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I still have about 20 minutes before rushing to the school, so I decide to write this post to start my day. My brain has chosen a topic to write, but it will be a standard and short post due to the lack of time.
So, enjoy!

Is it so hard to understand a girl? I think the answer is yes, it is.

I am a girl, but I do think and admit that girls are much more complicated than boys. I don't know what on earth is inside girls' brains, but sure, it is different from boys'.

Boys are more to-the-point and firm, while girls are more abstract, long winded, and enyek-enyek *I don't know what the translation of this word, so I leave it as it is*

When a girl says "Nothing", it definitely means "Something".
When she says, "Leave me alone", you should translate it becomes "Don't go away"
When she asks you to listen to her problems, she doesn't need a helping hand. All she needs is just a pair of ears that wish to receive all of her grumbling.

If this is the case, how can a boy and a girl understand each other completely?

Then, I suggest, anyone, please create a girl-mind-translator so that there will be no more misunderstanding between girls and boys. Hahaha.

But, let's think, misunderstanding is an essential part of a human relationship for them to get to know each other better, right? Then, just let boys understand their girls step by step, by misunderstanding. LOL.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Tak kan pernah kau ganggu tempatnya di sana, walau sudah ada aku, karena zona itu miliknya sejak dulu, sampai kini, dan hingga nanti.
Tak kan tega kau hapus dirinya, walau sudah ada aku, karena ia adalah empunya kekekalan sejak ia masuk dan mulai bersemayam di sana.
Tak kan mungkin kau buang kenangannya, walau sudah ada aku, karena prasasti-prasasti memori itu diciptakan olehnya.

Namun, bisakah kuminta satu hal saja?
Kristalkanlah ia dan perasaanmu padanya.

Aku tak mau kau berkunjung ke sana lagi.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Dan di sinilah saya sekarang, di depan layar komputer saya, di hadapan lecture notes Environmental Engineering saya yang sudah mulai keriting karena terlalu sering dibawa ke sana ke mari, dan di tengah-tengah perasaan sedih, senang, sepi, lelah, dan ngantuk yang bercampur-baur menjadi satu. Saya baru saja selesai membereskan kamar yang saya tinggalkan selama beberapa hari dan saya seharusnya mulai membenamkan diri saya ke dalam tumpukan catatan mengenai wastewater and wastewater treatment. Namun, saya tak sanggup. Saya masih ingin berleha-leha sesaat sebelum kembali kepada kenyataan yang menjemukan ini.

That's why I'm blogging now!!!

Tak ada tempat yang lebih indah selain rumah, itu benar. Kampung halaman adalah surga, rumah adalah surga, keluarga adalah surga. Kita semua terlahir di dalam surga, tapi kenapa masih banyak dari kita yang menggerutu di dalam surga kita sendiri dan mencoba lari darinya?

Saya tak pernah mencoba lari dari surga saya; yang saya lakukan sekarang bukanlah kabur dari keluarga. Saya memutuskan untuk melanjutkan sekolah di luar Palembang bukan karena saya ingin kebebasan, muak terus-menerus diatur keluarga, atau merasa bosan terus-menerus di tempat yang sama, melainkan karena saya sedang dalam proses membangun surga yang lain: surga untuk diri saya sendiri, surga untuk keluarga saya, surga untuk suami dan anak-anak saya di masa yang akan datang.

Walalupun saya perempuan, bukan berarti saya tak akan berperan serta dalam proses pembangunan surga bagi keluarga saya di masa yang akan datang. Jika saya bisa jadi seorang wanita yang berpendidikan, berpengetahuan luas, dan cerdas, saya akan mampu mendidik anak-anak saya dengan baik. Karena itu, saya sangat yakin bahwa saya butuh pendidikan yang baik untuk menunjang hidup saya dan keluarga saya di masa yang akan datang.

Bukan hanya pria yang butuh pendidikan!

Makanya, kuping saya seketika menjadi panas saat saya dengar pernyataan pasangan suami istri yang duduk di sebelah saya di dalam pesawat tadi pagi.
Mereka bilang, "Anak cewek nggak perlu pinter-pinter. Yang penting wajah cantik dan body bagus, toh nantinya bakal masuk dapur juga."
Mendengar pernyataan itu, saya ingin sekali marah. Mereka sama sekali tak menghargai kaum wanita, bahkan anak mereka sendiri. Si istri yang juga wanita pun sama sekali tak menghargai kaumnya, berarti dia tak menghargai dirinya sendiri. Saya sungguh kesal.

