Friday, October 30, 2009

Another Saturday

Again, several days ago, I was waiting for Saturday to come, but now, even Saturday hasn't passed by, I want it to finish as fast as possible.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Cinta

Cinta menghadirkan kehidupan
Cinta pulalah yang mempersembahkan kematian


Cinta mengurai tawa
Cinta pulalah yang menderai tangis


Cinta menalikan hati
Cinta pulalah yang merenda benci


Cintalah yang membuat manusia bertahan
Cinta pulalah yang mendorong manusia pergi




Sepanjang perjalanan pulang dari kelas terakhir saya di minggu ini, tiba-tiba saja otak saya memikirkan hal ini. Manusia selalu mengagung-agungkan cinta: menganggap cinta adalah hal paling esensial di atas segalanya. Tanpa cinta manusia tak akan mencapai hidup yang sempurna, tanpa cinta manusia tak ubahnya sebuah robot, tanpa cinta dunia tak akan berwarna.

Saya akui, semua itu benar. Siapa, sih, yang sanggup hidup tanpa cinta? Cinta itu luas maknanya, bukan hanya cinta antargender. Cinta di dalam keluarga, cinta dalam persahabatan, cinta dalam sebuah organisasi, cinta kepada tempat tinggal, cinta segalanya.

Namun, yang jadi pikiran saya sekarang, apakah cinta itu selamanya positif?

Sepertinya jawabannya adalah tidak.
Karena mencintai orang yang sama, dua orang sahabat baik bisa saling bermusuhan dan bertengkar.
Karena terlalu mencintai pasangannya, seseorang bisa berkorban sampai kebablasan.
Karena cinta yang berlebihan, orang tua bisa jadi terlalu memanjakan anak-anaknya.
Karena terlalu mencintai uang, seseorang bisa tega-teganya merampas barang yang bukan miliknya.
Karena putus cinta, seseorang bisa memilih kematian dibandingkan kehidupan.

Sungguh, cinta tidak selamanya positif. Cinta tergantung bagaimana kita menyikapinya, tergantung bagaimana kita menghargainya. Cinta bukan untuk menguasai, tapi untuk melayani.

Jadikanlah cinta yang kita punya sepositif mungkin. Jangan menggenggam cinta terlalu erat karena dia akan meluncur dari sela-sela jemarimu seperti pasir, tetapi letakkanlah ia di telapak tanganmu sehingga ia akan tetap bertahan di sana.

Mari saling mencintai.

L'amour est tres beau.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Saturday, October 24, 2009

Saturday


Several days ago, I was waiting for Saturday to come and now, I am waiting for Saturday to pass.

Time is so confusing. Sometimes I want it to go slowly so that I am not too tired to catch it up and sometimes I want it to pass as fast as it can so that I can be free from the boredom. But, it always play around with me. When I wish it walk slower and slower, I always find myself wasting too many precious time, and when I wish time passes by faster, it walks as slow as snail.

And, hey, I am trapped inside the time labyrinth.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Benci!!!!

Aku benci dia sampai ke tulang sumsum!
Aku dan seluruh diriku benci padanya, sampai ke sel-sel terkecil dalam tubuhku benci sekali padanya!

Dan aku benci sekali pada hairdryer-nya. Saking bencinya sampai ingin kubuang benda itu ke Nanyang Pond!

*Sebenarnya masih sangat banyak yang bisa aku tuliskan di sini, tapi sungguh tidak etis mengingat bahwa lembar ini bisa dibaca siapa saja*

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Thursday, October 22, 2009

Tak Banyak



Tak banyak yang bisa kuberikan
Aku hanya punya sebuah hati untuk mencinta
Tak banyak yang bisa kulakukan
Aku hanya punya sebuah cinta untuk bersabar
Tak banyak yang bisa kutunjukkan
Aku hanya punya sebuah kesabaran untuk bertahan

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Lelah

"You look so tired!"
Kata itu yang sering kudengar akhir-akhir ini, dan itu benar.
Aku lelah!

