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U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Sebenernya hari ini saya ga pengen ngeblog, karena jumlah postingan saya bulan ini udah bagus banget... Lima puluh... Artinya saya ngepost sekitar 1.66... post per hari... Hahaha... Produktif amat yah...

Tapi... Apa mau dikata... Hasrat ngepost begitu besar hari ini... Walopun tadi pagi udah ngeblog di friendster blog, tetep aja rasanya ga lengkap... Hahaha...

Jadi, ya, gini... Sebenernya saya harusnya lagi belajar sekarang... Tapi, sejak balik kuliah 3 jam yang lalu, saya malah maen game bareng Wahyu... Hihi... Dia maen di kamarnya, aku maen di kamarku, sambil MSN-an n tuker-tukeran info...

Dapet link game ini dari roomie kemaren malem... Kemaren sih ga terlalu excited, tapi hari ini kok aku ngerasa game itu seru habis... Hahaha... Ceritanya, kita lagi terkurung di dalem sebuah ruangan, jadi kita harus mecahin kode-kode buat keluar dari ruangan itu...

Akhirnya selama 3 jam ini, saya kerja sama bareng Wahyu, nyari barang-barang n mecahin kode... Eh, setelah pintunya kebuka, di luar masih ada kode lagi ternyata... Dan yang bikin sebel, ga bisa masuk lagi... Wakakaka...

Game ini saya pending dulu deh kayanya... Mau belajar dulu nih... Hahaha...

Lumayan...
Maen game ini bikin aku melupakan kesedihanku untuk sejenak...
Tapi cuma sejenak doank...

Setelah aku klik tombol x di kanan atas screen, aku ngerasa sedih lagi...
Ya, ya, ya... Inilah hidup... Harus fluktuatif... Ada saatnya sedih, ada saatnya senang... ada saatnya menang, ada saatnya kalah... Ada saatnya berterimakasih, ada saatnya minta maaf... Dan yang pasti, ada saatnya bertemu, ada saatnya berpisah...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Baby, I don't know, really don't know, what is going on inside your brain and inside your heart... But, Baby, to be honest with you, I think I cannot stand for longer... Now, Baby, I want to cry, I want to scream, I want to be hugged by my mom... Really... I have no strength to face you anymore...

You keep walking on your side and I keep walking on my destiny is a very good choice, I think... Do you agree with me, Baby???

I can find no one, no one, Baby, who can understand me, except my mom... I want to get back to her arm and sleep there as long as I can... You know, Baby, I want to be her little girl as long as possible, so that I don't have to see how cruel this world is... I don't have to see her, see him, or even you, Baby...

You know ma? Too much pressure will create stress and stress can cause fracture...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Still very noon, but I am really thinking of ending today as soon as possible... Ya, ya, ya... I am not too happy today... Woke up this morning, I took a bath, then went to Canteen 2... I had an appointment with other Palzzz members to go to temple together... Ya, when I reached there, Gunawan and Denny were there already... Waiting for Windi and Andre to come, then we went to Hall 8 bus stop... Asun, Nicos, and Ahin took the bus at Hall 11 Bus Stop, then we went together...

Today was very very very hot, actually... This kind of weather made my heart also burned... My mood automatically (of course also due to external and internal factors) fluctuated to a very high rate of anger... I scolded Gunawan many times today... Very sorry...

In fact, I had another appointment with Solidaritas subcomms for photo taking session at 11.25... But, although we reached the nearest bus stop from the temple at 10.40, I still came late to ADM for one hour... Can you imagine, one hour... I felt very guilty as others waited for me for that long... Phew...

You know why this could happen??? Ya, ya, ya... We waited for 199 for about one hour, then there was a traffic jam at Jalan Bahar... S*** la...

Huhu...
Dilla, There, Aufar, Kharisma, and Nia... Forgive me...

Very very sorry...

And this evening... I will have an OG meeting... Please, please, please, don't let this one spoiled like others two appointment... Phew...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I thought bout writing this post because of a link Wawan and Ivan sent me... They made me watch a video from youtube about Earth hour 2008...

Earth hour? What is it???

It is one of the support to the earth against global warming...

This event was first started in Aussie last year, 31st March 2007... From 7.30 PM till 8.30 PM, all households and businesses turned off their electricity and used candles as substitution... Just one hour once a year and it could help saving many joules or even megajoules of energy...

Ya, ya, ya... WWF was brave enough to start this big step, because we know, human cannot live without electricity, computer, television, DVD player, or even water heater... And, surprisingly, the decision was very welcomed by the world...

This year, in fact, today, Earth Hour 2008 is held and a lot of countries take part... From 8 PM to 9 PM, they cut the electricity off... And, hey, think about how much energy we saved...

And one think that made me proud is, according to Wikipedia, Jakarta was one of the partner city that took part in this event... I don't know this information is right or wrong since I don't live in Indonesia and I didn't watch TV for a while (or a long while)...

But...
Why didn't Singapore join this event???

Hmm...

Never mind la...
The most important thing about this event was not how many cities were being the partner citied or how much energy we have saved... This was all about making us realize that our earth needs help from us...

Our lovely earth needs us to love and care for it...

Don't say that one person cannot change this world... (I say this because one of my friends always say this when I told him not to waste paper and plastic or to recycle or just not to waste electricity)

One person cannot change this world, but one person can be the yardstick for others so that the standard will keep increasing till all people realize how important his effort to prevent global warming...

So, Guys...
together we can fight the GLOBAL WARMING...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Happy birthday to you...
Happy birthday to you...
Happy birthday, happy birthday...
Happy birthday to you...

Yayayay...
Two days ago was Jefry's 18th birthday, yesterday was Savitri's birthday, and three days again will be the birthday for Dya...

Ya, seems like the atmosphere of birthday is in the air...

It makes me want to recap all birthday we have celebrated for Palzzzntu member... Almost a year we gather and share all happinesses, angers, and tears... In two months, no LKC anymore, no common engineering anymore... So, I want to keep all this almost-a-year memories, good or bad, before I start to forget all...

NicoS' birthday

3rd of September... Without no preparation and with pro and contra whether we would celebrate it or not, NicoS' birthday was one of the failed celebration... We just gave him a big paper full of birthday wishes and sang 'Happy birthday' in LKC-LT... And it was Econs (huuh, miss you...) time...

