Beers and parties we have together
Are really still not enough
There's more things to share
For us to stay tall and tough
We are young, we are free
But we're gonna get out from this spree
Some time later you will sail
To the coast you intend to reach
You can choose head or tail
None can direct your to one beach
People care for you and will always do
'Though you think they always corner you
They just care, they just want to shout
For you to be the strongest one
'Coz you are the creator of your boat
Not me, not them, not anyone
Work on your boat and reach your beach
From pieces of wood and nail
Make it strong and make it glitz
Glide on it and land on your isle
Give it your best shot
And God will grant you the brightest sun in the world
If you think I poke my nose too much to your life, I will just shut my mouth. I hope you can avoid being tangled inside your own problems. Take care!
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Monday Morning
Monday
6.48 AM
Waiting for the sun goes up before going out
And it's week #14!!!
Oh, Man!!!
My report is due in week #20.
I must catch up on this.
To do lists:
#1 Write the latest entry for my log book
#2 Read materials for my report
#3 Start to struggle on report
#4 Do the office works as well as possible
I wish the final year projects list will be out soon. I'm dying to choose and be chosen.
Yihaaaaa.
Eight more weeks before Changi Airport. :D
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
6.48 AM
Waiting for the sun goes up before going out
And it's week #14!!!
Oh, Man!!!
My report is due in week #20.
I must catch up on this.
To do lists:
#1 Write the latest entry for my log book
#2 Read materials for my report
#3 Start to struggle on report
#4 Do the office works as well as possible
I wish the final year projects list will be out soon. I'm dying to choose and be chosen.
Yihaaaaa.
Eight more weeks before Changi Airport. :D
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
Sunday, April 11, 2010
For those
A small talk with bf and I feel like putting it into this blog.
We were in the pantry. I was cutting fruits. He was watching me. Then he told me one of his colleagues was granted for SIA interview. He would probably become a pilot.
"Having a big salary, but his schedule must be very packed. How can he enjoy his life?" bf asked, "Only his wife and children can."
"He can, of course," I replied, "But not with his family. He will enjoy flying around the world and keep visiting great places."
"Then he can enjoy his big salary with the stewardesses," bf suggested.
I didn't know what we were talking till I asked, "Why must the stewardess pretty and tall?"
And this is what I want to write here.
I don't know why, but I realize that most of the good things are just for those who have ideal physical appearance. Being stewardess is one of the example. I am sure there are so many people out there who dream to be a stewardess, but they are just too short, too fat, or they have some scars due to childhood naughtiness.
And then my mind flew to another thing. This questions usually popped up in my mind when I was walking and seeing my surrounding.
Why is fashion created only for those with ideal body?
Yeah, why? I mean, you can see, all the catwalk models are in the very best shape. And the outfits are created for people like them to wear, not for those with excess fat here and there. And when you walk around stores, you will hardly find trendy outfit for XXXL or even XXXXXXXXXL size.
Don't fat people deserve the right to look pretty?
I am sure they feel like wearing those pretty and cute outfits also, but most of the time, they can only wear T-shirts and jeans.
I feel very sad for that condition. Those designers draw for the most ideal body in this world. Even if the manufacturer produced the bigger size, they would look awful in it.
Why don't they start to really draw and design for fat people, so that they will still look pretty even if they have tons of fat?
If I were a fashion designer, ...
Ok, I know, I am not.
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
We were in the pantry. I was cutting fruits. He was watching me. Then he told me one of his colleagues was granted for SIA interview. He would probably become a pilot.
"Having a big salary, but his schedule must be very packed. How can he enjoy his life?" bf asked, "Only his wife and children can."
"He can, of course," I replied, "But not with his family. He will enjoy flying around the world and keep visiting great places."
"Then he can enjoy his big salary with the stewardesses," bf suggested.
I didn't know what we were talking till I asked, "Why must the stewardess pretty and tall?"
And this is what I want to write here.
I don't know why, but I realize that most of the good things are just for those who have ideal physical appearance. Being stewardess is one of the example. I am sure there are so many people out there who dream to be a stewardess, but they are just too short, too fat, or they have some scars due to childhood naughtiness.
And then my mind flew to another thing. This questions usually popped up in my mind when I was walking and seeing my surrounding.
Why is fashion created only for those with ideal body?
