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Lisa yang bikin nih video... Jadi sedih... Jadi inget masa-masa masih make seragam... Kangen seragam putih ijo neeh... Huhuhu...
Makasih yah, Lisa...
U're the best I've ever had...
~FeN~

As I walked along the corridor ad tried to find the name tag "Chew Sing Ping", my heart beat (ya iyalah, kalo ga berdetak namanya mati...) I was wondering what we would talk inside. Then, at the end of the way, I found his name. I knocked the door and a voice told me to come in.

The first thing he asked me is "Who are you?"

"Febrina," I answered.

"Ok," he said, while typing on his keyboard, "Wait a minute a..."

Then, I waited for him, saw his office. Full of things... Especially books, and I imagined how come if all those books fell down and hit me...

"So, how are you?" he asked.
"Fine."
"And, where are you from?"
"Indonesia."
"Are you Indonesian scholar?"
"Ya."
"So, you are good, right? I don't expect any problem from you la... You are first year now, right? How's your study?"
"So far so good la..."
"Then, I'll give you my name card.If you have any problem, feel free to call me. But, I don't expect you get any academic problem. Maybe you have problem with your boyfriend... Quarreling for example... But, I also cannot help... Haha... I will take note that you have come and see me, because, you know, we have such a system... In fact I don't believe this system, force students to come... Ya, you just need to come when you have problem..."
"Haha... Oke, thank you, Sir..."
"Ok, bye..."

And that's all my meet-the-mentor-session...
Nothing important...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

5 menit lagi waktu menunjukkan jam 12...

Sesaat lagi...
Hari Rabu berakhir...
Bulan Oktober berakhir...
Halloween berakhir...

Tapi...
Perjuanganku belum berakhir...

Masih ada 29 hari sebelum aku bisa menghirup kembali oksigen di Palembang...

29 hari...

Lamakah???

Atau akan berlalu dengan cepat???

Let's see...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

(Hanya mau membuat jumlah postingan di bulan Oktober jadi 25)

Persahabatan...
Ada yang ga percaya dengan keajaiban sebuah persahabatan?

Dulu aku nyaris ga percaya...

Aku pernah ditinggal sahabatku...
Dibuang gitu aja...

Karena hal yang ga jelas...

Padahal...
Kami udah segitu deketnya...
Kemana-mana berdua...
Sampe dibilang sodara kembar ama guru-guru....

Tapi...
Sejak masuk SMA...
Semuanya berubah...

Entah atas dasar apa...
Dia ga pernah lagi nelpon aku...
Dia ga pernah lagi curhat sama aku...
Bahkan...
Dia cuma senyum waktu ketemu di sekolah...

Waktu itu...
Rasanya sakit hati banget...

Ngeliat dia sama temen-temen barunya...
Bikin aku lebih sakit hati lagi...

Aku patah hati...

Aku ga berani lagi berharap sama persahabatan...
Aku pikir persahabatan itu hanya ada kalo kita deket sama orang itu...
Kalo si sahabat udah dalam radius yang di luar jangkauan kita...
Persahabatan pasti berakhir...

Konsep itu yang aku pegang hingga akhir SMA...
Aku dekat dengan beberapa orang...
Tapi aku ga yakin setelah jarak yang begitu jauh memisahkan...
Kami masih mampu menjaga hubungan...

Sedangkan aku dan ex-sahabatku yang hanya terpisah beberapa ruangan kelas aja ga bisa bertahan...

Aku pikir setelah aku dan temen-temenku pisah universitas...
Semuanya akan berakhir...
Sama seperti kisah lamaku dengannya...

Tapi...
Sekarang aku sadar...
Aku salah...

Benar-benar salah...

Aku ngerasa makin sayang sama temen-temenku setelah aku terpisah jauh dengan mereka...

Dulu aku ketemu hampir setiap hari sama mereka...
Sampe bosen... =P
Sekarang ga pernah ketemu...
Rasanya ada sesuatu yang kurang...

Ternyata bener...
Nilai seseorang baru terasa setelah dia ga di sisi kita...