Delli's birthday

13th September... We went to Delli's room and gather to sing and celebrate his birthday... Yap... Very cool it was... Besides that, he got a Kuma-Kuma big doll... Nicos, Andre, and I spent nearly one day to seek for the doll... He was so lucky, right, having friends like us... Wakakaka... Oh, yeah, Aji Sakaw also came...^^

Budi's birthday

20th September... Going to Yunnan Garden for mid-autumn festival before celebrating it... We used Beto's room because Budi wanted to stay here to do his assignment... He seemed surprised... Yeah, although without any preparation...

Ino's birthday

Wah, this one was very good leh. Ino felt really surprised. In fact, he wondered whether Palzzz would come on the night of 6th October, but we didn't come... We came the day after, at the end of his birthday and made him very surprised... Hahaha...

Ahin's birthday

17th October... This one, to be honest, was the one I didn't enjoy anymore... Because of some internal problem, I just came to show my respect to Ahin... Then, I didn't really remember how the event was going... I'm sorry, Hin... If I am not mistaken, there was Ko Yudis and Ko Arie participating...

Tepen's birthday...

1st November... Celebrated together with Ichi's birthday... The venue was outside ADM building... Many Palembang people came... A good birthday, I think, because he was punished to do some things, that I actually forgot, due to his birthday... Hahaha...

Wilson's birthday

18th NOvember... In the middle of first semester exam period... I was not the one who arranged this celebration... I just came after studying at the library... At ADM, very much people came... Yaa, this person was the most 'sociable' among all Palzzz members... And I got his 'second cake' because of some problems arose before...

Gunawan's birthday

Also in the middle of exam period... 26th November... Not too many Palzzz members came I think... We celebrated it in Hall 16 TV lounge, without much preparation, so that it was very messy... Haha...

Denny's birthday

I didn't join this event, so I cannot say much... 2nd December... At Sentosa... Actually I wanted to share the photo with you, but there's no even one with the cake inside...

Rudy's birthday...

We didn't celebrate his birthday, because it was on the holiday time... 13th December... Almost all of us were in Palembang... So, we gave him a gift as substitution... A big rat bank... I thought he felt happy with our care for him...

Beto's birthday

5th February... two days before Chinese New Year... We went to Nanyang Audi to attend CNY Dinner before celebrating his 18th birthday... Actually, he wanted to go to sleep already, but Nicos forced him to play Monopoli, or Risk, or anything until all of us came... Haha... very nice...

Acoy's birthday

We also didn't celebrate Acoy's birthday, on 14th February, because of a bunch of quizzes and assignments... So, we gave him a dog bank, the partner of Rudy's rat bank... Haha...

Henny's birthday

Actually her birtday was on 27th February... But we celebrated it on 28th February... It was her luck that her birthday came on recess week, so that we had time to go out from NTU and give her surprise outside... Merlion was the spot... I thought it was quite good, but she said that she didn't feel surprised at all... Yaa, I was dissapointed, to be honest... But, what should I say?

Asun's birthday

Asun's birthday was quite interesting... We woke him up on Saturday morning while bringing a cake... His just-woke-up face was very funny... Haha... After that, we went to Cineleisure to watch The Sky of Love... Very sorry that we paid the ticket by ourselves... Lol...

Jefry's birthday

26th March... This one was the last party we made before I posted this... Actually, this one should have been very interesting since we had prepared a game for him to go before finding his cake... Actually, he was supposed to wander along Hall 6, find some clues and get Palzzz members with 18 candles... But, it was not that success... He skipped two clues and made us puzzled... Haha... Very funny that one... I think it should be very memorable for him...

Ok...
That's all...

Next stop:
1. Power's birthday
2. Windi's
3. Wahyu's

^^

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I have written in my previous previous previous post, "Newton 3rd law is a bullshit", that I was always being an underdog... No one kept an eye for me and no one saw me as a human whose heart could be hurt...

Really, I feel it again, now...

Someone told me that till now, some parties still think that the case that I got the scholarship was, has been, and is unbelievable... How can a stupid, brainless, dumb, slow, and foolish girl like me got the thing that even B*** or P**** or W**** could not reach it...

Although one semester has passed, they still think like that and they wonder to each other, makes my ear burning...

Maybe they also think that the result I got in my first semester because of some cheat... They think I am playing playstation meh? So that I can buy a gameshark and do the cheat here and there...

Phew...

This world is really unfair...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Lalala...
Today I met my mentor... Actually, I met him just to complete the requirement of accessing the StudentLink... If I didn't meet him, I couldn't access my grade via internet...

I have met him last semester and I have posted it in this blog... (See: I have met my mentor)
And, he totally forgot about me... He asked me again what my name is, from which country I come, whether I am MoE scholar, etc, etc, etc... He didn't remember me... Huhu...

Then, he said the same thing again... He didn't wish that I would get difficulties in my schoolwork, because I am a scholar... Hwahaha...

Then I told him, "This sem I feel rather lazy..."

This is my problem... I am lack of spirit this semester...

He told me about how to balance and discipline myself, not just mug and mug inside my room... I have to socialize, but I must balance it with my study... He told me to mix up with other students, either local or international...

I told him that I didn't like Life Science... He said, "Just do your best... I know you will not see how to implement these first year subjects to civil engineering... But, this is the basic and we need to build a strong foundation for you all... So, keep your good work up and try your best... In your second, third, and fourth year, you will see what civil engineering is..."

Haha...
Actually, I felt happy while talking to him... Maybe I am really alone so that finding someone to chat with is a big big, oh no, huge relieve...

And one thing that made me laugh, "It is important for you to find a boyfriend," he said...

Hahaha...
He is funny enough...
^^

Thanks Mr Chew...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Today was not very good indeed... Yeah, I remember my mom always says, "Starting a day with anger, sadness, and bad mood will bring bad luck." and now I believe it...

I have been struggling with anger and bad mood since the early morning, and sure, it stuck to me all day long... Very pity I am... I am always played by my own mood... Phew... The reason why I can't get a good result for my quiz today probably because of my f***ing mood... Hhhhh, I don't know what to say now...

And really, today was bad... When I saw down at the peak of stair connected North Spine and South Spine, I really felt like it's better for me to jump down and got all my memories erased... And when I saw a car, I wondered to myself how my life would be if I had been crashed? Oh my God, I think I'm crazy... Hhhh...