Yeah, why? I mean, you can see, all the catwalk models are in the very best shape. And the outfits are created for people like them to wear, not for those with excess fat here and there. And when you walk around stores, you will hardly find trendy outfit for XXXL or even XXXXXXXXXL size.
Don't fat people deserve the right to look pretty?
I am sure they feel like wearing those pretty and cute outfits also, but most of the time, they can only wear T-shirts and jeans.
I feel very sad for that condition. Those designers draw for the most ideal body in this world. Even if the manufacturer produced the bigger size, they would look awful in it.
Why don't they start to really draw and design for fat people, so that they will still look pretty even if they have tons of fat?
If I were a fashion designer, ...
Ok, I know, I am not.
Ok, it's a bit small, but you still can get what I mean, right???
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Civil Engineering, my main dish :)
Now I am thinking back, I have lost so many good opportunities in my university life. I had so many things I wanted to do, but I never dared to jump into it and made decision. I am a chicken. D**n.
My mom wanted me to master Chinese by studying in this tiny little dot. I did take the introductory subject, but guess, I didn't dare to take the next level just because I was afraid my GPA would decrease. Yes, I didn't really like it but mastering one more language was nothing to lose, right?
During my second year, I planned to pursue a minor in Communication Studies. I took the first subject of the module, but the grade I got really ruined my GPA, so I just gave it up. I was so coward, wasn't I?
Then after giving up the communication studies which I enjoyed very much, I planned to apply for a minor in entrepreneurship. But, it was just a plan anyway. I chose my way back home rather than more exposure to the real life.
Starting my third year, I decided to learn French. I hoped I could finish three levels of French lessons in the module. I planned to take one in my fifth semester, and the rests in my seventh and eighth semester respectively. I planned to used my last S/U option for the last level. But, due to my paranoia about my GPA, I used up the S/U option. Automatically, I couldn't take the next level. Ok, I can, if I really want to take risk. I just don't want to risk my GPA.
Before my IA was started, I thought it's good for me to taste other country. I thought about GSS. But again, I didn't apply for it. I chose to come back home and be my daddy's little girl.
And now, I feel like trying to teach tuition. It's not all about money. Yeah, money is important, but I want to feel the taste of doing part time job in my university life. But, I 'm really scared I cannot teach well. I'm scared of ruining somebody's child. And again, I must say, I am a chicken. Coward. Whatever.
Will I, once again, lose another chance to improve?
I don't know. But, one thing I am sure that I will not let anybody or anything ruin my chance to be an excellent civil engineer. If I can't eat the side dish, I will not let anyone take my main dish. I will eat up all of the main dish. No sharing. I am greedy. Yes I am.
I will put my best for my future in civil engineering.
I love civil engineering.
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
My mom wanted me to master Chinese by studying in this tiny little dot. I did take the introductory subject, but guess, I didn't dare to take the next level just because I was afraid my GPA would decrease. Yes, I didn't really like it but mastering one more language was nothing to lose, right?
During my second year, I planned to pursue a minor in Communication Studies. I took the first subject of the module, but the grade I got really ruined my GPA, so I just gave it up. I was so coward, wasn't I?
Then after giving up the communication studies which I enjoyed very much, I planned to apply for a minor in entrepreneurship. But, it was just a plan anyway. I chose my way back home rather than more exposure to the real life.
Starting my third year, I decided to learn French. I hoped I could finish three levels of French lessons in the module. I planned to take one in my fifth semester, and the rests in my seventh and eighth semester respectively. I planned to used my last S/U option for the last level. But, due to my paranoia about my GPA, I used up the S/U option. Automatically, I couldn't take the next level. Ok, I can, if I really want to take risk. I just don't want to risk my GPA.
Before my IA was started, I thought it's good for me to taste other country. I thought about GSS. But again, I didn't apply for it. I chose to come back home and be my daddy's little girl.
And now, I feel like trying to teach tuition. It's not all about money. Yeah, money is important, but I want to feel the taste of doing part time job in my university life. But, I 'm really scared I cannot teach well. I'm scared of ruining somebody's child. And again, I must say, I am a chicken. Coward. Whatever.
Will I, once again, lose another chance to improve?
I don't know. But, one thing I am sure that I will not let anybody or anything ruin my chance to be an excellent civil engineer. If I can't eat the side dish, I will not let anyone take my main dish. I will eat up all of the main dish. No sharing. I am greedy. Yes I am.
I will put my best for my future in civil engineering.
