Sunday, August 31, 2008

You can fly, you can fly, you can fly...

Again, I feel like everything is walking too fast... They look like flying instead of walking... Time flows too fast... Without my realization, now, it gives a warm welcome to the fifth week already... All subjects also walk too fast.... Too fast for me to catch them up and store them inside my little brain... And all my friends also move too fast, from my point of view, of course... They have found most of the things they need and they want, while I am still feel very unsettled and unsecured... Oh, my God... Everything moves too fast... It looks like it's just me who is very slow and turtle-like...

Tomorrow is the start of the fifth week of this semester... It means we are going to face the middle of the semester very soon... And facing the mid-semester means exam is coming...

Yeah, you may think that my thought is very kiasu... I also think like that, to be honest... But, my MSN conversation with Dodo today made me realize that there's no time for slow acceleration to reach the maximum speed... I need to burn up now... Now... Now... Now...

I need to burn up now... But, the problem is I still feel very unsecured... There are many things need to be settled down first... About ECA (and of course, the point), about buying textbooks, about my homesick, about this, about that, and about everything...

Four days later, I will fight on my first quiz... It's not a math quiz, like two semesters before... It's a communication studies' subject... I like the subject, but all inside it need to be memorized... Haha... I'm not sure I can do it well, but I hope my memory can still work well, and I will fight!!!

Ganbatte!!!

Next week, I will have two quizzes... I'm scared, actually...

Phew...
Everything seems flying...

And I'm sure...
I can fly...

Like Peterpan said...
You can fly, you can fly, you can fly...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Saturday, August 30, 2008

And again, it's about love



Wow, again, and again, it seems like there is a season when most people are falling in love and engaged in a deeper relationship...
I remember last year, also, most of couples came right after GTD...

And this year, again after GTD, those pollens of love are flying here and there (there and there, maybe, because it doesn't reach my place-haha), trying hard to blossom the chosen flowers...

Yeah, in this one short week, we got three new couples, and maybe it will increase with the flow of time...

Cupid is flying around Indo-NTU students and he is trying to shoot people's hearts...

Congratz to you all...
Hope you will find your true love inside your partner's...

I remember once my mentor said, "University is a suitable place to find a soulmate..."

And, I think, it may be true...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

*I also want a soulmate*
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I am sick of mooncakes... >.<

Mid autumn festival is coming... And it's very related with mooncake...
And today, some of my CEE Business Manager Committee friends, and I, went to Takashimaya to do a survey for what mooncakes we should choose to sell...

Ya, we went from one booth to another, ate the samples, and compared them... Then, we chose some recommended booths, and did a 'deeper' sampling, until we were sick of mooncakes...

This is pictures of a mooncake we usually see in our daily life... We know something like lotus mooncake, red bean paste mooncake, yam mooncake, and also tow sar mooncake... Some come with yolk, double yolk, triple yolk, or even four yolks...

And, you know, they also have snowskin mooncake, that must be stored in fridge...

Let's see this tiramisu and chocolate mooncake...

And, even, there exist an jelly mooncake...

Oh my God, there're still lot of things I don't know about this world... Something like cempedak mooncake, cheese mooncake, and even champagne mooncake...

Why don't they create curry mooncake???
Or even rendang mooncake???

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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No internet = no life

After suffering for four days without internet, yesterday night, I could just connect again... And along those four days, I just realized how important the internet was... Yeah, commonly, you will realize something important to you when the thing has gone... And now, I confirm that it's really really extremely true...

For four days, all I did every time I went back to my room just playing solitaire... And, you know, I even could not play solitaire well... Oh my God, after suffering because of internet connection, I had to suffer because of my poor skill in playing games (even solitaire-omg)... Poor Febrina...

Muahahaha...

They say, "Nevermind la, no internet means you can study better..."

But, in facts, there's no difference in those two situations... Haha...