My problem is my own emotion...

Phew...

God...
Help me...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Sering banget aku denger anak-anak laen bilang, "Ih, anak Palembang kompak banget yaah... Ngumpul-ngumpul terus..."

Haha...
Bangga sih dengernya...
Kita dianggap kompak banget...
Padahal...
Sebenernya...
Kita lumayan sering berantem...

Ntah karena hal kecil ato gede, pokoknya berantem aja...

Maklum deh...
Anak-anak Palembang NTU angkatan 2007, yang menyebut diri mereka sendiri Palzzzntu07 ini, masih childish-childish semua...
Masih imut...
Wakaka...

Anggota kita ada 21 orang, alias seluruh anak Palembang angkatan 2007... 3 orang jurusan Chemical and Biomolecular Engineering, 2 orang jurusan Civil and Environmental Engineering, 1 orang jurusan Bioengineering, 2 orang jurusan Mechanical and Aerospace Engineering, 3 orang jurusan Computer Science, 1 orang jurusan Mathematical Science, dan 9 orang jurusan Electrical and Electronic Engineering...

Siapa aja kah mereka?
CBE : Henny, Agung, n Febri (Acoy)
CEE : Febrina (Fen) n Hendra (Ahin)
BIE : Ino
MAE : Wilson n Rudy
CSC : Jefry, Andri (Asun), n Denny
MaS : Delli
EEE : Andre, Budi, Beto, Windi, Power, Gunawan, Andry (Tepen), Nico (Nicos), n Wahyu

Rame yaah, tapi cowo semua... Hanya saya dan roomie yang berasal dari kaum hawa... Edan emang nih dunia... Ga seimbang... Besar pasak daripada tiang... Haaalaaah, apa hubungannya coba????

Sejak dibentuk pada bulan Agustus 2007, Palzzzntu udah mengalami berbagai pasang surut, mulai dari berantem-berantem, sampe outing-outing yang kadang-kadang agak kurang jelas rimbanya...
Hahaha...

Foto di atas adalah foto waktu mid-autumn festival di Yunnan Garden... Ada Gunawan, Delli n Andre yang gondrong banget, Jefry n Asun yang udah mulai gondrong, saya dan rumet, Rudi dan Acoy, Ahin yang bawa-bawa lentera, Denny yang rada ketutupan, sama Chang Er, si dewi Bulan...

Palzzzntu lagi dinner bersama di Jurong West food court... Yang foto agak kurang pro emang, jadi hasilnya agak acak-acakan... Tapi natural...^^

Dan foto ini... Foto saya dikelilingi cowo-cowo Palzzz... Wakakaka... Lucu... Waktu foto-foto ini lah saya baru tau kalo ternyata cowo-cowo Palembang itu narsis-narsis semua... Hihi... Nanyang Audi, 4 Februari 2008...

Kalo diliat dari kualitasnya, foto ini emang teramat sangat parah sekali... Ya, maklum deh, minta tolong orang yang foto-in... Jadilah hasilnya blur-blur semua... Hahaha... Foto ini diambil waktu Palzzzntu lagi outing tanggal 28 Februari 2008... Sembari ngerayain ultah rumetku, sembari jalan-jalan juga... Hahaha...

Waaah...
Jujur deh ya...
Anak-anak Palzzz kadang-kadang suka nyebelin...

Tapi...
Saya bahagia kok jadi bagian dari mereka...
^^

Palzzzntu...
Loph u...

We're gonna be 2nd year soon...
Don't miss our friendship this long yaaah...


U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I am very good at wasting time...
Really...

May...
Come to me as soon as possible...

I miss you...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Dormitory life... Just realize that somehow I will have already spent one year in Hall of Residence six Nanyang technological University, 91 Nanyang Drive. Block 33, Level 3, Unit 632...

26th July 2007... I and most Palzzz members arived at Changi International Airport... And at that time, I knew I got a room on the third floor... Wow, really, I said to myself, it would be very tiring, going up and down everyday...

Reaching this place, I thought this hall was not that good compared to other halls... The building seemed older, and, yeah, its first impression was not impressed me enough... Then I saw my room after climbing a small stair to block 33 building, then other stairs to level 3, then a long walk to the very end of the building... Wow... Really tiring...

I didn't like my 'room' as well, compared to my room in Palembang... Yeah, a room with limited furnitures... And at that time, it was super duper dirty... I thought I could find two-centimeter-thick dust everywhere in that room...

But... As time went by, I started to love this hall, and especially this room...
I found it very convenient here to go to every hall facilities, like toilets, laundry, pantry, and ironing room... Moreover, water cooler and water heater have been installed just several months ago... So, now, I feel like don't want to leave this room... Haha...

Besides that, I joined hall activities, like JCRC subcommittee and IHG... I could find a warmth and caring from the people in this hall... I felt welcomed, although I am not their 'clan'. I am a foreigner and they still want to talk to me as if I'm the part of them...

Ya, ya, ya...
Another thing is the location of this hall... I can find sport and recreation center behind my room... Really happy having that good view... ^^
Besides that, I can go to a lot of canteens in a short distance... I can also take a walk to reach school...

Today I realize, dormitory life is not that bad... I can learn to be more and more independent... I can learn to reduce my egoistic side, to increase my empathy, and moreover to fill my life with an outstanding experience, being a tiny part of NTU...

Lalala...
I want to retain this room, I think...

Dunno can anot...

Lalala...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Today's full moon is very full... Although I see it through my window and there is a big tree in front of it, I can still watch the shine... Really, today's full moon is really really beautiful...

In fact, I don't like moon very much, because it cannot shine by itself... Moon have to reflect the sunshine to get its beautiful appearance... It seems like moon is really un-independent, cannot stand on its own feet, and have to rely on others... And moreover, it always changes day by day... So that it looks like unprincipled...

I don't like these two things... Really... I am an independent girl, or at least I am trying to be independent... I'm trying to shine based on my efforts... And of course, I'm trying not to change my mind and my decision that much... I don't want to be like moon, always depends on others and always changes its mind...

But...
Today I realize something... Something really different from my perception... Moon reflects sunshine means that nothing in this world can be done alone... Although moon needs sun to shine... So, we, as human, need others to help and support us to shine...
And another thing... Moon changes its appearance describes the dynamic path of humans' world... We have a cycle... Good or bad...

