk dedek saya* Ah, Kaykay mau bobok!

Suatu percakapan antara Kay dan kokonya, Ray
Ray: Tadi pas Yeye tidur, yeye denger ada suara, suara apa itu?
Kay: Itu suara lobil, tauuukkkk? *sotoy*

Ngeliat kasur ditumpuk di atas ranjang, mata Kay langsung berbinar-binar mau maen
Kay: Posotannn!!!!
Me: Bukan, jangan maen ah! Nanti jatuh...
Kay: *bandel, tetep manjat-manjat naek ranjang* Kaykay mau maen posotannn
Lalu, 4 orang jagain di ujung kasur yg menjuntai dr ranjang, takut dia jatuh
Kay: *merasa main perosotan, mulai ngeluncur* Awwwww
Semua orang speechless tingkat dewa


I love my naughty Kaykay!!!!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Time flies, really, time flies. It's already October, which means I am going to welcome my 5th month of works here. I can't believe how everything turned out to be so wonderful at the right time. I still remember how I used to whine and whine and whine about how miserable I felt during the first two months of my work: I had nothing to do except reading the documents without even being able to picture them inside my head, I lost against my course mates in getting the awards and valedictorian speech, I felt project management wasn't a right choice for me, I considered to quit and walk back to design firm, I almost lost my spirit to go to the office as days passed by.

However, God is good, GOD IS SO GOOD!!! He sent me some savior: colleagues, friends, and so many people that I could talk to and ask for suggestions. And He gave me the strength and the courage to create my own miracle. God was working so hard to let me out of my own confusion THROUGH HIS MESSENGERS. Thanks for all the people, you are indeed my God's messengers!!!

And since then, my working life rotated one hundred eighty degrees to the other quadrant. Happiness always visited me since then and I had so many motivations to wake up and get to work every morning. The office was still the same, but the atmosphere was truly different. Different people with different spirit created a different working environment. I kept telling myself, "I am blessed!" and yes I was, I am, and I will be...

August and September were really a fruitful time for me. I coped for so many things during both months till I felt so tired and exhausted, but there's a happiness inside my heart that I couldn't deny. During these two months, my works were piling up and I increased my study load day by day and now when I looked back, I just can't help to smile from ear to ear, I am happy to be busy, yes I am.

And 28th September 2011 was the day. I went through the Fundamental of Engineering Examination. Although I am not sure whether I can pass the exam, I am grateful that God has equipped me with so many strength and encouragement to go through the process. Although in the state of nervousness, I felt so loved by seeing my friends sending me encouragements before my test, and of course I felt so thankful for bf who accompanied me studying during the weekends and kept assuring me that I would win in the battlefield. Yes, at least I have done my best, and God will do the rest for me now. I hope I don't fail my exam, but if I fail, I know that I die in glory. Thanks, my dear God.

My August-September journey is closed with something so wonderful. I am inside the Dean's List one more time! I already think that I wouldn't get it since I didn't get any award during the convocation, and when I read the mail, I felt my heard jumping and jumping so high until my chest going to explode. I feel so loved! At least, my grade was still inside the 5% best among my cohort. I am so happy!!!

And yesterday, I talked with my boss for almost 2 hours. He was so sweet and kind and cute and you-name-it-whatever-it-is. He knew that my desire was in design and I think he is ready to let me go when the time comes. He supported me whole-heartedly for whatever my future would lead me to be. He is really a nice guy: a figure of a father, and I adore him. He's smart, he's fast, he's kind and cool, he has a long term vision, and he always smiles. I will learn a lot from him!!!

I must say a lot of thank you for August and September that have given me a wonderful time. Thanks a lot a lot for nurturing me throughout these two months. I am so much blessed, I am!

I expect more good things to happen in October. I expect myself to grow even wiser and more mature in this month.

I love you, World!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

The feeling I feel is really pleasing me. I am still a fresh graduate, I am still a little girl, but at least people around me are thinking of some ways to guide and let me grow.

I want some responsibilities, I want some roles, I want some contributions, and I want to feel the satisfaction of my achievements. I just don't want to be a big potato sack that earns money for nothing.

I am still very amazed of how God loves me. He sends me so many good souls to lay my path towards a bright future.

I know it's a bit late, but I really want to use this teacher's day as an excuse to write some words for my 'teachers'.

Of course, my first teacher ever are my parents. They have taught me so many things. Even million thanks are not enough to express my gratitude to them. They have worked so hard to lay my path. I will not have my today if not because of their lessons to me. So, really, thank you.

And then, all my school teachers, from kindergarten till university, were all sent by God to help shaping myself. I wont be a bachelor today if they were not on the way. So, again, thank you.

Another thank you I want to arrow to all my friends, especially Lisa, Valen, Renni, Dya, Jesi, Merryn, Savitri, and Vivien. They have taught me that your real friends will always there for you whenever. Although we are not staying together, although we meet very rarely, although we are not spending time together, we are there inside each other's hearts. So, thanks, Friends.

And not forgetting, all the boys that have filled in my life have taught me to be stronger and stronger. And the biggest thanks is of course for my boyfriend who has taught me how to love and to be loved. Thank you, so much thank you.

Not forgetting my fruitful Industrial Attachment experience, I really thank my seniors in AECOM Singapore: Stephen, Shwu Jiuan, C'hng Yih, John, Chandran, Reddy, and other ex-colleagues that can't be mentioned one by one. I learn a lot from them and I really feel grateful for the chance to be one of them, even only for 22 weeks.

Lastly, thanks for my colleagues now in LTA, especially Rosalind. She's like a big sister to me. She teaches me so many things which I cannot learn from anyone else here. And of course, my PM Mr. Ng, he's so nice until I feel like melting. And all the 923 team, I am really grateful. I will work hard to show my thanks. Also, thanks to my new friends in LTA.

Thanks to all my teachers.
You are all God's messengers!!!

Aku sadar, aku masih belum bisa mencintaimu dengan cara yang seratus persen tepat. Egoisme yang berlebihan seringkali membuatku terpeleset ke lubang yang sama: pertengkaran. Tapi, Sayang, tak selamanya bertengkar itu salah. Itu hanyalah salah satu cara untuk kita mengekspresikan harapan dan kekecewaan kita. Tak ada kata sempurna, tapi kita sedang berjalan beriringan untuk kesempurnaan itu.

Marilah kita belajar untuk saling mencinta dengan bijaksana, dengan cara yang tepat dan apa adanya. Marilah kita saling percaya dan biarlah cinta kita terus dan terus berkembang hingga akarnya merasuk dan tak akan bisa tercerabut dari hati kita.



U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Today when I was walking towards the office, I thought about how blessed I was to be surrounded by magnificent people. God is so good that He sends me a bunch of beautiful souls to linger in my life. My chest is filled up with happiness that it is going to explode and shoot sweets all over the place.

Yes, I am blessed. I am very blessed.

And I am really thankful that I have someone to take care of me when I am this far away from the home. This post, is dedicated to him.

Who is he?

Long time ago, he was my friend.
Now I call him my boy.
Later he will be my guy.
And in the future, I really wish he is my man.

On top of all, he is my teacher, my brother, my guardian, my opponent, my buddy, my love. He is my everything.

Momma said home is where the heart is when you left the town~~~