I feel like zombie!


Pagi masih buta dan aku sudah duduk di sini menanti hari esok. Iya, aku lelah akan hidup ini. Aku mau secepatnya besok, besok, lalu besoknya lagi, lalu besoknya lagi, hingga sampailah aku pada akhir semester. Namun, jika aku menilik kondisiku dengan lebih realistis, aku sama sekali tak siap dengan apa yang mereka sebut ujian akhir semester atau exam. Hingga saat ini, aku merasa belum punya bekal apa-apa unuk menghadapi exam yang sudah tinggal sebulan lagi.

Aku ingin secepatnya menghirup udara 2010!!!

Aku sudah nyaris muak dengan teori-teori tanpa aplikasi yang kupelajari saat ini: menghitung ini dan itu tanpa tahu apa yang sebenarnya kuhitung. Aku belajar tentang pondasi, baja, beton, kolom, tapi aku sama sekali belum pernah melihat bentuknya. Aku bingung, sekarang aku mendesain tanpa tahu bentuk rangka yang sedang kudesain, lalu nanti, apa yang akan terjadi denganku? I will be totally lost!
Aku ingin secepatnya berstatus sebagai siswa magang dan mengerjakan apa yang seharusnya aku kerjakan sebagai insinyur teknik sipil dengan pemahaman menyeluruh. Namun, sampai sekarang, belum ada sedikit pun titik terang yang nampak. Hidupku masih menggantung dan aku benci itu.

Aku sudah muak dengan orang-orang yang terlalu suka menyatakan apa yang ada di benak mereka sebagai suatu kesimpulan tanpa bukti yang nyata. Heyyyy, you even don't stay close to me, and you dare to say such a thing? Who the hell are you????
Dan aku juga muak pada orang-orang yang tak mau mendengarkan apa yang aku katakan. Aku hanya ingin bercerita, aku hanya ingin mengeluarkan apa yang ada di dalam pikiranku. Namun, mereka tak mau mendengar hingga tinggallah aku di sini dengan kekesalan yang bertumpuk-tumpuk.

Aku sudah sangat muak dengan dia yang tinggal di bawah atap yang sama denganku. Aku tahu, tidak etis membicarakan kejelekan orang di lembar yang bisa diakses jutaan umat ini, tapi aku sudah tak tahan. Setiap kali aku coba bercerita kepada ibuku, dia hanya menyuruhku untuk bersabar, malah kadang-kadang dia yang menuduhku terlalu sensitif. Duh, silakan kembali ke paragraf sebelumnya.
She drives me crazy!!! Kebiasaannya dan kebiasaanku sungguh bertolak belakang dan aku selalu jadi pihak yang mengalah. Aku membiarkan dirinya membuka pintu lebar-lebar selama nyaris 24 jam sehari, aku membiarkannya berdiri membaca buku di depan pintu, aku membiarkannya loncat-loncat senam sendiri di dalam kamar, aku membiarkannya membasahi koridor dengan air perasan cuciannya, aku membiarkannya mengeringkan rambutnya dengan hairdryer super berisik miliknya, aku membiarkannya ini dan itu sesuka hati. Selalu aku yang mengalah! Aku lelah!

Aku ingin 2010, walaupun konsekuensinya, kepalaku akan bertambah satu.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Friday, October 16, 2009

Lonely




The only thing I need now is the crystal ball to see deep deep deep into your heart


I am tired of wondering over and over
Do you remain silent because you are ill?
Do you stop talking because your heart is broken?
Do you look sad because you are sick of me?
Do you hate talking to me?
Do you enjoy the gap between us?
Do you think what I am wondering about you?