So...
Really...
Tonight's moon is very beautiful...
Go to your window and see...
Pour all your sadness...
You know that you have your friends to be your sun, to help you shine...
You don't have to keep it by yourself and make it a barrier for you to shine...

This post is dedicated for my friend, although I think he will not read this...
I want to see your spirit, again...
Really...
Let me and all of your friends to be your sun...
We will help you to be like tonight's moon...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Lalala... Cape banget hari ini... Fiuuuuh... Capenya kaya habis kerja rodi aja (halaah, sok-sok pernah kerja rodi gitu-berlebihan mode: ON) padahal cuma melakukan hal-hal geje... Haha...

Pagi-pagi udah di-morningcall ama Eddyman... Waaaa, disuruh ikutan captain ball ngedukung tim GL di F4...
Nah loh, apa itu Captain Ball? Apa pula F4?
Captain ball itu game lempar tangkap bola gitchu deeeh... Satu tim terdiri dari 6 orang, terus saling lempar-lemparan bola buat akhirnya dioper ke satu orang yang berdiri di kursi... Kalo si orang yang berdiri di kursi berhasil nangkep bola, tim itu dapet nilai...
Kalo F4... Hmm, F4 itu bukan boyband asal Taiwan yang ada Dao Ming She nya loh... F4 ini ada singkatannya, tapi saya lupa... Hahahaha... Intinya, acara ini ditujukan buat farewell kepada anak-anak final year...

Yah, gitchu deh...
Akhirnya, dengan 'agak' berat hati, saya berjalan ke SRC, ikutan maen dalam cuaca yang amat sangat panas sekali, bersama Eddyman, Lia, Maria, Isti, Komang, Wawan, Jimot, Hensen, dan Abhy yang ternyata malah ikutan tim TSpray... Huh, dasar Abhy penghianat... Hahaha...

Dan GL ga terkalahkan... Harusnya masuk final sih, tapi kami harus cabut karena ada GL phototaking di NIE...

Setelah pulang, saya mandi cepet-cepet, siap-siap, terus langsung cabut lagi ke NIE... Di sana, kita poto-poto... Awalnya poto berpasang-pasangan... Saya dan pasangan langsung mikirin gaya dan akhirnya kami poto dengan tema: "Belajar maen gitar"... Ceritanya dia maen gitar, saya pegang buku yang isinya not... Terus ada juga pose yang ceritanya dia ngajarin saya maen gitar... Lucu-lucu deh... Hihihi... Sayang nih fotonya belum bisa dipost...

Pasangan-pasangan laen juga lucu-lucu gayanya... Apalagi si Aga ama Isti... Kaya mau pacaran bow... Wakakaka... Abhy n Maria juga kocak abis, belajar di sepeda... Hahaha...

Pokoknya GL T O P B G T deh...

Terus foto rame-rame gitu di tangga... Foto cewe-cewe doank, cowo-cowo doank... Yang lebih gilanya lagi... Kami foto-foto di dalem lift... Hampir aja kena marah ama satpam OI yang mukanya garang setengah mati... Hahaha...

GL emang GiLa, GauL, dan mengundang GeLak tawa... Haha...

Dan akhirnya, di sinilah saya... Ngeblog menceritakan pengalaman seharian, seolah-olah saya lagi santai dan ga punya kerjaan... Padahal... 7 quiz menanti... Merasa bersalah nih, ga belajar malah ngeblog panjang lebar di sini...

Bener-bener deh...
Saya cinta nulis...
^^

Muach...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I'm studying now, studying for Material Science Quiz for this Monday... And I have much more quizzes to do after this... Then, I have exam to deal with... Phew... This two months will be very tiring...

Actually, I have a point of view, a NOT-AGREE-EXAM-IS-A-GOOD-WAY point of view... I think exam is a useless thing... Not really really useless for everyone, but for most, it doesn't work well...

The objective of exam is to test students' understanding and ability about the materials taught through some kind of questions... But, students get a wrong perspective about this... For them (for me, and also you, I think) exam is nothing but to get a good grade in the degree audit...

Then, this perspective leads to a very wrong side about exam... Students study for a good grade, and actually, sometimes, they don't understand... They just bear in they mind, "If the question appear is like this one, I must do it like this step by step" or "Ok, I will memorize all these f**king notes"... And, what will they get? They will get nothing... After exam, all the things will fly away from their head... See, how effective exam is...

Maybe some of students will really understand, but they will not have time to get more understanding through the topics taught in class... 4 months per semester and 20 or more AU to go... How can student get a thoroughly understanding for all subjects????

I think, assignment is better...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

*Just a little opinion from a little student*

Lagi pengen makan gado-gado nieeeh...
Hahaha...

Waaah, ga terasa udah deket exam... Exam... Exam...
Sebelum exam, masih ada sekian banyak quiz...

Material Science 24 Maret...
Math 3 April...
Physics 4 April...

Dan...
Language Puzzle, Life Science, n Chinese 9 April...

Parah banget jadwal quiz-ku...

Huhuhu...

Pengen makan gado-gado...
Duh, ga nyambung...

Ayo, ayo...
Belajar...

Smangat!!!!!

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Dan tanpa kusadari, ada vacancy di hatiku, tempat yang kosong di hatiku, yang harusnya diisi oleh atom-atom yang ternyata malah mengalami dislocation... Dan tanpa kusadari pula, kamu berdifusi ke dalam hatiku, mengisi kekosongan di vacancy-vacancy itu... Kau menyebabkan impurity pada atom-atom hatiku, karena atom kita berdua berbeda...

Karena impurity itu, strength di dalam diriku semakin besar, menyebabkan hatiku semakin brittle... Kau membuat aku kuat, tapi brittle... Aku tau konsekuensinya... Aku akan semakin mudah mengalami failure... Failure yang akan membuatku pecah berkeping-keping, dengan propagation yang sangat cepat, seolah tanpa warning... Tak ada necking atau crack formation yang nyata...