Really, I felt like I was the one who was very unlucky... I went to hall office, reported my problem, and the lady there, without any smile, told me to go to CITS... I went to CITS and they didn't believe that the problem was on my network point... They told me to collect my physical address, IP address, and other unimportant things (at least for me)... The day after, I went back there... The day after, CITS told me that the engineer would come to my room to check... But when???? I called, and the man said, "Just wait la..."

Oh, my God, it seemed not good... Then, I went CITS again... For three days, I went there... I wondered whether the officer was annoyed by my existence... Hahaha...

After a long and tiring discussion and negotiation, the engineer was decided to come that day...

And, yeah, I got back my internet that night...

Yippie...
^^

Now I realize, no internet in a single room is bes represented by wandering alone n a desert without oase...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Yesterday blue, today colorful...

Yesterday I felt so lost... I don't know why, but I was really very depressed... I felt that I couldn't catch up with others... I felt that I couldn't stand against this storm anymore... I felt that I was a loser...

I even thought of the probability to stop educating myself, go back to my home, and hug my mom till the end of time...

Yeah, I don't know why, but I have a very-easy-to-be-depressed heart... I am very weak... I always go through my problems too deeply and too seriously... And the result, I am depressed... Muahahahaha... So stupid I am...

Last night, I was so blue...

But this morning, I felt like there's a silver lining in me...
Yeah, when I heard my alarm sound, I got my spirit automatically...

I decided to continue fighting...
No one can defeat me...
Because I am stronger than you think...

Keep the spirit high!!!!!
Yay...
^^

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Monday, August 25, 2008

Strangers...

And now, we are totally strangers... Yeah, none of us knows each other now... Even when we were in the same stop, waiting for the same bus, and sitting on the same bench, we didn't call to each other... We are totally strangers...

We are totally strangers, after a bunch of moments we enjoyed together, after a big cup of laugh and tears we shared, after all the memories we went through...

You left me behind, with all of past things you gave me... I struggled myself whether I wanted to take them with me or just left them there... And you, you went along by yourself, left me behind, without a single glance... You didn't want to take with you our memories, even just a small piece... You just wanted to left me behind...

Then, what did you want, actually? You gave me those sweet times, and you threw me away? Do I look like a trash?????

I don't know anything about you, now... And you, of course, doesn't want to know about me anymore... So, we are totally strangers, now...

Although you dumped me...

U're (still) the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Happy birthday to my lovely blog...>.<

Waaaa...
Saya kelupaan sesuatu yang amat sangat penting sekali...
Kelupaan...
Kelupaan...
Kelupaan ulang tahun blog saya sendiri...

Maafkan aku, wahai, blog-ku...
Bukan maksud hati melupakan ulang tahunmu...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

*kelewatan 3 hari*
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Saturday, August 23, 2008

A mother

Who is the most important person in this world?

Maybe some will say, George W. Bush... And the other will answer, "United Nation's General Secretary, maybe...".

If you asked me this question, I would definitely give you a quick answer: a mother...

Yeah, my answer is a mother... Maybe you are wondering now, why a mother can be the most important person in this world? Not a president, or a king?

I said like that, because, you know, since there is an existence of a mother, there you are... If there weren't a mother, you would not there reading my post now... If a mother didn't exist, who would have born you? If a mother didn't exist, who would have taught you to speak and walk? If a mother didn't exist, who would have introduced you to this world? If a mother didn't exist, who would return you to a smooth path when you went to a wrong direction? If a mother didn't exist, who would be proud of you even you were lost? If a mother didn't exist... If a mother didn't exist... If a mother didn't exist, I don't know what the world would be...

There's a quote,
"Behind a successful man, there's always a great woman"


Yeah, the quote is right... There's always a very great and wonderful woman behind a succesful man... But, the question is, "Who is the woman?"

Most of people's interpretation will lead us to a generalization, "The great woman is his wife..."

Most of time most of people will think like that...
Are you the one among them?

Then, again, my question, "Why didn't you say that the great woman was his mother?"