Do you feel the same thing as I do?
Lonely


I want to drive the loneliness away
But you never want to let it go
You keep it besides you for every seconds


I want to replace the loneliness
But it seems you love it more than you love me




U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Langit




Sungguh sempurna cinta langit kepada bumi

Cintanya pada bumi tak tergantikan
Ia memeluk bumi dengan cahayanya yang hangat
Ia mencium bumi dengan hujannya yang penuh hasrat
Ia melindungi bumi dengan awannya yang berarak
Cintanya tak bersyarat

Walau bumi hanya diam, berputar-putar dengan sumbunya sendiri, langit tak henti-hentinya bilang cinta
Langit tak harap apa-apa
Ia hanya ingin bumi bahagia dengan cintanya

Aku ingin mencintai seperti langit 
Aku ingin bilang cinta seperti langit
Walau tak ada jawaban cinta yang serupa
Aku ingin mencintai dengan sempurna
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

A perfect getaway

I was too tired with my life. My schedules were too compact, my activities were too much, but my energy was limited. I had no time to take care of myself well. My brains always ran in its optimum speed and never took a rest, even when I was sleeping.

I had too many stacks of lecture notes and tutorial question sheets to study and review.



I had too many meetings and organisational activities to attend and join.



My body couldn't bear with my overload activities. I was overburdened!
That's why I needed a getaway.

And, yes, I had found the perfect escape.
National University Hospital.



I was there for about twenty hours and did nothing. I just let them continuously checked and monitored me and told them what I was feeling. Once in a while, either doctors or nurses would come and check my condition. Yeah, I liked the feeling when they came and showed they cared for me. LOL.



And for twenty hours, I did nothing except worrying about my headache. I was completely isolated from the world, and now I have come back from my perfect getaway without my perfect health.

Speedy recovery!!!




U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

P.S.
A million thanks for Prof. Xu Daolin, Mdm. Wendy Gwee, Yanchao, Denny, Win Di, Jesi, Valen, Yessy, and especially Andri!!! I love you all!!!
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Sunday, October 11, 2009

Papa, Je t'aime beaucoup!

Guess what I am doing now!
I'm crying.



I am crying alone due to that song.

Yeah, father, the other most significant person in our life besides mother, but sometimes, he is a bit forgotten. I admit, I seldom post something about my dad while I keep posting and praising my mom. It doesn't mean that there is no love for him. I love him as much as I love my mom, but to express my love in words, it's a bit difficult.

And now, it's time to say that I love him so much.


My father: a strong, hardworking, and brilliant man. He built his family from the very start line. He had nothing when he married my mom, but he didn't stop there. He turned the 'nothing' to 'something' and he became 'hero' from 'zero'.

When I was born, he had no money to pay the hospital bill. When I was sick in the middle of the night, he had no car to bring me to the doctor. But, he still attempted to go through them all. I could still be educated in the most popular schools at my hometown, I could still eat good foods, I could still wear nice dresses, I could still ask for more. He tried so badly not to make his family disappointed. He worked so hard to bring his family crossing the social line.

And now, voila, no one can underestimate him. Maybe he is not rich, but he is great!

Sometimes, I admit, I feel a bit annoyed.
He always smoked and went to everywhere with his cigarettes although I always told him to stop.
He always asked me to eat more and more although he knew that I was afraid of getting fatter and fatter.
He always told me to stop being so perfectionist. He wanted me to be satisfied by all my achievements so far and accept them for what they were.

But, actually, he is more than great.
He never scolded me for getting bad marks in school. He knew that marks were just quantity, while all he wanted was quality. He wanted me to be understanding-oriented, not grade-oriented.
He never asked for a higher rank or a better mark from me. He knew that I was always doing my best for the sake of making him proud of me.

I am very proud of being his daughter. He never differentiates between me and my brother. Although I am a girl, he gives me the same chance to do whatever things I wanna do. He knows that he can count on my responsibility. I will not disappoint him, I promise.

Later I will get my own life: my own salary, my own flat, my own family and when the time comes, I will say, "Daddy, you can let go now." sincerely, but now, I still want to be under his protection. So, "Daddy, please don't let go, bear with your annoying daughter longer. I am still your little girl and I still want to cuddle in your arms like years ago."