Oleh karena itu, marila kita berdua melakukan proses strengthening pada cinta kita... Kita bisa mereduce grain growth, sehingga kemungkinan hati kita akan slip semakin kecil karena barrier di grain boundary yang semakin banyak... Kita juga bisa membentuk lebih banyak solid solution, menambahkan atom-atommu ke hatiku, sehingga cinta ini akan jadi semakin kuat... Atau kau lebih suka metode precipitation??? Hmm, mungkin lebih baik kita pilih coldworking saja... Supaya yield strength cinta kita bisa semakin besar dan lebih sulit mengalami plastic deformation, dan tensile strength kita juga akan lebih besar amount-nya...

Tapi setelah itu, pasti ada marah-marah di antara kita, sehingga temperature akan naik drastis dan me-reverse hasil coldworking kita... Pada saat itu, hati kita berdua akan mengalami deformation yang begitu kuat hingga mencapai plastic deformation dan tidak akan dapat kembali lagi ke bentuk asalnya... Young Modulus kita tak lagi kelihatan rimbanya...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

*Lagi belajar Material Science dan mencoba menghapal dengan cara yang lebih menarik... Semoga berhasil... Smangat!!!!*

"Aku cinta kamu."
"Tapi aku ngga."
"Aku cinta kamu lebih dari siapa pun."
"Tapi aku ga cinta kamu lebih dari siapa pun."
"Kenapa kamu nolak aku?"
"Karena sudah ada dia di hatiku."
"Apa kurangnya aku dibanding dia? Aku lebih ganteng, lebih kaya, lebih segala-galanya dari dia."
"Iya, kamu lebih segala-galanya. Hanya satu kekuranganmu."
"Apa itu? Ga mungkin aku punya kekurangan."
"Kamu... kurang sreg di hatiku."


U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

"Apa ini?" tanya Lusi sambil melihat gantungan hape berbentuk kunci di tangannya.
Aldo yang memberikan benda mungil itu menjawab, "Anggaplah kunci itu adalah kunci hatiku. Jadi mulai sekarang, aku berikan kunci hatiku padamu. Tinggal keputusanmu kapan mau masuk ke hatiku..."

Wow...
Kata-kata ini romantis? ato gombal?

Pasti ada sebagian yang bilang romantis dan ada sebagian yang bilang gombal... Yaah, kalo kita nih, cewek-cewek, yang lagi ada di posisi si 'Lusi', pasti responnya, "Ih, gombal kamu..."

Padahal dalam hati, siapa tau...
Hahaha...

Gombal ga gombal, cewek tetep seneng kok digombalin walopun dia tau yang dia denger ga sepenuhnya jujur...
Naif sih, tapi, yah, itulah cewek...

Gombalan-gombalan laen:

"You know why I love you? Because it's you..."

"If loving you is wrong, I don't want to be true..."

Dua gombalan ini emang bener-bener gombal sekaligus bener-bener bikin klepek-klepek... Hahaha...

Aduh, aduh...
Hayo belajar...
Kok malah ngegombal...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

I'm the one who don't like to be told how to do something
I'm the one who don't like to be dictate step by step
I'm the one who don't like to be other's robot

Please

Tell me WHAT to do
and leave me with my brain, my heart, and my creativity to work

Can't you differentiate between WHAT and HOW?

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Waaah... It seems like the rainy week has gone and I hope it went bringing all my depression and sadness and stress and tears and anger and my anything bad... A new week has started and I feel more energetic... Hahaha, dunno why, but I think my brain and my heart are trying to synchronize themselves to create a good rhythm for my interesting (although I haven't totally realized) life... I hope this spirit will not go down and down and lead me to a 'suram' life again...

Indodinner and Scrabble Open has gone... The other thing to do now is GL photo taking session, Exam Wishes packaging and Palembang Gathering... Ya, ya, ya... I know exam is coming, but I think one day to sacrifice is never mind la... But, but, one day for photo taking plus one day for packaging plus one day for gathering equal three days... Noooo, will I have time to study? Since I was (now I'm trying NOT to be) very lazy this semester... Yosh, have to work hard I think...^^

I got two interesting stories to share... Actually, I feel better also because of these stories... The first one was from Wahyu Benardo Fanthony, my fellow member of Palzzzntu07... And the second was from Assoc. Prof Lim Siow Yong...

The first story...

Saya pernah membaca artikel menarik tentang teknik berburu monyet di hutan-hutan Afrika. Caranya begitu unik. Sebab, teknik itu memungkinkan si pemburu menangkap monyet dalam keadaan hidup-hidup tanpa cedera sedikitpun. Maklum, ordernya memang begitu. Sebab, monyet-monyet itu akan digunakan sebagai hewan percobaan atau binatang sirkus di Amerika.
Cara menangkapnya sederhana saja. Sang pemburu hanya menggunakan toples berleher panjang dan sempit. Toples itu diisi kacang yang telah diberi aroma. Tujuannya,agar mengundang monyet-monyet datang. Setelah diisi kacang, toples-toples itu ditanam dalam tanah dengan menyisakan mulut toples dibiarkan tanpa tutup.
Para pemburu melakukannya di sore hari. Besoknya, mereka tingal meringkus monyet-monyet yang tangannya terjebak di dalam botol tak bisa dikeluarkan. Kok, bisa ? Tentu kita sudah tahu jawabnya.
Monyet-monyet itu tertarik pada aroma yang keluar dari setiap toples. Mereka mengamati lalu memasukkan tangan untuk mengambil kacang-kacang yang ada di dalam. Tapi karena menggenggam kacang, monyet-monyet itu tidak bisa menarik keluar tangannya. Selama mempertahankan kacang-kacang itu, selama itu pula mereka terjebak. Toples itu terlalu berat untuk diangkat. Jadi, monyet-monyet itu tidak akan dapat pergi ke mana-mana !
Mungkin kita akan tertawa melihat tingkah bodoh monyet-monyet itu. Tapi, tanpa sadar sebenamya kita mungkin sedang menertawakan diri sendiri. Ya, kadang kita bersikap seperti monyet-monyet itu. Kita mengenggam erat setiap permasalahan yang kita miliki layaknya monyet mengenggam kacang.
Kita sering mendendam, tak mudah memberi maaf, tak mudah melepaskan maaf. Mulut mungkin berkata ikhlas, tapi bara amarah masih ada di dalam dada. Kita tak pernah bisa melepasnya.
Bahkan, kita bertindak begitu bodoh, membawa "toples-toples" itu ke mana pun kita pergi. Dengan beban berat itu, kita berusaha untuk terus berjalan. Tanpa sadar, kita sebenamya sedang terperangkap penyakit hati yang akut.
Teman, sebenarnya monyet-monyet itu bisa selamat jika mau membuka genggaman tangannya.
Dan, kita pun akan selamat dari penyakit hati jika sebelum tidur kita mau melepas semua "rasa tidak enak" terhadap siapapun yang berinteraksi dengan kita.
Dengan begitu kita akan mendapati hari esok begitu cerah dan menghadapinya dengan senyum. Dan, kita pun tahu surga itu diperuntukkan bagi orang-orang yang hatinya bersih.
Jadi, kenapa tetap kita genggam juga perasan tidak enak itu?