According to my point of view, the mother must be that great woman, because a mother was the one who taught everything to the man until he could be successful... The wife just received the product of the mother's effort, right?

But, most of us think about wife more than mother...
Is a wife better than a mother?

Lot of mothers lose their sons after their sons got married... Then, they become abandoned and hopeless...
I don't want to be one of the wifes who steal a man from his mother..
And I want you, Guys, not to let your wife, or your future wife, steals you from your mother...
Because a mother is the most important person in this world...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Friday, August 22, 2008

Group leader... Is it good?

Again, I must say, being a group leader is not as easy as you see... Really, it's very difficult to be a group leader for an orientation group, which we even don't know the members inside... We must remember them one by one, recognize them and their habits, be close to them, and keep them cheerful along the orientation camp...

Ya, some say that being a group leader looks so easy... Group leader just need to cheer, cheer, and cheer... Yeah, right, we do lots of cheers in front you all, but you actually don't know what we have to do beyond your sight...

Some say that group leaders are the stars of the show... Others worked behind the scene along the preparation and group leaders are the actors and actresses... Some may be thinking that what an easy job group leaders have, and plus, they will get recognized by all the members of their orientation groups...

But, I tell you, there's something you don't understand about the 'being-a-group-leader' matter...

Ya, I admit it... I know that being group leaders looks like selfishly occupying the stage for our own... We know all the freshies the most and freshies know us the most... We have the authority to decide when to cheer, when to keep silent, when to walk faster, when to slow down and take photos, what game to do next, and blablabla... We, the group leaders, have such an authority...

But, besides that pride, if you want me to call it like that, the group leaders have lots of burden on their shoulders... Yeah, right... Life is not that smooth and is not that beautiful... If lots of people say, every cloud has a silver lining, in this case, I will say, every fine cloud has a chance to fire a lightning...

First of all, to be a group leader, all candidates had to go through a different state of recruitment... When other portfolios just required a short interview, all group-leader-wanna-be had to go for an audition... In this audition, you needed to show to others (all the audiences) that you were worthed... You could make all eyes turned to you and you had a good voice to scream... Yeah, of course, all group-leader-wanna-be had to show that they had no more shyness...

Then, all chosen group leaders had to increase their courage to be crazy, and crazy, and crazy... We had to perform some crazy things due to the fund raising of the orientation camp... And I have to tell you, in this state, I felt that I was lost... I wasn't a kind of person that could sacrifice all the image I had got... And, yeah, I felt very much burdens along this first two steps...

Do you still think that being a group leader is easy?

Okay, another barrier will appear soon...

Maybe there were not much things to do after the fund raising, but after getting the list of freshies, we suddenly got a bunch of jobs to do... We had to gather all the group members, do an introduction (which was done for more than five times---everytime a new person came, we repeated it---Omigod), play some games in order to build a strong bond among members, teach all freshies about the cheers, think about a new and original cheers, prepare the OG introduction and junior performance, made all attributes for the group (even pay for it), and keep their spirit up about the orientation camp... Yeah, it was very hard to do, actually... For several times, I thought of resigning, quitting, or anything you call it... I was very tired, very very tired... It was very hard to arrange the time of meeting that would not affect the freshies, also would not affect the schedule of group leader's meeting...

And when the day came, it seemed much harder... We, as the group leaders, had to keep the spirit of GTD firing, but, on the other hand, when we did lots of cheers, the other committees complained to us that we couldn't control our group... Oh my God, what the hell did the want actually? Then, we had a duty to keep on the time line, so we pushed our freshies to walk faster, walk faster, and walk faster... But, when we came to the post earlier, the committee said that we couldn't keep the time tracking... Oh my God, again, what thing did they deserve from us actually? And when the time line went too far, and all dragged away from the planning, we couldn't complain... we had to solve the freshies-want-to-go-home problem by ourselves... So, you can see, it looked like, all GTD problems are on group leaders' shoulders... We were not that big to accept that giant matter...