Apakah benar laki-laki hanya tertarik pada wanita berdasarkan wajah dan body?
Apakah benar wanita nantinya hanya akan bermain-main di dapur?
Apakah benar wanita tak butuh otak?

Jika jawaban dari ketiga pertanyaan di atas adalah benar, berarti wanita tidak termasuk ke dalam golongan manusia. Wanita hanyalah budak seks pria karena wanita hanya butuh wajah dan tubuh. Wanita hanyalah benda, bukan mahluk hidup. Wanita hanyalah sarana pemuas nafsu. Eksploitasi! Pelacuran legal! Shit!

Saya sungguh tak menyangka, di zaman seperti ini masih ada saja orang-orang yang berpikiran seperti itu. Kolot! Bodoh! Egois! Diskriminatif!

Lalu, apa gunanya perjuangan R.A. Kartini?

Okay, now it's time for GIRLS to show to the world that we are capable to DO EVERYTHING men can do! NEVER lean your life on MEN!!! We can survive and be happy ON OUR OWN FEET!!!!
Burning, Girls!!!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Aku lelah mengejar-ngejar dirimu, sungguh. Panggilan-panggilan hati ini tak pernah lagi kau gubris seolah duniamu dan duniaku sudah tak terjembatani. Lalu, apa arti kata-kata rindu yang kau ucapkan selama ini? Apa arti hari-hari indah kita di masa silam? Tak adakah?

Semula kukira hanya kecemburuanku yang mengarang-ngarang masalah ini, tapi ternyata memang dirimu yang telah berubah. Gandengan ini semakin mengendur walaupun aku tetap berusaha mempertahankan jemarimu. Namun, kau tetap memilih untuk menjauh. Apakah kita telah mendekati bagian akhir dari lembar-lembar yang telah kita tulis bersama?

Akankah sekali lagi aku ditinggal pergi?
Mungkin kali ini bukan aku sendiri, tapi 'kami'.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

HARI BATIK SEDUNIA!!!

Ya, kemarin adalah hari batik sedunia yang ditetapkan oleh UNESCO karena batik sudah ditetapkan sebagai WARISAN BUDAYA INDONESIA. Sungguh hal ini merupakan sebuah kelegaan yang luar biasa mengingat beberapa minggu yang lalu Indonesia masih grasa-grusu mengenai berita bahwa salah satu negara TETANGGA kita akan meng-claim batik sebagai milik negaranya. Sungguh tetangga yang tak tahu malu. Mereka benar-benar menerapkan peribahasa 'rumput tetangga selalu terlihat lebih hijau' dan mereka ingin semua rumput dari Indonesia dipindahkan ke tempat mereka. Dengan segala cara, mereka merebut apa yang menjadi milik negara kita yang tercinta, mulai dari pulau, makanan, baju tradisional, bahkan pelajar.

Namun, ada hal baik juga yang kita dapatkan dari kejadian-kejadian ini. Setidaknya, masyarakat Indonesia kembali tergugah untuk menunjukkan kepada dunia bahwa BATIK adalah milik kita. Corak yang terlupakan ini kembali menghiasi etalase-etalase toko saat kita berjalan-jalan di mall atau pusat perbelanjaan lainnya. Para desainer mulai mengerahkan kemampuan mereka untuk merancang batik modern dan para konsumer mulai merogoh kantong mereka untuk menunjukkan kepada dunia bahwa batik adalah milik INDONESIA!!!

Saya sangat senang batik sudah 'menikah' dengan Indonesia. Janur kuning sudah melengkung dan batik bukan lagi milik bersama. Batik adalah milik Indonesia dan Indonesia adalah milik batik. Titik. Tak ada kompromi.

Namun, sebenarnya saya sendiri tidak berpartisipasi dalam event akbar ini. Pertama, saya tidak punya batik. Kedua, saya tak punya waktu pergi membeli batik sebelum 2 Oktober. Ketiga, saya tidak punya rupiah yang cukup untuk membeli batik. Ya, oke, mungkin ketiga alasan itu kelihatan tidak valid, tapi sungguh, saya ingin berpartisipasi, tapi apa daya tangan tak sampai.

Oke, untuk HARI BATIK SEDUNIA tahun depan, saya akan berpartisipasi. Janji.

Indonesia cinta batik. Batik cinta Indonesia.