After reading this story, I feel like the one who was being talked is me... I keep all my problems (my anger, my sadness, my jealousy) and try to achieve another thing... It's impossible, right? Ya... Really, it's impossible... I have to unhold one thing to get another (read: happiness). I have to release all my negative aura and be another new person... Ya, I have to release all my anger to others and also to myself... I should not blame myself for everything minus I have... I also have to be more cheerful... Yup, yup... I'm trying to be a better girl... Keep trying and praying...

The second story...

The happiest people in the world are not those who have no problems,but those who learn to live with things that are less than perfect."
A group of graduates, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life. Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the coffee.
When all the students had a cup of coffee, the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the simple and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee. In most cases, it is just more expensive and in some cases even hides what we drink. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups... Then you began eyeing each other's cups.
Now consider this:
- Life is the coffee; the jobs, money and position in society are the cups.
- They are just tools to hold and contain Life, and the type of cup we have does not define, nor change the quality of Life we live.
- Sometimes, by concentrating on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee
God has provided us. Enjoy your coffee!."
The happiest people don't have the best of everything..
They just make the best of everything.
1. Live simply.
2. Love generously.
3. Care deeply.
4. Speak kindly.
5. Leave the rest to God.
You are the miracle, my friend;
Your life either shines a light OR casts a shadow!
Shine a light & Enjoy the Coffee!!!

And about this story, I can comment nothing... As I said before, I am a jealous and perfectionist person... So, ya, this story is really for me to do a thorough and deep reflection...

Hmm...
I must keep my spirit...
Change myself...
And be a good girl for everyone...
For the world...
For my mom and dad...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

You Should Be a Song Writer

You have the ability to evoke emotion, tell a story, and hook someone... In a very small amount of words, perhaps with some deft rhyming. Even if you can't write music, you can sure write compelling lyrics. Lyrics so good, people will have them stuck in their heads!

Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

You Are Cheesecake

Rich, sweet, and simply perfect. You're not boring - you're just the best!

What Febrina Aryani Means

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You Are 51% Jealous

You're a fairly jealous person, but it's nothing to beat yourself up about. A little jealousy is perfectly normal, though sometimes you take it a little far. Recognize when jealousy is taking over your life, and try to hold back your impulses. You'll be a better (and happier) person for it!

You Should Get a MFA (Masters of Fine Arts)

You're a blooming artistic talent, even if you aren't quite convinced. You'd make an incredible artist, photographer, or film maker.

You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books. You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more. For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests. A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

You Should Rule Jupiter

Huge and hot, Jupiter is a quickly turning planet with short days and intense gravity. You are perfect to rule Jupiter, because you are both dominant and kind. You have great strength and confidence, but you never abuse your power. You are always right. Even if you make mistakes, you compensate for them... before anyone knows it. Headstrong and ambitious, you always have a goal in mind. You are optimistic and believe thing things will always work out.

You Are A Gold Girl

You're dependable and hard working. You never miss a deadline - and you're never late. You have a clear sense of right and wrong. You're very detail oriented. You get frustrated when your friends are sloppy - or when they don't follow through. You're on top of things, and you wish that everyone else was!

Huaah... Saya baru balik dari Scrabble Open di Juroong Green Community Club... Ikut Divisi C alias divisinya para beginner, tapi masih aja dibantai... Dari 3 kali pertandingan, cuma menang sekali di pertandingan pertama... Sisanya kalah... Di pertandingan kedua, ketemu sama OI yang katanya 'harusnya di divisi B' tapi 'salah daftar'... Hahaha... Terus, kalah di pertandingan ketiga sama ibu-ibu yang minta saya ngitungin skornya juga... Terus saya dibuat bingung dan dibluff lagi... Hahaha... Akhirnya, saya dapet peringkat 9 dari 11 orang...

Yah, whatever the result was, dan terlepas dari ketidakhokian saya dapet 2 orang lawan kuat (terutama si OI yang salah daftar), saya menemukan satu hal menarik dari Singapore...

Apa itu???

Orang-orang sini ga bosen buat belajar... Itu bener-bener nilai plus buat negara yang makin lama makin maju ini...

Bayangin aja, di acara hari ini, kita bisa nemuin orang-orang dari tingkat usia yang beda-beda... Mulai dari anak secondary yang masih imoet-imoet, sampe bapak-bapak dan ibu-ibu yang udah ga terlalu imoet-imoet lagi... Itu artinya, dari kecil mereka udah diperkenalkan sama games yang bisa mengasah otak dan mereka terus berusaha ngasah, bahkan sampe mereka tua...

Waah, saluut deh...
Kalo di Indonesia, ga bakal deh nemuin yang gini...

Tanya kenapa?

Pertama, jarang banget ada community club di Indonesia, misalnya di komplek-komplek ato di RT-RT... Kalopun ada acara ngumpul-ngumpul, paling banter juga arisan dan ngegosip bareng...

Kedua, anak-anak Indo ga diperkenalkan pada catur, scrabble, boggle, atau board games lain secara mendalam... Indonesia lebih mentingin subjek-subjek eksak tanpa mikir kalo sebenernya ada hal lain yang juga perlu dikembangin... Bandingin aja mata pelajaran yang harus diambil anak Indo di sekolah sama anak-anak negara laen...

Ketiga, orang-orang tua di Indo pasti (ato kemungkinan besar) ga akan mau kalo diajak maen board game... Alasannya, lebih banyak hal laen yang harus dilakuin... Mama harus bersih-bersih rumah, sementara papa harus nyari duit... Ga ada waktu buat maen hal yang 'ga berguna'.