Yeah, I hope you know now, what was the thing that made us think twice to be a group leader again...

But, really, until all this long, I didn't regret about my decision... I got a more precious things than all I had sacrificed... I got love from my group...

Group leader...
It is nice to remember, but not that nice to return...

GarGOYANG...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

1 Month already...

I feel so sorry for the lack of post... You must be thinking that I don't love my blog already... It's not true... I still love it, but I don't know what to write in it... Ya, ya, ya, so many things happened these days, since I came back to this little country... Maybe I must say, too many things happened so that I couldn't find a good timing to post everything inside my brain, my heart, and my life...

And now, because of one and another thing, I woke up too early... Still two hours from my lab session... I don't think I want to open my lecture notes or do my tutorial questions to fill my spare time... It's too early to deal with those kiasu things... Then, maybe I'll try to recap everything since I came back to Singapore...

15th July 2008... With most of my Palembang friends, I went back to Singapore... why so early??? Because we received notification that we had to empty our room by 15th July 2008... So, unfortunately, we had to reach Singapore as soon as possible... Phew, it was very hard to leave Palembang, where I felt very comfortable... I didn't need to worry about grades, about room, or even about starving... I had everything in Palembang, especially LOVE... Then, I returned to my (old) room, did the packing until late night, and slept among the dust... Oh my God, it was so dirty and messy at that time, even I didn't want to remember how I struggled with my allergy anymore... Haha... Oh yeah, I decided not to return my key to the hall office until the very last time...

16th July 2008... I didn't want to play around with dust anymore, then I decided to go to Bishan and find a more suitable place to live in... Ya, very early, my mom (yeah, she came too, to help me with this matter) and I went to Bishan, and did something unimportant, like did the housework for my cousin, and went to Junction 8 to waste the time (and, of course, money)... Hahahaha... I was very worried about my room status, and it really affected everything...

17th July 2008... I started to feel very sick... My neck was in pain, my stomach was in pain, and I got a fever... Actually, I had a GL's meeting, but I didn't come... Going from Bishan to Boon Lay, then back to Bishan... Wah, that would swept all my energy left... So, I just accompanied my mom a full day...

18th July 2008... Wow, my suffering didn't stop... I got a sore throat... That's amazing!!! Senior camp was right in front of my eyes, and I got a sore throat... Perfect... Really perfect... I had no room, I had a great number of stuffs to be kept, and I was sick... And I had to attend a meeting with my senior attached... And another thing, my ex-roomate told me that she had moved some of her things to other's room, although we had agreed to keep everything inside our (old) room till the deadline... To be honest, I felt rather mad, but what should I do?

19th July 2008... I followed my ex-roomate's way... In the morning, I went back to NTU from Bishan, and moved some of my things to Woon Ling's room... Her room was three rooms apart from my (old) room... Yeah, I moved those heavy stuffs to the nearest place, because I didn't want my bones to break... Haha... After that, I went to the preparation meeting of GL's performance for GTD opening ceremony... Then, I went accompanying my mom to VivoCity...^^

20th July 2008... My body seemed didn't want to cooperate with me... I felt more and more terrible... But, I still went to Bugis, to pray for the sake of my status...

21st July 2008... Again, I went back to NTU, to move the other things to others' rooms... I move my things to Adith's and Komang's room... Phew, it was very tiring... Ya, my room was empty, finally.. I just kept the things like pillow and bed cover and some important stuffs...

22nd July 2008... And you see, I regretted that I moved those things so fast... I was browsing in Bishan, wanted to stop, and suddenly I saw an e-mail from Hall 6 General Office... Wow, I got the second round with another 5 persons, Namyo, Stephen, Stifen, Charly, and Tozzy... And I was the only girl... I felt like very light so that I could fly... I got a room!!! Finally, I would have place to shelter!!! Yay!!!