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

And I'm home now!!!^^

But, I left something in Singapore... =.=

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

REALIZE

I never think that all things should be said literally, that's why others are struggling so hard to catch my point until they are too tired and giving up on me, I am complicated, yes. Very often, I won't say a thing regarding this kind of thing and I want others to guess and realize by themselves. I mean, when you tell them what the problem realli is, they are not 'REALIZE' it, they are just 'LISTEN TO' it and 'ADMIT' that they are wrong or even 'DENY' that the fault is on their shoulders. And, every time something seems going wrong, I really hate to be tortured by a basket full of questions. Why don't they start to look deeper and realize, not just force me to speak out.

Okay, I know, what I think is definitely not 100% right. Sometimes, it's just me who is so narrow-minded and long-winded. But, what else can I do? This is me, and I can't help changing my abstractness. I am so sorry.

BE A GIRL

These days, accidentally, I think about to learn to be a real girl. Yes, a real girl. I want to learn how to cook, I want to learn ow to put mascara on my eyes, I want to learn how to walk properly on heels, I want to be more ladylike, I want this, and I want that. Yes, you know, I am not the one that is very girlie or something.

I just happened to be born as a girl, but I know nothing about the girls' stuffs. I never know about eye shadow, blush on, waterproof mascara, or even lipstick. I have none of them! I never apply foundation, I never do anything to my face except moisturizer and baby powder. Haha. And for special occasion, I become so lost about what to apply and do. LOL.

Then, I definitely cannot cook. Even for cooking a scrambled egg, I think I will be struggling. Haha. What I can do are only cutting fruits and some other things, boil water and make coffee, tea, or milk, and put something into a microwave. So lame, yeah I know, but what else can I do? This is me. That's why I have a will to learn how to cook.

My friend says, this is a syndrome that attacks every attached girl. But, is it so? I mean, what is inside the relationship that lead you to a thought of trying to be a real girl?

FLY BACK HOME

Definitely, this is the thing I will do in several hours. My home will be in a reachable distance and I will end my recess there. Yeah, it's only for three days and it won't be enough, but it's a blessing that I can go back home in the middle of this stressful life.

So many things are waiting for me there: gado-gado, mango, Choky Sitohang (he waits for me? Of course, syalalala), and of course, LOVE.

I can't say longer since I just want to feel it right now.
Holiday, I am coming! =)

HEDONE ALL THE WAY

And you know, now I am crazy about HANDBAGS! Yes, handbags! I have fallen in love with one on Tangs since one month ago, and it's Guess. I didn't buy it back then because I never spent such a big amount of money before (it's S$ 159, Guys!!!) so I got back and asked my mum's permission. She said yes, of course. She knew that her daughter wanted to climb on the fashion staircase to a higher level. Haha. I was soooo happy and longing to go there and grab the bag. But, my crazy life didn't allow me. I kept myself in the stack of works, even on weekend. So, I just had time on this recess week.

Guess what, when I got back to Tangs several days ago, the Guess had disappeared! Oh no! I knew it was an old stock and I couldn't find it in any Guess boutique, so I gave up on it.

As a replacement, I bought one black handbag from Charles&Keith. After that, I went to Esprit to see a white bag I like, and I accidentally fell in love with another Esprit black handbag. It's not leather, instead it's parachute kind of thing. And really, I wanted that also! Why did I go to C&K first instead of Esprit? Oh My!

And I just bought a pair of heels. It's black, it's high, and it's nice! I love it very much!

BE MAD AND CRAZY

Hey, you! Never ever think that you are the best person in this world! You said you wanted to step back just because you thought someone would lose against you. Hey, what an arrogant person you are!

I never believe such a person does exist on this world. So overconfident, so arrogant, so, so, so...

UNDERSTAND NO MORE

Really, I don't understand what on earth are in your mind now. At one time you are so sweet and nice and cheerful, and at another time you are so sad and desperate and annoying. You drives me crazy all the way. I am so lost in the middle of my guess about your thought.

When I see your face with that sadness, I feel like I am the one who causes the expression to come out and I'm stressed!!!

WELCOME OCTOBER

October is coming and it means exam is approaching. Yeah, I feel I haven't got anything from the classes I attend everyday. I think I must be more hardworking after this term break.^^.

Actually, October is the 8th month of the Roman calendar. That's why it's called October, from octo, which means eight. January and February were added in the Gregorian time but October retained its name as the eight.

It's so wonderful how people created things, huh?

Hope a happy October for everyone!^^

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~