Naaah, kalo gini jadinya, wajar aja orang-orang Indo lebih cepet pikun dan keliatan tua daripada orang-orang luar... Karena mereka ga ngerawat sel-sel otaknya... Usia boleh tua, tapi otak harus tetep dipelihara...

Inget deh kata pepatah, "Tajam pisau karena diasah"

Ayo, maen Scrabble...^^

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Singing lalala...
Today is Indodinner...
Hope all things go on well...
Get lot of money for GTDX...
Get lot of freshies for GTDX...
Get a new friendship from GTDX...

Tomorrow is Scrabble Open...
I'm sure I will not win...
Hahaha...
Just play for fun tomorrow...
^^

And again...
Exam is coming...
Waaa...


U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Wajib tonton: Ahmad Dhani menghina internet (Internet dunia pengecut)

Sila dibaca...
Mas Ahmad Dhani sekali lagi mengeluarkan pernyataan yang kontroversial...
Internet dunia pengecut...
Begitu katanya...

Baris-baris di bawah ini saya paste dari suatu tempat dan akan temen-temen dapatkan kalo nonton link yang saya kasih di atas...

from OBSESI - Global TV

"Apa melihat, buka-buka internet, blog-blog itu orang kurang kerjaan. Jadi buat saya ngapain kita ngurusin orang kerjaan. Internet itu kan dunia, dunianya orang pengecut. Jadi buat saya
kalo ada orang buka blog-blog internet ya kurang kerjaan."

"Yang baca orang-orang bodo buat apa kita peduliin. Ya kan, orang bodoh tidak perlu diperdulikan. Kalo kita memperdulikan orang bodoh, berarti kita bodoh."

Kesimpulan menurut Achmad Dhani:
1. Orang yang buka blog dan internet KURANG KERJAAN
2. JUGA PENGECUT
3. yang baca blog dan internet ORANG BODOH
4. ORANG BODOH GAK USAH DIPEDULIIN

Pernyataan itu, menurut saya, bener-bener ga masuk akal... Buka internet itu tujuannya untuk mencari pengetahuan dan pengetahuan itu didapat ga cuma dari buku dan guru... Buka Wikipedia termasuk buka internet dan itu menambah pengetahuan... Ga cuma itu, buka dan baca-baca blog orang juga menambah pengetahuan... Seengganya kita bisa berbagi pengalaman sama orang lain... Belajar bukan hanya bisa dilakukan di kelas, jatuh saat lari-larian pun belajar namanya...

Hal yang benar-benar bikin ga enak itu, bagi saya, atau mungkin aja bagi temen-temen semuanya, yang baca BLOG dan internet ORANG BODOH... Hahaha, maaf, ya, Mas... Yang bisa menuangkan pikiran dan pendapatnya dengan baik dalam sebuah blog sehingga orang-orang tertarik mau baca itu sama sekali bukan orang bodoh... Mereka itu orang-orang yang sedang mengasah dirinya untuk (siapa tau) masuk ke taraf penulisan yang lebih tinggi...

Jadi, ya, kalo menurut saya, Mas Dhani lebih baik menarik kembali kata-kata itu dan ga offensive terhadap pihak mana pun... Jangan menyebarkan kebodohan kepada anak bangsa... Negara-negara maju ga ada yang ga kenal internet... Kalo dijabarkan menurut Rumus Mas Dhani, penduduk negara maju semuanya PENGECUT...

Plis, deh...
Apa Indonesia mau balik lagi ke zaman batu????

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Maybe you think I'm very happy with my life... I always smile, smile here smile there... Smile and always smile... But, you don't know, really, you don't know and you will never know, inside my heart, there is a big bleeding hole... Like viruses eat the suspects' immune system, this big bleeding hole swallow my happiness, my hope, my wish, and even my spirit... You never know what thing exactly made me sad and feel lack of everything, because, in fact, I also don't know... It's very hard to find the right excuses why I always feel desperate these days... Because of love life? Because of friendship? Because of family problem? Or because of my overindulge self?

Phew... I really know nothing about myself... I have to find my way to lead me to a better adult... I don't want being desperate all the time... I have tried to change my way of thought, my perspectives, my confidence, my everything, but I still lost in this labyrinth, my own labyrinth... I am very foolish, make a barrier, a big barrier, for myself to develop... Huuuh... Sweet March will become Sweat March, I think...

Really, I have no one to hold on and shoulder to cry on... I feel like crying (in fact, till now, when I am typing this post) but nor one neither lots of tears come up... I have noone to share my burden... I just have a blog, but a blog will not answer my confusion...

Maybe you are wondering, what I am thinking right now... A foolish girl is weeping about her life, mad for everything God has given to her... Ya, I realize, I act as if I don't thank God for everything He gave me... In fact, I don't want to be like this, but my heart always cries and screams... I don't know why...

Even now, I don't know what I type... I just type everything popped up in my mind... Oh, so poor I am, so sick this heart is...

Aha, today sun shines so bright... No rain anymore maybe, but I don't know this afternoon, or evening, it will rain again or not... And now, although the sun shines so happily, my heart is continuing singing sad song... I don't know how to run from this crazy mind... I'm going crazy, I think...

Ten already, and I think I'll go take a bath first, while thinking deeply what I need to change for myself...

Ya, I finished my bath and I still don't know what's wrong with my mind now... Am I gonna be crazy? Do I have to see the doctor? I know what I have to change, but I am really really not sure that I can fulfill it... I can say that I need to be more positive thinking, I must reduce my jealousy to others, I have to change my point of view, and I should thank God for everything... Haha... That's all the solution for my problem... Very simple...

But, another problem rises... How can I do anything I state before? You know, my heart always rejects all my effort... Phew... I cannot be a good girl, I think... I am a 100%-jealouser, or even jeaLOSER...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

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Seems like the sky misses the earth so much these days... Rains never stop for long, just one or two hours stop, then it will rain more and more heavily... Lecture theaters and tutorial rooms look like have additional air-con and even North and South pavilions seem to be much much cooler... Whuuuz... I feel like a frozen meat inside a fridge... And worse, or better, I don't know, I feel my room has air-con also... Hahaha...

