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One of my conversation with bf
Me: Goldfish is getting more and more annoying!
bf: What is it this time?
Me: Anything Goldfish does just annoy me.
bf: I think you are going to bring a knife to the office sometime later.

I bumped into one of my contractor
Me: Hi.
He: Let's plan something to kill Goldfish!
Me: *burst into laugh*

In daily meeting
Contractor: Tomorrow we will start the activity after 3:30pm because there will be an event going on at the school.
Goldfish: But your machine is broken, right?
Contractor: No, we already repaired.
Goldfish: *pull out handphone and start typing*
Suddenly my phone vibrated and there was a message in a chat group
Goldfish: Contractor informs that the machine is already repaired. Please check on site.
After a while, site inspector replied with a photo showing the machine in working condition.
To our surprise, she replied, in caps lock: TEST TO ASCERTAIN THAT IT CAN WORK NOW.
I almost burst into tears. Goldfish is so funny.

So I have proof that Goldfish is indeed annoying.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

KFC has this product everytime Avengers movies are screened.

This time is Iron Man.

So there is this tagline: The Hero Sized Burger for Hero Sized Appetite.
And I think, "Tony Stark would not eat that, hell!"

At another time, I asked bf, "Why do they call it Double Down?"
And he said, almost instantaneously, "After you it double chicken, you will feel down."

Okay, that made some senses. I guess lots of people are feeling down now. :P



U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

The last time I can remember seeping a happiness is like zillion years away. I do not hold anymore happy feeling in doing what I do. Monday to Friday, I am just waiting for the week to pass and day by day, time passes so slowly.

I have only one thing that keep me here and that thing seems getting further from me.

I am alone after all. And I am a child, anyway.

I am not ready to grow up.

There is I in happiness but I alone can't get that happiness. I need U to pursue it.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

When I was tapping my card to open a door in HQ
Contractor: Huh? You have a card?
Me: -______________- I am a staff!

I don't suit here, do I?

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I was relaying this story to my best friend.

Once upon a time, in a meeting room, I was talking to one of my contractors. Someone was not very happy to see me talking to people, and that someone interrupted our small chat.

Someone: Tomorrow is your last day, huh?
Contractor: Noo, Saturday.

And a very surprising follow up I have ever heard came out of that someone's mouth, "Last Saturday, huh?"

So I told my friend, I don't know what was that inside that someone's head. Maybe the brain is not there, the brain is located inside the panties. The panties are washed very frequently so the brain is damaged.

What a smart girl my friend is. This is her response: Someone is a goldfish which every two seconds lose the memory and looks very blurred.

I laughed so hard. Alone. To my computer.

What a day.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

When my teammates' names were announced, a bunch of friends from my team applauded and shouted so hard as a form of their support. When it was my turn, they did the same thing, too. Therefore, DCE said, "Congratulation, you have so many fans down there."

Yeah, my promotion is not worth to be congratulated, yet the support is. :)

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During the promotion ceremony, all the promotees were seated in alphabetical order to wait for our turn to shake hands with the big shots. We were chatting through What's App because we were separated by the first letter of our name.

G: This thing reminds me of graduation. We need to queue so long.
F: Yes, correct.
S: I even see some ladies with flowers. It makes it looks even more like convocation.
F: Next year we can consider opening a booth out there to sell flowers and plush toys. We can customize the Teddy Bear with shirt written "I am SPE/DPM/PM/etc".
L: Yea, good idea. But you should not produce too much "I am DD/PD" teddy because there are not many of them.

We are more excited of making money out of the event rather than the promotion. :P

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When I was having an appraisal evaluation with my boss

Me: So, being promoted, what should I do?
Boss: Give treat lor!
Me: ...

Apparently nothing will be changed by the promotion since I am still at the bottom and every single shit will still be thrown to me.

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Some people think promotion and appraisal are only about money, money and money. But, for me, this is about value. I can see how my bosses value me through the appraisal and the score I get. Now I understand that my value is not that high and I have been exploited so far.

I shall not work smart, and not work hard.

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U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Dream
I have a dream but I have no guts to pursue it. I am such a loser, yes I am.

Comfort
It is not comfortable here but I am still afraid to step out. I want to move out and move on. Can I?

Value
I feel none value me and it hurts people who actually put their best effort for me. Forgive me.

Words
People speak, people hurt me. I speak, I hurt people. This world is a battlefield, isn't it?

Farewell
There is no good bye, there is see you later. I shall meet you again. This world is not big enough, no?

Friendship
I have many friends, but only few are friendship. We sail in this ship together, we live happily ever after. Thanks.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

People come, people go. When there is a hello, there will be a goodbye.

One and a half year is not long, yet it is not short enough to disregard everything that has happened. I have been here for one and a half year with each and every one of my team members, either my LTA team or the contractor.

I am a client, but I never put myself as an opponent or boss of my contractor. I make them my friends within my working life. I have been very close with a few of them and I feel comfortable around them.

And sadly to say, two of them are going to move out and move on.

I am sad but I wish them all the best!!!!

Me: I am sad!
Him: Why sad?
Me: Why do you need to go?
Him: I will come back...
Me: 3 years later, the project has been finished...
Him: Next project, if you can't be PM, maybe a DPM, we will meet again... I am Construction Manager, you are DPM... Next project...

Amen~~~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Life always gives thousand and one way to make me strong. From those who hate me, those who love me, and any other who just don't know me...

Thanks, Universe...

Even in this difficult time, I am still very blessed...


U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~