23rd July 2008... I took my new key... I got the room in block 35 (very far from my old room), level 4 (I used to live in storey 3), room number 675... It was in front of Nanyang Pond... And my roomate was Jumiyati, an Indonesian... Actually, until this time, I had just met her for about 15 minutes... Hahaha... My friends came along to help me carrying my monster stuffs to my (new) room... After doing a romusha, my mom and I went back to Bishan... I left my key to my ex-roomate...

24th July 2008... My mom went back to Palembang, and I went back to my ulu NTU... I continued my romusha, took my things from Adith's and Komang's room, and brought it to my (new) room... Ya, I think I was done with all the things... I was very satisfied... Ya, then, in the evening, I went to assist those juniors coming from Palembang... Taking them to their room, showing them their hall, bringing them to have dinner, and so on... It's very tiring actually...

25th July 2008... The work continued... I brought those juniors since morning to ISC, OCBC, medical centre, canteen, and Nanyang Market... It was very tough to be in charge of such a bunch of people... Phew... Then, in the evening, I had the first day senior camp... The Night games... Hwahahaha, I am proud that I didn't cry, although I was scared... But, another surprising things appeared... There was another e-mail in my inbox, from Hall 6 General Office... Ya, there's an offer of single room in block 33... If I wanted to have it, I had to write to the hall office to state my reasons... Phew, again, I felt very confused... I couldn't decide what to do...

26th July 2008... A full day senior camp... The outdoor games... My SAs and I went from Chinatown to Clarke Quay to play the games... I was very fun although we were always lost... Muahahaha...

27th July 2008... I had nothing to do, so I just went to see my cousin... He treated me bak kut teh... Thank you, Bro...^^

28th July 2008... I decided to fight for the single room...

29th July 2008... I cannot remember anything, maybe nothing special this day...^^

30th July 2008... The result came out and I got the room in block 33, level 4, room number 629... Actually, I didn't want to have a room in level 4... So, I appealed to the hall office to be transferred to level 3... First, she acted very cruel... She even didn't response me full-heartedly...
But I didn't give up... I gave her a suffering look, and she melted at the end... She told me to write again and state my reasons... Nyaha...

31st July 2008... My request was approved... Yay... My new room is in #33-3-630... I was very happy... Yay... Yay... Yay... Hip, hip, hurray...^^

1st August 2008... I took my key and I did the cleaning first... I hadn't moved my stuffs in because I was busy with those preparations of GTD...

2nd August 2008... Since the very early morning, I moved my stuffs one by one to my single room... Ya, it was very tough because I did it all alone... I didn't want to make others busy because of me, so I kept moving and moving, alone... Haha... It was terribly tiring since I had a meeting in the afternoon... I was very tired and sleepy in the meeting... Hwahahaha...

3rd August 2008... I felt very settled in my new room... Haha... And this day was the starting day for OG meeting and everything regarding GTD... I met my 'children', finally... (The story about GTD can be found at previous post)

4th August 2008... School started... No tutorials this week...

5th August 2008...

6th August 2008...

7th August 2008...

8th August 2008...

9th August 2008...

10th August 2008...

That's all about GTD, which can be found at the previous post... Although it was not at the chronological order...
^^

11th August 2008... It's a replacement of national day holiday... Yay, I had time to rest... I slept till sun shined very bright, then I did the cleaning for my lovely single room...^^

12th August 2008... ECA fair started... I signed up as Buddhist Society member...

13th August 2008... Nothing special, I think...

14th August 2008... I started to be confused about what ECA I should thake, whether I should run for JCRC maincommittee, and many things... Phew...

15th August 2008... I made up my mind to join JCRC, school club, and SU... Not as maincomm, of course... I believe that everything has to be started from very bottom and small... Maybe this year I will try to step those stairs, one by one... So that next year I can reach the top... I hope it can comes true...

16th August 2008... TSpray sport... Actually, I didn't enjoy TSpray that much... So, I will not go through its details...