And absolutely, the worst thing about these rainy days is the fact that I cannot wash my stuffs... Omigod, they all start calling me to wash them... But, so sorry, I cannot... Roomie's clothes are still hanging on the dryer outside without any go-to-dry progress... Should we suggest to SAO to buy us a dryer machine? Wakakaka... And I don't dare to estimate, or even think, how much time I need to iron all my clothes one by one when the day comes... Hahaha...

Another thing to note is my studying spirit progress... I feel like finding my spirit again several days ago, but, again, it spoils by the rainy days... I think, and maybe also everyone thinks, it's batter to take a nap, or chatting, or browsing, or doing anything besides studying... Phew... Have to be hardworking this sem's exam, I think...

And now... It's raining so hard... I have a class, but 我很想 take a nap...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

And now, Baby, again and again, you don't know what I feel... You don't know what you should know, Baby, and you jump to the very very absolutely wrong conclusion... And, moreover, Baby, you act as if you know exactly what happened, what happens, and what will happen...

I didn't blame for what you had done to me, Baby... Really, I didn't blame you...But, the point is whether you realized it or not... Realizing, Baby, is just not a word, a sentence, or even a book full of sorry things...

If, Baby, I can speak honestly, I don't like you treat me like a child... You drive me here and there, Baby, without realizing it, I think... I really didn't blame you... I know your aim, Baby, is to give me the best path... But, Baby, really, I, sometimes, feel like being your doll...

This world spins so fast now, Baby...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Anak itik
Kecil dan jelek
Terjebak di antara anak angsa

Anak angsa
Cantik dan bersinar
Tak memandang si anak itik
Yang kecil dan jelek

Anak itik
Kecil dan jelek
Bulunya tak putih
Parasnya tak cantik

Anak itik
Kecil dan jelek
Percaya bahwa ia akan jadi cantik
Di antara anak angsa
Yang cantik dan bersinar

Anak itik
Kecil dan jelek
Berusaha bersinar layaknya anak angsa

Namun malangnya
Anak itik
Kecil dan jelek
Tak punya sinar seterang angsa

Induk angsa
Yang paling cantik dari yang tercantik
Tak pernah melihat anak itik
Yang kecil dan jelek
Yang sinarnya terhalang

Anak itik
Kecil dan jelek
Tak bisa berbulu putih
Tak mungkin berparas cantik

Anak itik
Kecil dan jelek
Teraniaya di antara anak angsa berbulu putih berparas cantik

Anak itik
Kecil dan jelek
Mati dalam kesendiriannya

Anak itik
Kecil dan jelek
Tak pernah disadari kehidupannya
Tak pernah ditanggapi kematiannya

Anak itik
Kecil dan jelek

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Starting the day with rain was not very bad, but ending the day with 'accident' is really bad, I think... Phew... I wished today would have never come to my life...

I went hall from LKC-LT with an enormous spirit to stretch my body by playing badminton with my Palzzzntu friends... But, what I got... I got kissed, on my lips, by the shuttle cock... Yaa, I didn't mind... Just a small shuttle cock, not that effective to make me scream or cry or angry...

Then...
A 'rather' big accident happened... A racket slapped my chin, and made my world spun so fast... It was strong enough to drive my tears out of my eyes, but I didn't cry... It just made my sadness and my bad mood came out...

Goodness...
I am going to be crazy soon, I think...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Windi said that rain is romantic... A boy and a girl, in the middle of the rain, together under one umbrella (You can stand under my umbrella, ela, ela, e, e...) or even with no umbrella at all... Oooh, so sweet...

Then, what's romantic thing for me???

Hmmm...
Lemme think...

Rain is romantic, I think... It will be much more romantic if the boy proposes his girl in the middle of a very heavy rain, gave her a ring, then... Aaarrrgggghhh... So sweet... Then, they will watch the rainbow together...

Then...
Dinner on the top of a skyscraper is also very romantic... The matter is not what stuff we eat,but the place where we have it... Eating BK, or McD, or even 'gorengan' is also okay... The gentle wind, the portrait of the night city, and the constellations above can make all rubbish foods seem like rib eye steak... Then, we will talk about those constellations one by one, relate them to our love... Wow... A perfect night...^^

Don't dream that far...
My prince charming comes and gives me a very very small doll will be considered as a romantic situation for me...
I never got such a thing, so a small thing can make me delightful enough to continue smiling here and there already, I think...

Hahahaha...

So, romantic is not about how big you set things for your partner or your partner set things for you...
Romantic is :
- the place
- the words
- the person, of course

Huahahaha...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

(Crazy oredy)

Love at the first sight...
Kata ini udah bener-bener ga asing lagi di telinga kita...
Banyak orang yang bilang, "Aku cinta kamu sejak pandangan pertama..."

Kalo ada yang bilang gitu ke aku, mungkin aku akan balik tanya, "Are you sure?????"

Karena, jujur, aku ga percaya sama yang namanya cinta pada pandangan pertama alias love at the first sight alias cinta kilat alias apapun itu lah... Menurutku, cinta itu harus dibangun dari bibit suka, ditanam di dalam tanah yang penuh pengertian, disiram dengan air yang mengandung unsur kepercayaan dan kejujuran, dipupuk dengan keikhlasan dan kekuatan hati, dirawat dengan penuh kasih sayang, dan ia akan berbunga cinta, berbuah kemesraan...^^

Jadi, menurutku, "love at the first sight" itu lebih cocok dikatakan sebagai "impression at the first sight"...

Karena, cinta itu butuh proses...
Cinta bukan sekadar kata-kata...
Cinta bukan sekadar cantik ato gantengnya pasangan...
Cinta bukan sekadar SMS atau interlokal...

Cinta itu...
Proses diffusion couple dua hati...

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~

Sepi
Sendiri
Aku benci

Aku benci kesendirian ini
Aku benci diriku yang tak mampu tahan sepi

Hidupku begitu ramai
Celoteh mereka tak pernah selesai
Tapi hatiku begitu sepi
Hatiku sepi di tengah keramaian ini

Aku ingin bicara
Tapi tak sepatah kata terucap

Aku ingin menangis
Tapi tak sebutir air mata mengalir

Tak banyak yang aku inginkan
Hanya bahu sebagai sandaran
Tak banyak yang aku perlukan
Yang sedikit kesabaran

Untuk tetap bertahan
Jalani kekosongan dalam kehidupan

U're the best I've ever had
~FeN~