aLL 'BouT 'Fe-Ar'

Welcome, June!
Summer has come although Rain still pay some visits very often. Soon, it is going to be the halfway of the revolution of the earth against the sun. Soon, it is going to be another holiday. Soon, it is going to be another semester. Soon, it is going to be another new year. And soon, yeah, very soon, it is going to be the future.

And my future is sure determined by my past and present, chapter by chapter of my book: how I struggled to reach this place, how I pushed myself to be accepted inside my new environment, how I made myself contribute to the school and company I am attached, how I choose my final year project, how I select my specialization, how I get through all these four years. I am sure that God counts every drop of sweat, tear, and blood of mine in this war. I have lost so much but God will give me even more. :) :) :)

There were times I felt like surrendering and giving up all the way. I really thought to stop all the effort I have been putting. Sometimes I felt that my brain capacity wasn't enough of dealing with this place. Sometimes I felt that no one understood and it's better for me to go back home. Sometimes I just felt lacking of true friends. Sometimes I was sick of the everlasting competitions. Sometimes it was nothing but the thought of quitting school.

But there were always some ways for me to get my spirit back. Mom. Bf. My best friends. My dreams of future. Even my enemy.

This half year really takes a big part in shaping my future for sure. I learnt a lot from my two and half year study in NTU, but I learnt more during my half year internship in AECOM Singapore. I am grateful. Really really grateful.

And I have almost finished my chapter in this company. Another chapter will come to me very soon: the senior year. I will not spend my last year with singing and dancing like those High School Musical casts were doing, but I will sure enjoy my final chapter in my undergraduate life. Maybe sometimes I will cry, maybe sometimes I will fall, but I am sure that I will find a happy ending. :)

The new chapter is standing in front of my doorstep now, waiting for me to open the door and let it in. The Final Year Project list has been released yesterday. The course planner will be opened on 10th June. The deadline for choosing FYP will be 23 days from now and the course registration will be done before the end of the month. The FYP allocation result will be announced on late August, as well as the new term starts. And by that time, I will be tasting the first sip of my final year.

But before that, let me close this chapter with a wonderful ending.
I love my life.
J'aime ma vie!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~