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Cina and Annisa love God

and God loves them both

But Cina and Annisa cannot love each other

because they call God by different names

The short-yet-powerful synopsis of CIN[T]A, an Indonesian movie that I wanted to watch the most since half a year ago, but until now, I haven't watched it since almost no Indonesian movie is screened here. And in Indonesia, the movie is going to be a 'lawas' movie already. Crap, yes, but what can I do? I just can go somewhere to find the DVD. Lol.

Okay, let's get back to the movie. My wish is not that important, actually.

The main cast of the film is only three characters: Cina, Annisa, and God. Yes, God. I was quite surprised to find 'God' in one of its main casts. Then, I thought, yes, it's a good way to describe how God plays His role in human's life.

cin(T)a : cina (Tuhan) annisa

It's just perfect.

Annisa is 6 years older than Cina, but it's not a problem, love doesn't know what age is.
Annisa didn't finish her study, Cina still cannot earn money, but it's also not a problem, love doesn't consider it.
Annisa is an actress, Cina is only a college freshman, but it's really not a problem, love doesn't care about strata.
The only thing matters is how they worship God. Cina is christian, while Annisa is moslem. They know and love God, but the God they know is in different faces. And, that's the only thing parting them and their love.

The problem of this movie is so simple, but as I remember, no other movie has bring up this theme although this is the most common problem that people (in our country at least) face in their love lives. They love so called 'the wrong person' and are forced to give up on their happiness. Their surroundings will try so hard to separate them: family, relatives, friends. Some try to run from the pressure, they leave their family, their lives, their everything, and start a new life. They will be happy, yes, but part of them will be sad, of course.

Is there any solution to this problem? Can't people stand still on their religion while love the other 'different' party at the same time? Can't people form a family with different religion base?

Maybe, the answer is yes, they can, but they may not.

It's so sad that a couple should give up on each other because of one same thing that they perceive to be different. Some people can keep their marriage well although they stand on different boats. So, why can't the others??? Why should they keep their selfishness although they know that the God(s) they worship is actually the one and only?

I love this quote very much
Annisa: Kenapa Allah nyiptain manusia beda-beda kalo Dia cuma mau disembah dengan satu cara?
Cina: Makanya Tuhan nyiptain cinta, biar yang beda-beda bisa jadi satu

Then, why does this kind of problem still exist? Why they should quarrel because of God? I am sure God himself doesn't want His people to quarrel on His name. So, why, why, why?

I am so confused right now although I am not facing this kind of problem. Haha. I just confuse myself.


Trailer cin(T)a high quality from Erickson Siregar on Vimeo.


This is the trailer of the film. And you can see at the end of the trailer, they pray together with their own way. For me, the duet is just more than beautiful. Maybe that's what God wants, not a separation or breaking up or everlasting quarrels.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

In a month, I really hate this kind of time. All those bad things seem happen in the same time, really I hate it. All of those crazy things mix into one bowl and I am forced to finish it. Sigh, I really hate this kind of time. My body is not feeling well, my mood is so screwed up, my room seems really not cozy, my activities seem burdening me a lot, even almost every single thing people do looks like a shoot to me. I really become such a monster in this kind of time: cruel, sensitive, full of anger, melancholic, and emo. Sigh, sigh, sigh.

This.is.really.P.A.I.N.F.U.L.

Someone, please save my mood. I want to fly high.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Berkali-kali kita menyeka tangis, lalu berkali-kali pula kita merenda tawa
Berulang-ulang kita merengkuh amarah, berulang-ulang pula kita mengucap maaf
Berputar-putar kita pada lingkaran yang sama
Di atas sebuah cinta

And now, it's the time for us to work everything out and put our differences aside!!!
We are destined to love each other, not to hurt each other, isn't it?
And love, should be caring, not hurting, Baby.

Let's try try try just to be ni ni nice...