I love civil engineering.
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
This will not happen, I promise
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
Future
Friday night. In my room. Thinking.
This week was a happy week. I was very busy for a whole week. Everyone seemed to try to assign me work and kept me busy. And suddenly I remembered a short conversation not long time ago.
That time, one senior engineer has just come back from somewhere. She saw me.
Senior Engineer: Hi, you are????
Me: Febrina. I'm intern.
Senior Engineer: Oooh, I thought you are the assistant of *******!!!
Me: *smiling, don't know what to say*
Supervisor: No, she is the assistant of everyone.
Me: Yes *nodding*
At that time, I really didn't think that I was the assistant of everyone, like my supervisor had said. I was just nothing in the office. I spent my time looking at my computer screen *it means facebook-ing* and no one even bothered to see what I was doing.
I really felt useless. I was paid to sit down and waste the electricity, water, internet, and even oxygen. I felt like getting angry, but who could I blame?
And then, I was shifted to another table, far far away from my supervisor whom I used to sit beside. I was very scared that I would become more and more useless. I was afraid of spending the rest of my internship doing nothing. But, really, everything turned out to be beautiful at the right time. After being shifted, the senior engineer started to give me work. He asked me to model a certain section by myself, and run it. I still remembered my feeling when I finished my first real job, although it's just a very simple model. I was so proud that I could contribute to my company. I was worth to be hired! Haha.
Yeah, the work came and went. Sometimes I still had nothing to do except facebook. But this week I felt happier. I love to be busy, and it's true. I felt grateful for getting more trusts from my colleagues. They have trusted me, that's the reason they started to give me work. Even this week, I shared the work load with them for one project. It's an honour for me!
I am thankful for being given a chance to learn here. It's such a blessing to work in this big company, be surrounded by good people who always explained everything I asked whole-heartedly, and learn so many new things. I realize how things are much more complicated in the practical civil engineering works. So many investigations, observations, explorations, and analysis need to be done before the work starts. It's not just like solving the exam question. It's regarding life and death of people!
So, I should be very thankful for being a civil engineer, the one who takes care of people's life. I must learn hard, pray hars, and later, work hard. :)
This several days, especially now, I am thinking hard about any specialization I will take for my future career. Since the first time I learned Soil Mechanics, I have been falling in love with it. Until now, I still love it. But I didn't think that my grades were good enough to try to master this complicated part of civil engineering. I don't know, I feel like very confused.
During my working time, I enjoyed the work as a geotechnical engineer, really. But, most of the time, I felt so lost about what I was doing. I asked, they explained, I realized that I actually had learned the stuffs at school but had forgotten it for so long. Am I destined to be one of my colleagues in the future?
And then, I realized, God has shown me the way since the very first time.
During the fuss and mess of IA registration, I had considered some choices. First, whether I wanted to do Geotechnical or Structural Engineering. Second, where I wanted to work. For the first consideration, I decided to apply for Structural field for the sake of exposure. I thought maybe I could be in love with steel and concrete, also. And for the second one, it was really difficult. I had some companies in mind, but I didn't know which one to choose. After a long winded consultations with several seniors and friends, I chose AECOM, with structural field in the description.
And guess, the first day I came, I was so surprised, they assigned me in geotechnical division!
Do you think God has shown me my way since then?
God knows the right thing for me. And I believe in Him.
:)
Happy Geotechnic-ing!!!
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
This week was a happy week. I was very busy for a whole week. Everyone seemed to try to assign me work and kept me busy. And suddenly I remembered a short conversation not long time ago.
That time, one senior engineer has just come back from somewhere. She saw me.
Senior Engineer: Hi, you are????
Me: Febrina. I'm intern.
Senior Engineer: Oooh, I thought you are the assistant of *******!!!
Me: *smiling, don't know what to say*
Supervisor: No, she is the assistant of everyone.
Me: Yes *nodding*
At that time, I really didn't think that I was the assistant of everyone, like my supervisor had said. I was just nothing in the office. I spent my time looking at my computer screen *it means facebook-ing* and no one even bothered to see what I was doing.
I really felt useless. I was paid to sit down and waste the electricity, water, internet, and even oxygen. I felt like getting angry, but who could I blame?