Mungkin memang...
Sebagai kumpulan cewe-cewe...
Kami kurang memanfaatkan waktu kami 'as girls'...
Kami jarang jalan-jalan ke mall...
Kami jarang foto-foto kaya kumpulan cewe-cewe yang laen...
Kami ga pernah saaling ngecatin kuku ato ngelakuin hal girlie laennya...

Tapi...
Aku tetep rindu sahabat-sahabatku...
Rindu saat-saat kami maen kartu remi bareng...
Rindu saat-saat kami ngerumpi...
Rindu saat-saat makan bareng di kantin..
Rindu segalanya...

Aku bener-bener ngerti apa artinya persahabatan...

Persahabatan itu...
Sesuatu yang ga akan hilang walaupun terpisahkan jarak...
Sesuatu yang ga bakal pudar oleh waktu...
Sesuatu yang dimiliki aku dan kamu...
Sahabat...
Aku cinta ama kalian...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

As I woke up today, I felt that my heart missed my friends very much... Remembering last night chatting with Lisa n Vivien made me really miss them... Hope I can go home soon n find them still waiting for me...

Now, I remember one message I left in Nugeneration_talk group (my lovely lovely Yahoo group) about one month ago... So, I post it here to make one more everlasting memory...

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Appendix C

As time flows...
I am sure all of us will find our own businesses.. .
But, I hope we can spend a little of our time to check our inbox...
Read the messages...
Then reply...

I find a lot of pleasure in my heart when I read every message from you in my inbox...
Hope all of you also find the same thing dealing with this matter, friendship.. .

I really feel that I can not find any friends like you all...
You are really special...
Very very special...
That I can not imagine losing you all...

In this occasion...
I want to say thanks alot...
Thanks for everything you have given to me...

Thanks for the laugh...
The tears...
The screams...
The smile...
The anger...
All the good and bad things...

Really thanks...
Although we have had some problems...
I have no regret...

A very big thanks I wanna write everywhere.. .
Especially for the hearts you have given to me...
To Nugen...

I am very proud being a piece of your life...
I am very proud being a part of Nugen...
I am very proud having friends like you...

Speechless now...
Feel like crying...
Miss you so much (that I feel I wanna hug you all)

Sabtu datang... Sekali lagi satu minggu terlewati... Sekali lagi hati ini terasa tak karuan... Exam tinggal 2 minggu lagi...

Dalam 2 minggu ini...
Masih banyak yang harus dilakukan...
1. Math quiz (Senin)
2. Chemistry quiz (Rabu)
3. Effective Comm assignment 3 (Rabu juga)
4. Physics quiz (Rabu depan)
5. Catch up buat Physics yang kembali terasa susah sejak lecturer berganti...
6. CommTech quiz (Jumat depan)

Wah, wah...
Apakah aku siap buat Exam????

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

One day, Love and Friendship met.

Love, proudly, said, "You know, all people in this world seek me. Without me, they cannot live. And you, you are useless. Without you, there is still me... People have their faith to have their beloved one. When they find their soul mates, you are nothing!!! Huahahahaha..."

"Ya, I know," said Friendship, "People can easily forget me if they find you."

"So," Love continued, "Why do you exist if I already exist? To be forgotten and hurt?"

Friendship just nodded. He said, "Friendship exists to put smile when love leaves tears."

So, Guys...
However love covers your life, heart, and soul, never forget this quote...

You still have friends by your side...
You will never walk alone...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

New week has started. The time is still flowing. Now, I think about home more than I used to. I think about all I have left in Palembang. I hope I can sleep now and when I wake up, I see 29th of November... Really hope something like that can happen in my life...

But...
It can not happen...

I still have to face Chemistry quiz, Speech Assignment, Math quiz, Physics quiz, and one more Computing quiz...

It hasn't finished...

I still have to fight on my final battle... The exam...

Exam...
Exam...
Exam...

Is it better if it comes soon so I can go and see my beloved home or is it better if it comes later so that I have more time preparation????

I feel rather disappointed...
Why I can still waste my time...

For blogging, for example...

Hehe...
Coz, I love blogging...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~