17th August 2008... Happy birthday, Indonesia... I didn't go to KBRI to celebrate it, instead I went to my cousin's place to fix something wrong with my laptop... It ended by formatting all the thi ngs... Muahahaha... I feel like I have just got a new computer...^^

18th August 2008... People in Indonesia had a holiday, but I did my day as usual... Not boring, but also not exciting...

Ya, enough already... 9 AM already, and I have class at 9.30... So, I will end the post here... I hope the bus come on time... Hihi...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Three things about me???

Starting from Tuesday, three days back, ECA fair in NTU started... And I feel like NTU looks like a market with so many people and so many booths... Ya, there are lot of people come to see what ECA they can join, or to buy things sold there, or just to target the goodie bags given... Muahahaha...

These three days, I walked pass those booths so many times... Everytime there's a break, I went through North Spine with my CEE friends... Ya, we had nothing to do along the break time... Just wandering made us waste our time in better way la, than kiasuing on the bench... Muahahaha...

Then, we went to OCBC area, near old canteen A... There were some booths selling shirts, accesories, etc, etc, etc... But, one booth in the middle attracted me... It was a palm reading booth...

To be honest, I am very interested in this thing, not to be fully trusted, I think, but more to be considered when we have to do something... And, ya, knowing something like this can also be a relaxation... ^^

So, Vindy, Fiona, and I let Mr. Khor saw our palm...

When he saw mine,he said, "You have a speed personality..."

Is it true???? I don't know...

Actually, he said, "There are three things about you ar... First, you have a speed personality... Second, you are inteligent... And third, you will be rich, very very rich..."

Muahahaha...
I felt like 'gubrak' when I heard about this... But, I said to myself, "amen"...
Hope his third point will be true...
^^

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Monday, August 11, 2008

Kenangan terindah (kah?)

Waktu udah menunjukkan pukul empat lewat empat menit, tapi aku ngga bisa menahan diri untuk ngga membuka komputer dan menceritakan apa yang aku alami beberapa hari ini... Badanku udah sangat cape, tapi aku ngga bisa menahan diri untuk ngga mengeluarkan semua yang ada di dalam kepalaku saat ini...

Ya, menjadi GL adalah sebuah pertimbangan, keputusan, dan pekerjaan yang berat, secara fisik maupun rohani... Namun, aku ngga menyesal telah memilih jalan ini... Ya, aku bangga sudah bisa menjadi GL bagi GarGOYANG...

Hari ini, eh, kemarin, adalah puncak dari segala puncak dalam rangkaian acara GTDX... Dan aku merasakannya... Puncak semangatku, puncak emosiku, puncak segalanya terhadap OG-ku aku rasakan tadi malam...

Aku bener-bener terharu dengan apa yang telah mereka lakukan buat aku dan Komang, selaku partner-ku... Mereka memberikan surprise yang begitu indah, yang membuat aku speechless, menangis, lalu speechless lagi, dan menangis lagi... Semua yang mereka lakukan bener-bener indah... Indah sekali sampe aku ngga sanggup berkata-kata...

Hmm, mungkin ada baiknya kalo aku flashback dulu ke masa-masa di mana semua ini masih sangat jauuuuh dari bayanganku...

Aku...
Yang saat itu masih freshie, dan mengikuti GTD9...

Ya, aku, yang melihat GL-ku dengan penuh kekaguman... Ya, mereka bener-bener bisa nge-lead freshie-freshie yang bandel-bandel... Mereka keren-keren... Dan, kayanya bakalan seru banget kalo aku bisa jadi salah satu bagian dari mereka... Aku mau jadi GL...

Februari 2008 tibalah saatnya audisi... Sebenernya aku bukan tipe orang yang mau mempermalukan diri sendiri dan menjatuhkan harga diri seperti itu, tapi, ya, demi keinginanku, aku memberanikan diri... Dengan kemampuan seadanya, aku mengikuti audisi... Ya, ya, ya, bisa ditebak... Aku jadi GL!!!!

Dan, problem pertama pun datang... Aku ngga punya partner... Di saat orang lain udah punya partner ber-GL di GTDX, aku masih seorang diri... Entah bagaimana ceritanya, akhirnya aku menjadi partner Komang...