And then, I was shifted to another table, far far away from my supervisor whom I used to sit beside. I was very scared that I would become more and more useless. I was afraid of spending the rest of my internship doing nothing. But, really, everything turned out to be beautiful at the right time. After being shifted, the senior engineer started to give me work. He asked me to model a certain section by myself, and run it. I still remembered my feeling when I finished my first real job, although it's just a very simple model. I was so proud that I could contribute to my company. I was worth to be hired! Haha.
Yeah, the work came and went. Sometimes I still had nothing to do except facebook. But this week I felt happier. I love to be busy, and it's true. I felt grateful for getting more trusts from my colleagues. They have trusted me, that's the reason they started to give me work. Even this week, I shared the work load with them for one project. It's an honour for me!
I am thankful for being given a chance to learn here. It's such a blessing to work in this big company, be surrounded by good people who always explained everything I asked whole-heartedly, and learn so many new things. I realize how things are much more complicated in the practical civil engineering works. So many investigations, observations, explorations, and analysis need to be done before the work starts. It's not just like solving the exam question. It's regarding life and death of people!
So, I should be very thankful for being a civil engineer, the one who takes care of people's life. I must learn hard, pray hars, and later, work hard. :)
This several days, especially now, I am thinking hard about any specialization I will take for my future career. Since the first time I learned Soil Mechanics, I have been falling in love with it. Until now, I still love it. But I didn't think that my grades were good enough to try to master this complicated part of civil engineering. I don't know, I feel like very confused.
During my working time, I enjoyed the work as a geotechnical engineer, really. But, most of the time, I felt so lost about what I was doing. I asked, they explained, I realized that I actually had learned the stuffs at school but had forgotten it for so long. Am I destined to be one of my colleagues in the future?
And then, I realized, God has shown me the way since the very first time.
During the fuss and mess of IA registration, I had considered some choices. First, whether I wanted to do Geotechnical or Structural Engineering. Second, where I wanted to work. For the first consideration, I decided to apply for Structural field for the sake of exposure. I thought maybe I could be in love with steel and concrete, also. And for the second one, it was really difficult. I had some companies in mind, but I didn't know which one to choose. After a long winded consultations with several seniors and friends, I chose AECOM, with structural field in the description.
And guess, the first day I came, I was so surprised, they assigned me in geotechnical division!
Do you think God has shown me my way since then?
God knows the right thing for me. And I believe in Him.
:)
Happy Geotechnic-ing!!!
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Senyumnya
Dia sadar aku sering memperhatikannya seiring langkah kakiku
Hari ini dia tersenyum padaku
Dan melambai
Semoga ia bahagia tahu bahwa ada yang benar-benar mencari keberadaannya
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
The Plan II
As promised, I am going to post the plan for the holiday trip planning. I have finished my works today, and now this is the time for enjoying the remaining half an hour.
Jogjakarta, here I come!!!
1. Candi Prambanan
Jogjakarta, here I come!!!
1. Candi Prambanan
This is the biggest complex of Hindi temples in Indonesian. It consists of hundreds temples. A folklore is actually linked with this complex of temples. Just google Sangkuriang for more informations.
2. Candi Ratu Boko
This site is located three kilometer south of Prambanan. Both Buddhist and Hindu aspects can be found in this complex. Lisa said this was the best place to watch the sun setting.
3. Pantai Parangtritis
We will have our dinner here! Yeah, having a dinner with your besties surrounded by wave and ocean wind, do you need to ask for more? Parangtritis is a beach located 27 km from the centre of Jogjakarta and of course, this spot also has a very tight relationship with some myths in Indonesia.
4. Alun-alun Jogjakarta
Alun-Alun Kidul, that's what its name. It is located behind the famous Keraton Jogjakarta which will be explained in the later part. Night at Alkid will sure be a memorable night. Sitting and laughing together while feeling the wind breeze will be the things we will do, I think.
5. Candi Mendut
Another temple, yes. Candi Mendut is a Buddhist temple located at Magelang. This temple have a relationship with two other Buddhist temple at that area, namely Candi Pawon and Candi borobudur.
6. Candi Borobudur
Candi Borobudur, three kilometers west from Mendut. Together with Pawon, the three temples make a straight line in the map. And absolutely, this one is also a Buddhist temple.
7. Jejamuran restaurant
The place where you can only see mushrooms as far as you look. No more comment. Should be so yummy!
8. Ulen Sentalu
Ulen Sentalu is a Javanese art and cultural museum located in Kaliurang. I can't wait to see!!!