Oh baby we can fight like dogs we can fight like cats
a dirty laundry needs a laundry man
maybe the king and the queen should lay off the caffeine
baby breathe before you react

sometimes we do forget to behave
and we regret what we say
cause words are too weapons
if we don't choose'em carefully
ladies and gentlemen this is instrumental
if life's to be a bed of roses

i know i gave you everything you like
because you still give me butterflies

if we just try try try
just to be ni-ni-nice
then the world would be a better place for you and I
if we just live our lives
putting our differences aside
oh that would be so beautiful to me

Are we just dangling in the middle of a galaxy
Well i'm stoked on gravity
To be stuck with you like flowers on the dew drops
Now let it in my direction
My direction is up when everybody's down
cause i don't mind being anybody's clown
I love a little lift cause i'm an optimistic
In an altruistic way

Cause basically this place is needing instruments of harmony
Spreading my philosophy of love and inspiration
Oh these words I speak I commit to like a crime
with a rhythm i deliver i'm giving them a picture
of the reasons why

We should just try try try
Just to be ni-ni-nice
So the world could be a better place for you and I
If we just live our lives
Putting our differences aside
Oh that would be so beautiful to me

well it wouldn't cost a penny but could save so many lonely lives
from teary eyes
if we just try try try
to open up a can of understanding open up your heart
i'm just planting seeds
cause i believe

We could just try try try
Just to be ni-ni-nice
So the world would be a better place for you and I
If we just live our lives
Putting our differences aside
Oh that would be so beautiful to me

if we could try, just to be nice
that could be so beautiful to me
I believe,
Oh that could be so beautiful to me

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

P.S. By the way, I like this picture very much. I found it while searching for a nice picture for this post. Lol.

Random 1

Ketika aku di sini, butuh, butuh, dan butuh dirimu
Ke mana kamu?

Random 2

I am a zombie now! I wake up, I study, I have my lunch with my bf, I go back room to study, I study until I'm tired, I take a bath, I bite something as my dinner, I continue studying, I study until I listen to my roomate's hair dryer sound, then finally, I go to sleep. Yes, that's what I do every day. I am tired, but I still have six papers to fight against. *Sigh*

Random 3

I want to be a boy!!! Don't ask, it suddenly popped up into my mind when I listened to 'If I were a Boy' this morning.

Random 4

Last night, I dreamt about one of my besties, Valent. In my dream, she came to my house and we reunited. She told me that she was facing a problem with her sister. And this morning, I messaged her to check for her condition. Somehow I felt a bit worried, that's why I contacted her. And guess, actually, she is sick now. So, do you believe in that?

Random 5

What a shame! November will end in a glance and this is only my 6th post. Sigh, without my realization, I abandoned this blog. Forgive me, forgive me.

Random 6

My mom just called me. And hey, she really knows when I am not really studying!!! And after a long chit chat with her, I gradually regained my mood. Haha. I love my mom very much and I miss my home. I really want to hug her right here.

Random 7

Homesick is for people far from home
Lovesick is for people far from love
Lifesick is for people far from life

Lifesick
That's what I am

Random 8

I am planning to read Detective Conan. Should I read it or get back to my PYP?

Possibility 1: Read Conan and forget about PYP
Possibility 2: Read Conan and do PYP simultaneously
Possibility 3: Close the window of onemanga and struggle with the PYP

Random 9

I want to head back to the time when we still respected each other, when we were still guessing about one and another thing. I want to travel back to the time when we still haven't had each other's heart, but we were so eager to do so. I want to feel those sparks and feel your warmth, again.

Remember the chatlogs
Remember the walls
Remember the SMSes
Remember the phone calls
Remember the smiles
Remember the laughters
Remember you

Random 10



My favorite song!!!
Kamu nyangkut di hatiku!!!
=)

Random 11

Cannot wait until the time for me to go back home.
Let me go home, let me go home~~~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

#1 If only

Since this morning, this thought passed into my mind. Yeah, I thought about what my life here would be if Lenn didn't quit from A'level tuition, joined the entrance test of NTU, and entered this university with me. Maybe we would be roomate, and we would share our life together. We would have lunch and dinner together, we would go hanging out together, we would mug in the library or anywhere else together, we would giggle on cute boys together, and maybe, we would find love together.