Really, I miss him more than ever now.
I want him to kiss my cheek once more like he did last week before I headed back to this tiny dot.

Papa, j'aime beaucoup!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

P.S. Another song for papa from his favorite singer.
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Friday, October 09, 2009

Beku


Hari-hari mulai jadi dingin dan menusuk
Mentari sembunyi, berganti butir-butir air beku
Hati tak lagi hangat, tertutup oleh tumpukan bunga-bunga salju
Hingga dunia mengkristal dalam kematian yang pilu



Semakin banyak orang apatis di dunia ini. Tak lagi mereka perduli akan kehidupan sesamanya, tak lagi mereka perduli akan nasib orang lain, tak lagi mereka pikirkan kebahagiaan dunia. Mereka hanya memikirkan egoisme mereka yang tak pernah habis: eksploitasi, uang, kekuasaan. Tak ada lagi cinta yang tulus, yang ada hanya cinta diri sendiri.

Di tengah-tengah global warming, dunia membeku.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Thursday, October 08, 2009

Clay vs Human









clay

1[kley]  Show IPA
–noun
1.
a natural earthy material that is plastic when wet, consisting essentially of hydrated silicates of aluminum: used for making bricks, pottery, etc.
2.
earth; mud.




Clay has memory. He remembers how much pressure has been burdened to him in the past. He remembers how people treated him before. He remembers everything.

When he encounters a pressure, he will take it seriously and start to consolidate. Even when the pressure is taken out of his shoulder, he still holds a grudge. Yes, he learns and struggles to let it go by swelling, but still, a big scar is there and cannot be removed completely.

After some time, he will adjust his life and try to be happy about his life. But, another pressure comes and makes him go back to his past. Again, he consolidates. He knows how seriously he should take any pressure. Based on his past experience, he will adjust the amount of his consolidation. He will try to ignore the pain and shrink a bit for smaller-than-previous-one pressure. He knows exactly how much to take into account. He will not consolidate more for less pressure. His memory is so precise and long-term.





human being

–noun

1.
any individual of the genus Homo, esp. a member of the species Homo sapiens.
2.
a person, esp. as distinguished from other animals or as representing the human species: living conditions not fit for human beings; a very generous human being.

Human also has memory. Human also remembers about past pressure given to him. Human also reacts to the pressure he encounters.

But, the difference is that sometimes, human doesn't know how to react appropriately to the pressure burdened to him. Sometimes he take a small problem too seriously, sometimes he ignores something important, sometime he even gets depressed more than ever just because a small pressure.

Human's memory is affected by his feeling, that's why he cannot be as objective as clay.

I am human, not clay. 
That's why I suffer more this time although I know exactly that the wounds are smaller.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Jatuh

Saya sedang dalam kondisi yang benar-benar tidak baik: saya sibuk mengumpat-umpat dan menggerutu tentang hidup saya, tepatnya hari saya. Iya, baru saja ada kejadian yang membuat hari saya berantakan.

Kejadian setengah tahun yang lalu terulang lagi. Saya jatuh. Saya terluka di tempat yang sama, saya membeku sesaat seperti setengah tahun yang lalu, dan lagi-lagi sama, saya berdiri sendiri dengan luka-luka saya. Dan kini, sekali lagi saya harus meringis di kala mandi, sekali lagi saya harus bertahan memakai celana pendek selama berminggu-minggu, dan saya harus kesakitan setiap kali kaki saya melangkah.

Saya kesal!

Saya jadi berpikir, lebih baik sakit hati daripada sakit yang seperti ini. Sakit karena jatuh dengan luka-luka di tubuh akan menimbulkan efek yang sangat tidak mengenakkan: susah mandi, susah berpakaian, susah berjalan, susah bergerak, bahkan susah mengetik. Kalau saya kesakitan karena jatuh cinta, saya tak akan kesulitan mengetik, kan?

Aduh, sungguh terlalu!