Bersama-sama, kami nentuin nama OG... Tadinya sih mau dikasih nama PANIX, tapi kata maincomm GTDX, namanya kurang nendang... So, akhirnya kita ganti nama... GarGOYANG...^^

Setelah menentukan nama, hampir 2 bulan GL ga punya kerjaan sebelum akhirnya daftar SA yang masuk OG kita ditentuin dan kita diminta untuk bagaimana caranya ngebikin SA-SA bener-bener nge-blend sama OG kita...
Dan aku mendapatkan kehormatan menjadi GL bagi:
  1. Unyu
  2. Namyo
  3. Ranggie
  4. Ratna
  5. Dilla
  6. Ncut
  7. Tedjo
  8. Hadi
  9. Diyana
  10. Tommy
  11. Yosafat
Bener, aku bener-bener bahagia bisa dapet SA seperti mereka... Walaupun awalnya aku ngerasa 'wow' banget karena OG-ku ga punya mantan GL atau apa pun seperti OG-OG lain dan awalnya aku takut kalo SA-SA GarGOYANG ga bisa ngeblend,sekarang aku tau bahwa semua firasatku itu salah...

Walaupun waktu meeting pertama dan kedua aku ngerasa ga nyaman karena aku ngerasa aku ga bisa catch up mereka, dan aku ngga banyak ngebantuin Komang memimpin jalannya meeting itu, sekarang aku sadar kalo saat-saat itulah yang sebenernya aku gunakan untuk meng-improve diri aku dan berubah ke arah yang lebih baik lagi...

Dan di saat Senior Camp lah aku merasakan bahwa aku berkembang... Tanpa Komang, aku tetep harus bisa bikin OG ini hidup, begitu pikirku... Memang berat, tapi kehadiran SA-SA bener-bener membantu... Mereka mensupport aku walaupun aku sendiri... Dan rasa cinta itu mulai tumbuh...

Begitu pula saat tiba waktunya bikin atribut... Mereka dengan senang hati membantu... Mereka mau 7 jam terkurung di ADM untuk mati-matian ngerjain atribut yang jumlahnya banyaaak banget... Bener-bener salut buat mereka... SA-SA ku tersayang...

Jreng, jreng, jreng...
Freshie-freshie udah pada dateng dan inilah saatnya GTDX...
Seteah ngedapetin list freshie yang bakal masuk OG-ku, yaitu:
  1. Aufar
  2. Himawan
  3. Ferdi
  4. Dustin
  5. Ivert
  6. Rendi
  7. Aristo
  8. Alvin
  9. Andre Kusnadi
  10. Andre Sugiarto
  11. Novi
  12. Amanda
  13. Ishin
  14. Nina
  15. Vivin
  16. Dita
Aku dan Komang segera menghubungi mereka... Dengan susah payah, karena ga ada satu pun yang membalas SMS, kami nelponin satu per satu dan akhirnya berhasil mengumpulkan mereka untuk meeting pertama...

Di meeting pertama ini, aku hampir merasa putus asa karena semuanya keliatan ga semangat menghadapi GTD... Yaaa, aku bingung bagaimana harus mengarahkan dan membuat mood mereka menghadapi GTD meningkat...

Selain masalah semangat, masalah lainnya adalah tentang sulitnya menyesuaikan waktu untuk ketemuan... Ntar ada yang ga bisa karena ada acara lah, ada yang ga mau pulang kemaleman la, ada yang gini lah, ada yang gitu lah... Sebenernya aku ngerasa agak dongkol sih... Tapi, ya, mau gimana lagi...

Setlah ketemuan beberapa kali, mempersiapkan OG introduction dan junior performance bersama sistergroup kami, GOROKgon, tibalah saatnya GTDX dimulai... Dan bener-bener di luar expectation-ku, OG introduction yang mereka lakukan bener-bener OK... Ternyata mereka bisa melakukan apa yang aku kira mereka ga bisa... Mereka bisa berkembang, sama seperti aku berkembang... Ya, semua orang bisa berkembang...

