aLL 'BouT 'Fe-Ar'

I've never imagined I would do it. I was just so outspoken and vocal just now. I didn't know whether I've done the right thing. But what I know is that I am happy that I have spoken everything I felt. I really feel that I have overcome my worst fear.

I still need more blessing, dear God... :)

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Seeing people get detached makes me shiver. I feel the fear, I feel threatened. Stepping out from the comfort zone is indeed not easy, but I do believe that we need to put the effort to stabilize everything. I hope there will be no pressure from any parties because I will give my love time to prove himself. I am sure he will be a great guy for me and my children.

I love him, and so does he.
We will fight for this love.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I know I shouldn't get angry, and I am not angry at all. However the feeling of dissapointment still seeps into this little heart. I think about him in every little thing I do and every single thing I see, and I wonder, do I fill up any voids inside his brain like he does to mine?

I feel like clapping with one of my hand palm only. No reaction from the other one. Of course, there's no sound. No reaction, no response, no this, and no that.

And I wonder if I ever crossed his mind?

I am dreaming of a candle light dinner
Only you and I
Only the light sparkling between our love

I am dreaming of chilling in front of Eiffel Tower
Only you and I
Only the breeze covering our hearts

I am dreaming of you, you, and you
Do you feel the same too?

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I hate today, really really hate today. I feel like shit. Until now, I still feel like shit. I did wrong, I spoke wrong, I got nothing right.

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My eyes don't get better. I even feel worse, I think. After I spent most of my day tearing down, I felt more painful. I hope there's nothing wrong with this two little guys.

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Some words really shot me. And I realize, I shouldn't ask for more. Because, it's not PEPSI. LOL.

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I love babies and toddlers. They are always lovely, no matter what they are doing. They are angels, white and pure. I love babies and some day later, I will have one, for sure.

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I want to help, but looks like the person doesn't want to borrow my hand. I dunno. Hmm.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I love to listen to love song and happy song
So, is it good to feel love and happiness?

Yes, absolutely!
Quote of the day from dear Ros!!! :D

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I guess God is trying to tell me that I am not on top of the world. I have been staying above the air so far, and it's time for me to set my foot back on to the world.

I should accept this fate.
At least, I have shot my best effort.

I leave everything for my God to decide.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~