Menurut Kamus Besar Bahasa Indonesia
ja·tuh v 1 (terlepas dan) turun atau meluncur ke bawah dng cepat karena gravitasi bumi (baik ketika masih dl gerakan turun maupun sesudah sampai ke tanah dsb): tabung kaca itu -- dan hancur; 2 turun banyak (harga, nilai, dsb); merosot: harga mobil di pasar bebas --; 3 sampai ke ...; tiba di ...; kena pd ...; tembus ke ...; ditujukan ke: jalan kecil ini -- ke Kampung Ambon; teranglah sindiran itu kpd saya -- nya; 4 bertepatan dng; berbetulan dng; tepat pd: perayaan triwindu -- pd hari Selasa, tanggal 15 bulan Maret; 5 berhenti memegang kekuasaan (tt pemerintah, kabinet, dsb): 6 bangkrut (tt toko, kongsi, dsb); 7 kalah atau dirampas musuh (kota, benteng, dsb); 8 tidak lulus (dl ujian); gagal (dl usaha); sangat menderita (rugi, sengsara, dsb); 9 tidak tahan lagi (oleh godaan, penderitaan, cobaan, dsb); 10 menjadi (sakit, miskin, cinta, dsb): -- miskin; 

Dan jatuh itu sama sekali tidak enak, entah itu jatuh dari pohon, jatuh karena tersandung, jatuh miskin, jatuh cinta, dan jatuh-jatuh lainnya.

Aku jatuh 
Aku berdiri sendiri
Aku obati sendiri
Aku meringis sendiri
Mungkin nanti
Juga akan mati sendiri

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Understand

I still have about 20 minutes before rushing to the school, so I decide to write this post to start my day. My brain has chosen a topic to write, but it will be a standard and short post due to the lack of time.
So, enjoy!


Is it so hard to understand a girl? I think the answer is yes, it is.

I am a girl, but I do think and admit that girls are much more complicated than boys. I don't know what on earth is inside girls' brains, but sure, it is different from boys'.

Boys are more to-the-point and firm, while girls are more abstract, long winded, and enyek-enyek *I don't know what the translation of this word, so I leave it as it is*

When a girl says "Nothing", it definitely means "Something".
When she says, "Leave me alone", you should translate it becomes "Don't go away"
When she asks you to listen to her problems, she doesn't need a helping hand. All she needs is just a pair of ears that wish to receive all of her grumbling.

If this is the case, how can a boy and a girl understand each other completely?

Then, I suggest, anyone, please create a girl-mind-translator so that there will be no more misunderstanding between girls and boys. Hahaha.