Di sini aku mulai melihat sisi lain dari masing-masing diri mereka... Ada Dustin yang sebenernya baik, tapi usil... Ada Alvin, yang selalu cuek dan ngga pernah ngedengerin... Ada Ivert yang punya respek yang berlebihan sama orang lain... Ada Andre Sugiarto, yang walaupun suka telat, tapi punya ide-ide yang OK banget... Dan kalo aku list semua sifat mereka, aku ngga akan tidur... Hahaha...

Di sini pula mereka mulai menemukan semangat GTD mereka... Ketika udah melihat OG lain, mereka jadi punya semangat untuk 'merajai' GTDX... Mereka mulai bisa inisiatif buat nge-cheers, mereka ngerespon apa yang aku dan Komang kasihtau ke mereka... Ya, sekali lagi, mereka berkembang...

Walaupun banyak game yang ngga bisa kami menangkan, kami ga kehilangan semangat... Jujur, aku mengharapkan kemenangan, tapi aku tau kemenangan bukan segalanya... Aku tau bahwa ada sesuatu di balik semua itu yang bisa kita ambil untuk kita nikmati seumur hidup...

Dan, ya, kemarin, setelah semua rangkaian acara GTDX, mereka memberikan sesuatu yang tak terduga buat GL mereka...

Mengingatnya aja bikin aku ingin nangis sekarang...
Huix...

Mereka menyiram kami, menyanyikan lagu buat kami, memberikan kami champagne dan coklat... Mereka memberikan kartu ucapan yang gedeeeee banget buat kami... Dan yang paling penting, mereka memberikan akhir GTDX yang sangat dramatis buat aku dan Komang... Kami semua berpelukan, saling mengucap maaf dan terimakasih...

Akhir dari GTDX bukanlah akhir dari persahabatan kita...
Harapanku adalah agar OG ini tetep bisa mempertahankan apa yang udah kita dapet di GTDX...

Akhir dari GTDX adalah awal dari babak baru dalam persahabatan kita...
Thank you, Guys...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

P.S. Waktu menunjukkan pukul 4.50 AM saat postingan ini selesai ditulis... Ngantuuuk...
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Friday, August 01, 2008

And another year begins...

Sudah sekian lama waktu berlalu sejak terakhir kali aku menekan tombol 'publish post' di blog ini... Ya, blog ini seolah terlupakan, terabaikan, dan tak diinginkan... Tanpa kusadari, kalender telah menunjukkan angka 'delapan' besar... Benar, sudah bulan Agustus...

Dan, itu berarti...
Saatnya sekolah lagi...

Ya, ya, ya...
Setelah berbagai keributan dan kekacauan pra-masuk sekolah, sekarang seluruh siswa NTU akan menghadapi lembaran baru dalam hidup mereka, yaitu academic year 2008/2009...

Dan saya pun akan mengalami hal yang sama, membuka lembaran baru di lecture note saya sendiri, yang mungkin akan membuat saya pusing-pusing, sakit kepala, dan muntah-muntah saking ngga ngertinya...

Dan agenda saya dalam tahun ajaran ini:
  1. Menjadi GL yang baik bagi anak-anak saya di GarGOYANG... GOYANGnya, rame-rame...
  2. Ngga skip lecture ataupun tutorial dan ngga ngoceh sendiri di kelas...
  3. Meningkatkan nilai saya yang melorot di semester yang lalu...
  4. Mencari poin setinggi-tingginya untuk menjamin kelangsungan hidup di NTU tahun depan...
  5. Menjadi manusia yang lebih sehat jasmani dan rohani...
  6. Menjadi manusia yang lebih berpendirian dan berjiwa besar
Pokoknya, I will fight till the end...
Fight for the bright future...

Smangaaat!!!!!!
^^

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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