9. Malioboro
Yeah, a place for spending your money. I think we will do a BIG shopping here. All the things are so cheap, they say.
10. Kota Gede
Literally, it means big city, but actually this place is an archeological site in Jogjakarta contains the remain of Keraton (palace), the graveyard, and the royal mosque of Mataram.
11. House of Raminten
A restaurant in a Javanese theme. Raminten means a girl who sells jamu, and yeah, the restaurant really serves jamu.
12. Keraton Jogjakarta
This is the palace of the king of Jogjakarta. Yeah, finally I will enter a palace, although I prefer a castle like that in fairy tale. Haha.
13. Bale Raos
I heard that this restaurant serves the favourite cuisine of the king!!!
14. Taman Sari
A water castle, Man. I cannot wait to come and feel the luxury. Hahaha.
15. Pantai Baron
Besides the beach, there is an underground river nearby. It is located 65 km from Jogjakarta. A long way to pass, I guess, but it must be worthed!!!
16. Bukit Bintang
How about seeing Jogjakarta from above???
I am 20 minutes late from my knock off time because of this!!!
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
Barisan kata hati
Bibir terkunci
Mata terkatup
Seperti benci
Pintu hati menutup
Sedih tak terucap
Marah tak terluap
Hati terasa pengap
Tak mampu berharap
Senyum tak merekah
Tawa tak membahana
Hanya sunyi beramah-tamah
Menjilat hati yang luka-luka
Beratus hari beriringan
Beratus senja bergandengan
Beribu harap akan angan-angan
Berjuta asa untuk impian
Dua hati untuk satu mimpi
Dua hati satu mimpi beribu masa
Janji itu seperti baru kemarin pagi
Masihkah semua itu nyata?
Manis mulai meremang
Langkah kaki terasa gamang
Takut melayang-layang
Mencari-cari rasa yang hilang
Akhir di sana
Berdiri diam di sudut mata
Bergerilya
Menyerang pada saatnya
Jiwa gemetar
Walau raga tak gentar
Takut merasuk hingga ke akar
Bayang-bayang kekalahan menggelepar
Mengusir akhir
Mencari kekal
Tak ingin batu kenangan terukir
Dan debu pasir di atasnya menebal
Hati tersambung
Selamanya
Tak berujung
Bahagia
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
Mata terkatup
Seperti benci
Pintu hati menutup
Sedih tak terucap
Marah tak terluap
Hati terasa pengap
Tak mampu berharap
Senyum tak merekah
Tawa tak membahana
Hanya sunyi beramah-tamah
Menjilat hati yang luka-luka
Beratus hari beriringan
Beratus senja bergandengan
Beribu harap akan angan-angan
Berjuta asa untuk impian
Dua hati untuk satu mimpi
Dua hati satu mimpi beribu masa
Janji itu seperti baru kemarin pagi
Masihkah semua itu nyata?
Manis mulai meremang
Langkah kaki terasa gamang
Takut melayang-layang
Mencari-cari rasa yang hilang
Akhir di sana
Berdiri diam di sudut mata
Bergerilya
Menyerang pada saatnya
Jiwa gemetar
Walau raga tak gentar
Takut merasuk hingga ke akar
Bayang-bayang kekalahan menggelepar
Mengusir akhir
Mencari kekal
Tak ingin batu kenangan terukir
Dan debu pasir di atasnya menebal
Hati tersambung
Selamanya
Tak berujung
Bahagia
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
Monday, April 05, 2010
Happy
A simple happiness is the one which is very difficult to find. Most of the time, people get excited for some spectacular things, but they forget how to be happy for some very simple yet amazing details.
So do I.
I was expecting something very special, extremely spectacular, surprisingly huge, and incredibly jaw-dropping. And you can guess, I have never got what I wanted. Never.
Now I am trying to be happy even for every single drop of tears people put in my eyes. I am trying to be thankful even for every single time I am soaked in the pouring rain. I am trying to stop complaining even this world seems to fight against me. I am trying. Yeah, I am trying.
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
So do I.
I was expecting something very special, extremely spectacular, surprisingly huge, and incredibly jaw-dropping. And you can guess, I have never got what I wanted. Never.
Now I am trying to be happy even for every single drop of tears people put in my eyes. I am trying to be thankful even for every single time I am soaked in the pouring rain. I am trying to stop complaining even this world seems to fight against me. I am trying. Yeah, I am trying.
U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~
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