But, let's think, misunderstanding is an essential part of a human relationship for them to get to know each other better, right? Then, just let boys understand their girls step by step, by misunderstanding. LOL.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Sunday, October 04, 2009

~~~

Tak kan pernah kau ganggu tempatnya di sana, walau sudah ada aku, karena zona itu miliknya sejak dulu, sampai kini, dan hingga nanti.
Tak kan tega kau hapus dirinya, walau sudah ada aku, karena ia adalah empunya kekekalan sejak ia masuk dan mulai bersemayam di sana.
Tak kan mungkin kau buang kenangannya, walau sudah ada aku, karena prasasti-prasasti memori itu diciptakan olehnya.

Namun, bisakah kuminta satu hal saja?
Kristalkanlah ia dan perasaanmu padanya.

Aku tak mau kau berkunjung ke sana lagi.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Lalu pikiran saya berkelana

Dan di sinilah saya sekarang, di depan layar komputer saya, di hadapan lecture notes Environmental Engineering saya yang sudah mulai keriting karena terlalu sering dibawa ke sana ke mari, dan di tengah-tengah perasaan sedih, senang, sepi, lelah, dan ngantuk yang bercampur-baur menjadi satu. Saya baru saja selesai membereskan kamar yang saya tinggalkan selama beberapa hari dan saya seharusnya mulai membenamkan diri saya ke dalam tumpukan catatan mengenai wastewater and wastewater treatment. Namun, saya tak sanggup. Saya masih ingin berleha-leha sesaat sebelum kembali kepada kenyataan yang menjemukan ini.

That's why I'm blogging now!!!


Tak ada tempat yang lebih indah selain rumah, itu benar. Kampung halaman adalah surga, rumah adalah surga, keluarga adalah surga. Kita semua terlahir di dalam surga, tapi kenapa masih banyak dari kita yang menggerutu di dalam surga kita sendiri dan mencoba lari darinya?

Saya tak pernah mencoba lari dari surga saya; yang saya lakukan sekarang bukanlah kabur dari keluarga. Saya memutuskan untuk melanjutkan sekolah di luar Palembang bukan karena saya ingin kebebasan, muak terus-menerus diatur keluarga, atau merasa bosan terus-menerus di tempat yang sama, melainkan karena saya sedang dalam proses membangun surga yang lain: surga untuk diri saya sendiri, surga untuk keluarga saya, surga untuk suami dan anak-anak saya di masa yang akan datang.

Walalupun saya perempuan, bukan berarti saya tak akan berperan serta dalam proses pembangunan surga bagi keluarga saya di masa yang akan datang. Jika saya bisa jadi seorang wanita yang berpendidikan, berpengetahuan luas, dan cerdas, saya akan mampu mendidik anak-anak saya dengan baik. Karena itu, saya sangat yakin bahwa saya butuh pendidikan yang baik untuk menunjang hidup saya dan keluarga saya di masa yang akan datang.

Bukan hanya pria yang butuh pendidikan!

Makanya, kuping saya seketika menjadi panas saat saya dengar pernyataan pasangan suami istri yang duduk di sebelah saya di dalam pesawat tadi pagi.
Mereka bilang, "Anak cewek nggak perlu pinter-pinter. Yang penting wajah cantik dan body bagus, toh nantinya bakal masuk dapur juga."
Mendengar pernyataan itu, saya ingin sekali marah. Mereka sama sekali tak menghargai kaum wanita, bahkan anak mereka sendiri. Si istri yang juga wanita pun sama sekali tak menghargai kaumnya, berarti dia tak menghargai dirinya sendiri. Saya sungguh kesal.

Apakah benar laki-laki hanya tertarik pada wanita berdasarkan wajah dan body?
Apakah benar wanita nantinya hanya akan bermain-main di dapur?
Apakah benar wanita tak butuh otak?

Jika jawaban dari ketiga pertanyaan di atas adalah benar, berarti wanita tidak termasuk ke dalam golongan manusia. Wanita hanyalah budak seks pria karena wanita hanya butuh wajah dan tubuh. Wanita hanyalah benda, bukan mahluk hidup. Wanita hanyalah sarana pemuas nafsu. Eksploitasi! Pelacuran legal! Shit!

Saya sungguh tak menyangka, di zaman seperti ini masih ada saja orang-orang yang berpikiran seperti itu. Kolot! Bodoh! Egois! Diskriminatif!

Lalu, apa gunanya perjuangan R.A. Kartini?

Okay, now it's time for GIRLS to show to the world that we are capable to DO EVERYTHING men can do! NEVER lean your life on MEN!!! We can survive and be happy ON OUR OWN FEET!!!!
Burning, Girls!!!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Saturday, October 03, 2009

Lepas sudah


