aLL 'BouT 'Fe-Ar'

The last time I can remember seeping a happiness is like zillion years away. I do not hold anymore happy feeling in doing what I do. Monday to Friday, I am just waiting for the week to pass and day by day, time passes so slowly.

I have only one thing that keep me here and that thing seems getting further from me.

I am alone after all. And I am a child, anyway.

I am not ready to grow up.

There is I in happiness but I alone can't get that happiness. I need U to pursue it.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

When I was tapping my card to open a door in HQ
Contractor: Huh? You have a card?
Me: -______________- I am a staff!

I don't suit here, do I?

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I was relaying this story to my best friend.

Once upon a time, in a meeting room, I was talking to one of my contractors. Someone was not very happy to see me talking to people, and that someone interrupted our small chat.

Someone: Tomorrow is your last day, huh?
Contractor: Noo, Saturday.

And a very surprising follow up I have ever heard came out of that someone's mouth, "Last Saturday, huh?"

So I told my friend, I don't know what was that inside that someone's head. Maybe the brain is not there, the brain is located inside the panties. The panties are washed very frequently so the brain is damaged.

What a smart girl my friend is. This is her response: Someone is a goldfish which every two seconds lose the memory and looks very blurred.

I laughed so hard. Alone. To my computer.

What a day.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

When my teammates' names were announced, a bunch of friends from my team applauded and shouted so hard as a form of their support. When it was my turn, they did the same thing, too. Therefore, DCE said, "Congratulation, you have so many fans down there."

Yeah, my promotion is not worth to be congratulated, yet the support is. :)

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

During the promotion ceremony, all the promotees were seated in alphabetical order to wait for our turn to shake hands with the big shots. We were chatting through What's App because we were separated by the first letter of our name.

G: This thing reminds me of graduation. We need to queue so long.
F: Yes, correct.
S: I even see some ladies with flowers. It makes it looks even more like convocation.
F: Next year we can consider opening a booth out there to sell flowers and plush toys. We can customize the Teddy Bear with shirt written "I am SPE/DPM/PM/etc".
L: Yea, good idea. But you should not produce too much "I am DD/PD" teddy because there are not many of them.

We are more excited of making money out of the event rather than the promotion. :P

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

When I was having an appraisal evaluation with my boss

Me: So, being promoted, what should I do?
Boss: Give treat lor!
Me: ...

Apparently nothing will be changed by the promotion since I am still at the bottom and every single shit will still be thrown to me.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Some people think promotion and appraisal are only about money, money and money. But, for me, this is about value. I can see how my bosses value me through the appraisal and the score I get. Now I understand that my value is not that high and I have been exploited so far.

I shall not work smart, and not work hard.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~