Whoaaah, it would be too nice if it really happened. But, then, I realized, it was just a dream. She is destined to live her life on the mountain and me, in this tiny little spot.

#2 First exam

Yeah, I have gone through my first paper for this semester yesterday and hell, it was damn crazy!!! I have lost soooo many points.

Enough, I don't want to talk about it again although the questions keep popping on my mind.

#3 Social networking site

Really, I should thank the creators of those social networking site for reuniting me with the rest of the world and for bridging my thought with them. Every single time I need to grumble, I just need to type on my keyboard and I will feel more secure. Although I am alone in this tiny room, I know out there, there are people who really care for me.

Thanks Plurkers!!! Thank you a million!!!

#4 Sleepy

I feel sooooo sleepy since about two hours ago, but I didn't go to sleep just because I didn't want her to wake me up and drive me mad with her hair dryer sound. I can't do nothing except act 'nerimo' and push back my ego.

I hope I can 'tahan' for six more month and after that, I will be free from her, although my ears may be a bit deaf. LOL.

#5 Pancake

Suddenly, while writing #4, I think about pancake. I want to eat pancake. Hahaha.

#6 Homesick

And since I have written about pancake, I think about other foods. I want pisang goreng, kolak pisang, sop buntut goreng, kacang hijau, es campur, mangga, jajanan pasar, and of course, gado-gado.

Huff, three more weeks to go. I miss home more than I miss anything.

#7 Close

Let's close this page now and go to bed. Yes, it hasn't been 12 but I need rest. My brain is saturated. See my writing? This is the proof: so unorganized and acakadut. Haha. Forgive me for this randomness, I am so random right now.

Okay.
Bye.
Bonne nuit.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

And Louise is sure a cute child!!!
After a very long waiting time, finally she (yes, I've decided just now, she is a girl) can be mine. In the start of this bloody hell exam period, I went out to Jurong Point to extend my Singtel contract, sold my old E65, and brought Louise home.

She is so smart. She can connect to the internet much faster than my previous phone, she has a big memory to store and satisfy all my needs, her battery can last for a long time, and last but not the least, she is beautiful!!!

Elle est tres jolie!!!

For a 'gaptek' person like me, having a smartphone is a big leap.

So, now, I'm learning with Louise how to be more familiar with technology and all those things.
I love Louise and I will take care of her until the destiny separates us. LOL.

Welcome to this world, Louise!!!
Momma loves you^^

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Exam is right in front of NTU students now!!!

Yeah, at this kind of time, you will hardly find even a single seat inside the libraries, inside bunches of study rooms along campus or hostel area, inside old Canteen A, or even along benches at North or South Spine. But, you will easily (or very easily) find your friends with lecture notes, textbooks, and stressful face around the school. LOL. All NTU students appear from everywhere and gather at each feasible study spot to review and revise what they have (or haven't) studied during this term.

The period of mid-November until early December is the WAR TIME for all of us. We woke up early to study, we chew our meal faster to study, we shower much faster to study, we avoid internet to study, we isolate ourselves to study, and we sleep late to study. We do a lot of thing for the sake of studying.

Maybe it's not the right thing to do, but it's the trend. Study more and more during exam period and forget all about them after you step out from the exam hall.

Exam is not a very reliable tool to assess students' capability, but there is no choice.
So, Guys, let's make the exam period a beautiful time for us to learn (!= study) what have been taught to us.


For all my beloved PalzzzNTU friends, all the best for the exams. Never give up, never stop trying, because there is no doubt that we can pass through all of this and shine together.

But, please, don't do this inside the exam hall.


Also, never never never do this kind of thing.


Or this thing.


Happy exam!!!
We should be happy because it's exam!!!
^^

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~