Aku lelah mengejar-ngejar dirimu, sungguh. Panggilan-panggilan hati ini tak pernah lagi kau gubris seolah duniamu dan duniaku sudah tak terjembatani. Lalu, apa arti kata-kata rindu yang kau ucapkan selama ini? Apa arti hari-hari indah kita di masa silam? Tak adakah?

Semula kukira hanya kecemburuanku yang mengarang-ngarang masalah ini, tapi ternyata memang dirimu yang telah berubah. Gandengan ini semakin mengendur walaupun aku tetap berusaha mempertahankan jemarimu. Namun, kau tetap memilih untuk menjauh. Apakah kita telah mendekati bagian akhir dari lembar-lembar yang telah kita tulis bersama?

Akankah sekali lagi aku ditinggal pergi?
Mungkin kali ini bukan aku sendiri, tapi 'kami'.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Batik

HARI BATIK SEDUNIA!!!

Ya, kemarin adalah hari batik sedunia yang ditetapkan oleh UNESCO karena batik sudah ditetapkan sebagai WARISAN BUDAYA INDONESIA. Sungguh hal ini merupakan sebuah kelegaan yang luar biasa mengingat beberapa minggu yang lalu Indonesia masih grasa-grusu mengenai berita bahwa salah satu negara TETANGGA kita akan meng-claim batik sebagai milik negaranya. Sungguh tetangga yang tak tahu malu. Mereka benar-benar menerapkan peribahasa 'rumput tetangga selalu terlihat lebih hijau' dan mereka ingin semua rumput dari Indonesia dipindahkan ke tempat mereka. Dengan segala cara, mereka merebut apa yang menjadi milik negara kita yang tercinta, mulai dari pulau, makanan, baju tradisional, bahkan pelajar.

Namun, ada hal baik juga yang kita dapatkan dari kejadian-kejadian ini. Setidaknya, masyarakat Indonesia kembali tergugah untuk menunjukkan kepada dunia bahwa BATIK adalah milik kita. Corak yang terlupakan ini kembali menghiasi etalase-etalase toko saat kita berjalan-jalan di mall atau pusat perbelanjaan lainnya. Para desainer mulai mengerahkan kemampuan mereka untuk merancang batik modern dan para konsumer mulai merogoh kantong mereka untuk menunjukkan kepada dunia bahwa batik adalah milik INDONESIA!!!

Saya sangat senang batik sudah 'menikah' dengan Indonesia. Janur kuning sudah melengkung dan batik bukan lagi milik bersama. Batik adalah milik Indonesia dan Indonesia adalah milik batik. Titik. Tak ada kompromi.

Namun, sebenarnya saya sendiri tidak berpartisipasi dalam event akbar ini. Pertama, saya tidak punya batik. Kedua, saya tak punya waktu pergi membeli batik sebelum 2 Oktober. Ketiga, saya tidak punya rupiah yang cukup untuk membeli batik. Ya, oke, mungkin ketiga alasan itu kelihatan tidak valid, tapi sungguh, saya ingin berpartisipasi, tapi apa daya tangan tak sampai.

Oke, untuk HARI BATIK SEDUNIA tahun depan, saya akan berpartisipasi. Janji.

Indonesia cinta batik. Batik cinta Indonesia.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Friday, October 02, 2009

Dunia Maya



Tiba-tiba saja dunia yang hiruk pikuk ini menjadi sunyi seketika
Aku berenang-renang dalam kesepian yang kucipta
Yang kunanti hanya sebuah kata
Tapi yang kudapat hanyalah tanya

Hari ini ada yang berbeda
Aku tak tahu apa
Tapi satu yang terasa
Aku mendamba dunia maya

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Wish


I said, "I wish to be her"
You replied, "I wish to be with her"

That time, I just laughed

And now, I can't just laugh at that sentence.
^^

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Thursday, October 01, 2009

Homehomehome

And I'm home now!!!^^

But, I left something in Singapore... =.=

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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Bits and Pieces

REALIZE

I never think that all things should be said literally, that's why others are struggling so hard to catch my point until they are too tired and giving up on me, I am complicated, yes. Very often, I won't say a thing regarding this kind of thing and I want others to guess and realize by themselves. I mean, when you tell them what the problem realli is, they are not 'REALIZE' it, they are just 'LISTEN TO' it and 'ADMIT' that they are wrong or even 'DENY' that the fault is on their shoulders. And, every time something seems going wrong, I really hate to be tortured by a basket full of questions. Why don't they start to look deeper and realize, not just force me to speak out.

Okay, I know, what I think is definitely not 100% right. Sometimes, it's just me who is so narrow-minded and long-winded. But, what else can I do? This is me, and I can't help changing my abstractness. I am so sorry.

BE A GIRL

These days, accidentally, I think about to learn to be a real girl. Yes, a real girl. I want to learn how to cook, I want to learn ow to put mascara on my eyes, I want to learn how to walk properly on heels, I want to be more ladylike, I want this, and I want that. Yes, you know, I am not the one that is very girlie or something.

I just happened to be born as a girl, but I know nothing about the girls' stuffs. I never know about eye shadow, blush on, waterproof mascara, or even lipstick. I have none of them! I never apply foundation, I never do anything to my face except moisturizer and baby powder. Haha. And for special occasion, I become so lost about what to apply and do. LOL.

Then, I definitely cannot cook. Even for cooking a scrambled egg, I think I will be struggling. Haha. What I can do are only cutting fruits and some other things, boil water and make coffee, tea, or milk, and put something into a microwave. So lame, yeah I know, but what else can I do? This is me. That's why I have a will to learn how to cook.

My friend says, this is a syndrome that attacks every attached girl. But, is it so? I mean, what is inside the relationship that lead you to a thought of trying to be a real girl?

FLY BACK HOME

Definitely, this is the thing I will do in several hours. My home will be in a reachable distance and I will end my recess there. Yeah, it's only for three days and it won't be enough, but it's a blessing that I can go back home in the middle of this stressful life.

So many things are waiting for me there: gado-gado, mango, Choky Sitohang (he waits for me? Of course, syalalala), and of course, LOVE.

I can't say longer since I just want to feel it right now.
Holiday, I am coming! =)

HEDONE ALL THE WAY

And you know, now I am crazy about HANDBAGS! Yes, handbags! I have fallen in love with one on Tangs since one month ago, and it's Guess. I didn't buy it back then because I never spent such a big amount of money before (it's S$ 159, Guys!!!) so I got back and asked my mum's permission. She said yes, of course. She knew that her daughter wanted to climb on the fashion staircase to a higher level. Haha. I was soooo happy and longing to go there and grab the bag. But, my crazy life didn't allow me. I kept myself in the stack of works, even on weekend. So, I just had time on this recess week.

Guess what, when I got back to Tangs several days ago, the Guess had disappeared! Oh no! I knew it was an old stock and I couldn't find it in any Guess boutique, so I gave up on it.

As a replacement, I bought one black handbag from Charles&Keith. After that, I went to Esprit to see a white bag I like, and I accidentally fell in love with another Esprit black handbag. It's not leather, instead it's parachute kind of thing. And really, I wanted that also! Why did I go to C&K first instead of Esprit? Oh My!

And I just bought a pair of heels. It's black, it's high, and it's nice! I love it very much!

BE MAD AND CRAZY

Hey, you! Never ever think that you are the best person in this world! You said you wanted to step back just because you thought someone would lose against you. Hey, what an arrogant person you are!

I never believe such a person does exist on this world. So overconfident, so arrogant, so, so, so...

UNDERSTAND NO MORE

Really, I don't understand what on earth are in your mind now. At one time you are so sweet and nice and cheerful, and at another time you are so sad and desperate and annoying. You drives me crazy all the way. I am so lost in the middle of my guess about your thought.

When I see your face with that sadness, I feel like I am the one who causes the expression to come out and I'm stressed!!!

WELCOME OCTOBER

October is coming and it means exam is approaching. Yeah, I feel I haven't got anything from the classes I attend everyday. I think I must be more hardworking after this term break.^^.

Actually, October is the 8th month of the Roman calendar. That's why it's called October, from octo, which means eight. January and February were added in the Gregorian time but October retained its name as the eight.

It's so wonderful how people created things, huh?

Hope a happy October for everyone!^^

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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